Sometimes I fear that I haven’t sacrificed enough for the deen, when I hear stories of brothers and sisters who left everything in the dunyah for Allah’s pleasure and reward, they turned a blind eye on everything and focused on one goal, The paradise Allah has prepared for the righteous… I fear that the promises I made to my righteous friends to meet in Jannah will never come true, and they’ll wait for me there but not find me, I fear that once my actions are weighed, my neglect overpowers my counted good deeds, which I don’t even know if Allah has accepted from me… I fear that my intentions were never pure and any act of worship I believe was for Allah, I made it instead for the sake of fame and prestige, I’m scared of always being happy and always getting what I desire, what if this a punishment from Allah with which he distracts me from his worship and attaches me to the worship of myself ? I fear Allah and his punishment, but then I remember that as big as my fear is, so is my hope for his mercy and reward, for Allah’s mercy overpowers his anger… oh Allah grant us a death worthy of a sincere pious believer with your mercy, even though we’re far from that, for you are the all merciful upon your lowly servants.