A Work Proposal (Part 19)
Pairing: Changbin x reader Word Count: 4.8K Genre: Smut 🔞 Warnings: 18+, MDNI, Explicit Activities
a/n: Not edited.
You had been working with Stray Kids for a while now and after a long day at work turns into a very unexpected but intriguing proposal. Will this change your world or end your career.
Chan had left in the early hours of the morning, he couldn't be caught coming out of a random building with a manager first thing in the morning, leaving you to rest and think. You knew you had been holding on too tightly to all of them, that you had developed feelings that were far more than just respect and friendship and that you had buried your head in the proverbial sand to avoid having to deal with any of it. Hyunjin leaving had hurt you more than it should have. You had reflected on it long and hard while you were on secondment with Itzy and you realized that although you weren't in love with Hyunjin you had loved the time you spent with him, the attention he lavished on you. It was addictive. But it was also not real for either of you and now that you had managed some time away from all of them you knew what you needed to do, and you knew which feelings were infatuation and which were more genuine, but it was still going to be rough to pull away from.
You made your coffee and drank it in bed scrolling through messages and photos that you had taken with each of them. Laughing or eating or sometimes wrapped in one of their arms you could see how easy it had been to fall into a fantasy. Mentally you prepared yourself for what Chan had talked about the night before, the discussion you had to have and the choices they had each made that you would need to understand were not as personal as you were probably going to take them. Showering slowly, you dressed nicely in clothes that Jeongin and Hyunjin had gifted to you, styled your hair and put on some makeup that would hopefully act as your war paint before making your way to the JYP building to see what your future held.
Your desk was no longer covered in Itzy related documents, so it was the first time in a long time that it was properly neat and tidy, but you knew that wouldn't last, grabbing a coffee from the cafeteria you made your way to the dance studio taking a fortifying breath before opening the door. It was already buzzing when you stepped in met with a small wave of chaos as each of them talked over each other as one of your associate managers handed out their morning drinks order.
"I see you all order the same things" you laughed placing your tablet on the sound desk.
"You're back" Felix grinned brightly, his sunny disposition instantly calming the nerves that lingered in your stomach.
"Our long-suffering manager didn't run while she had the chance then huh?" Minho teased taking a long sip of his coffee.
"What can I say," you shrugged in feigned indifference "the pay is better with your lot". Chan laughed easily along with your associate manager who made a bee line for you to go over what was currently happening and what needed attention immediately to keep everything running like the well-oiled machine the Stray Kids machine was.
"Other than the preparations for the next lot of filming for Skz Code we are pretty on top of everything, there haven't been any issues with the media, the members individual schedules are going to need some proper supervision over the long term but they are fine for the moment" you nodded along as you looked at each screen that was being brought up bringing up the matching one on your tablet to make sure you were on the same page that you needed to be. You always had help planning the content schedule, so it wasn't an issue that you had to truly worry about after thanking him you found yourself alone with the kids and your anxiety spiked again.
"I have scheduled a meeting for us before lunch in the studio" Chan smiled softly his voice soothing.
"Alright, for all of us or just some of us?" you met his eyes letting out a slow breath that at least you had the morning to get some work done before everything potentially changed.
"Both kitten, we thought we could get everything out in the open then have lunch to give you some time to think" Minho explained taking over from Chan the use of your nickname not lost on you.
"That will defiantly work for me" you agreed moving to sit on the couch between Felix and Changbin "So in the meantime we need to go over this filming schedule for the next content block. Did you already have ideas of what you wanted the content to be?" The ease of falling back into work with them was not lost on you despite the unease you held for what was coming they all once again proved that they cared enough about you to behave completely normally with you as you worked.
"Maybe we could do one for each of our individual schedules?" Hyunjin mused out loud "Like fashion weeks stuff or behind the scenes stuff for Stay". You couldn't help the broad smile that graced your face as their ideas started flowing.
"How about we do another sauna or pool day?" Chan grinned while he poked Minho in the shoulder making Seungmin cackle with laughter
"Or Racha logs?" Changbin furrowed his brows "I dunno what we would do but it would probably be fun".
"Obviously I'll do more covers" Seungmin snickered sarcastically before they all dissolved into petty comments and silliness making you feel like you were home again.
You returned to your desk feeling lighter, the ideas they had thrown around would give you a ton of content if you added in the Talker's that would be filmed during the next tour it should set you up until the planning for the next Stay Week needed to start. Opening you emails you started by sending off your base ideas to the media team to see what other themed things they had planned and went about trying to balance out the schedules of eight very in demand men who were needed all over the world at the same time. Fashion week was going to be interesting and then there was the brands that wanted to start working with the kids that needed to be weighed up and signed off on it was going to be another busy year for them and you. The alarm on your phone started to let you know that the next meeting was due to start in 10 minutes and when you reached to turn it off you realized that it was in Chan's studio so grabbing your water bottle you made your way to the one place you knew gave you total privacy.
Knocking on the door like you had a hundred times before felt awkward this time, not because of the meeting, but because of all that had happened in the room that lay behind it, everything that had occurred in the last year of your life had begun with you knocking on this very door. It was a sobering thought but one you really needed to put everything into perspective.
"Come in pretty" Han grinned toothily opening the door for you and ushering you in.
"Your right on time princess" Hyunjin smiled affectionately his words sending a twinge of something you weren't sure what to name through your heart. You let Felix grab your hand and sit you in the middle of the couch where you were surrounded by all of them either sitting beside you or on random chairs stolen from other rooms.
"Like I explained to you earlier" Chan began gently from his chair across from you we, all of us, have had some time to think about this and we want to alter the agreement between us". You began nibbling at your lower lip watching as he paused to let the words sink in.
"It might be better if we start with the harder bit" Changbin cut in smoothly "Some of us are going to step away from the agreement, not because we don't care for you deeply, but because this is becoming something that isn't fair on you. We have hurt you before and none of us, especially me, want to hurt you again so this needs to happen before one of us really messes everything up".
"I understand" you murmured the corner of your lip turning up in a half smile. "Can I ask just one favor from the ones that don't want to continue this?"
"Of course, you can angel" Jeongin answered immediately his eyes filling with concern.
"After Hyunjin left the agreement we took some time and then went out just the two of us to eat and talk, it really helped me process what he was feeling and what we needed to do to move forward as friends and I would like to do the same with each of you who just want to go back to being friends. Like closure I guess" you trailed off looking between them in hopes they wouldn't find you silly.
"That is a great idea baby" Chan nodded "I'm pretty sure all of us would be happy to just hang out with you at any time you liked".
"Ok, with that out of the way, who is wanting out? and what changes for those who still want to continue?" you swallowed hard letting Felix draw patterns on your palm and wrist as you looked at each of them individually.
"I'm going to end our arrangement" Changbin licked his lips almost nervously "I thought about it while you were with Itzy and as much as I do really care about you it isn't love, it was infatuation, and you deserve more than that" he smiled at you tightly watching you closely.
"Thank you for being honest Binnie" you nodded holding out your hand to him which he took instantly his warm palm engulfing yours.
"I couldn't hurt you again" Changbin smiled properly the relief in his eyes obvious.
"I'm ending it too" Han squeaked "Like Bin said you deserve more than this and more than I can give you. Not that the sex wasn't fucking incredible I just think you can do better than me" he scratched the back of his neck awkwardly not meeting your eye.
"Hannie, you are amazing and any woman, not just me, will be lucky to have you as theirs one day" you whispered reaching for him the same way you reached for Changbin the touch of his skin against yours hopefully conveying that you meant the words you said. No one spoke for a few seconds until Jeongin cleared his throat.
"I'm going to drop out of the agreement too, I really enjoyed all the fun we had but I can't give you what you deserve either" His voice was shaky but firm as you let him take your hand from Han and kiss your knuckles softly "But you are still going to be my angel that's sticking".
"I can live with that Innie" you squeezed his hand tightly.
"So, we are going to head out to the cafe down the street, join us when you're ready, if you want to" Hyunjin announced while Changbin stood with Han and Jeongin following him. They left in a group leaving you with the other half of the group.
"You all want to continue?" you asked quietly your eyes meeting Minho's the Seungmin's.
"That's the bit we need to discuss" Chan sighed sounding unsure of himself.
"We all want to keep you Jagi" Felix started slowly "I want to keep you but it's more than just an arrangement where I get to fuck you when I want. I want you to want me too, I want a real thing between us. If that is even possible".
"I think what Felix means is that each of us are either unfortunately or fortunately depending on what you want to do in too deep for this to be over" Minho continued.
"Hyunjin told me he loved me but couldn't keep seeing me in a casual way because it hurt him too much, I don't know if he still feels that way but are you telling me this is the opposite of that?" you blinked at him not quite understanding what he was saying "I'm confused".
"We all love differently jagi" Felix spoke softly his soulful eyes now brimming with emotion "Hyunjin couldn't share you anymore, it hurt too much. But I will happily share you if it means I get to keep even a little part of you to myself." The way his hand held yours like you were precious was making your heart clench.
"You shouldn't love me Felix, none of you should. I told Hyunjin the same thing you are all deserving of so much more than someone who is willing to start up casual arrangements with you" you sighed softly.
"Well, that's total crap" Seungmin chuckled "from memory we aren't the only men interested in you so you can stop selling yourself short right now."
"Seug has a point baby" Chan interjected before you could open your mouth again "we don't need to agree to anything right now, you have all the time in the world to think about whether this will work for you or not, so please don't stress." You nodded slowly processing what they were each saying and what you felt.
"We should join the others for lunch" you swallowed standing up and collecting your things allowing them each time to either protest or agree, quietly they all followed you out of Chan's studio and towards the building exit to meet the others for what you hoped would be a less intense meeting.
It was Changbin who texted you first, a day after your discussion about the change in the agreement, about going on a date at a tiny place that he had found when he had wanted somewhere to go post gym session. It was owned by an old couple who ran it with their son and he promised you would love it, which you were in no doubt about. He had said it was casual so you dressed yourself in a simple black slip dress with a light pink cardigan and sneakers so that you could hopefully come off as not underdressed. Changbin picked you up looking his normal breathtaking self: dark blue jeans and a tight black shirt that made him look like he was carved out of marble, while you drove across the city you found yourself enjoying the calm of the car, music playing softly as the city lights glowed around you.
"How have you been feeling? he asked sweetly genuine concern in his voice.
"Alright, I am still not sure what to do about all of this" you gestured loosely with your hands to the empty space in front of you.
"I'm sorry if it was all sudden and painful for you" he mumbled his shoulders drooping slightly as he stopped at a red light.
"It wasn't really sudden, I mean I could fell things changing and then with the time I was with Itzy I didn't actually see any of you for more than a few minutes it was all phone conversations and texts" you explained quickly squeezing his free hand "I knew that it was going to change when only some of you wanted to see me the moment I came back to the team, and it was totally fine with me".
"That feels like you might be glossing over things" Changbin gave you a short look before turning his attention back to the road.
"Alright, a little gloss but I think it gave us all time to reflect on what we want and how we feel" you admitted shyly watching the corner of Changbin's lip quirk up. Another 10 minutes passed before he parked the car and led you into a beautiful little noodle shop that smelt like your grandmother's cooking. The walls were covered in pictures some of boxers and actors, others family memories of the same couple growing older together while their family expanded to include grandchildren. Your favorites were what seemed to be a small wall dedicated to family pets with various dogs and cats all in the same yard or house looking pampered. Changbin pulled out your chair for you allowing you to get comfortable until an older man came out and spoke to him quietly which made Changbin blush a beautiful rosy color that dusted all the way down his neck.
"Mr Park told me it's about time I brought a girl around" Changbin whispered rubbing his neck awkwardly.
"You can't disappoint Mr Park then Changbin" you giggled grinning at him as he relaxed again. You let Changbin order for you since he was the expert at this restaurant and sipped your drink slowly while you waited for it to be just the two of you again while the sound of pots and pans from the kitchen floated through the air.
"Can I ask you something Binnie?" you mused looking at him softly.
"Of course," he furrowed his brows in slight confusion.
"Why did you decide to end the agreement?" you lowered you voice to make sure only he would hear you.
"Ah, well to be completely honest" he started before pausing for a moment to gather his words his hand seeking yours and holding it securely "When we were all in this constantly like the tour and stuff, I thought I was developing feelings for you, and I definitely was, but they aren't love. No, they are love but I'm not in love with you" he sighed frustratedly frowning again "does that even make sense?".
"Yeah, it does" you nodded feeling the soft skin of his palm against yours "I love you, all of you, but in love is very different".
"I adore you, love you, cherish you however you want to put it, you are important to me, but I am not wanting the kind of relationship you deserve" Changbin's voice had dropped the uncertainty that his honesty was going to make you sad was written all over his face.
"I understand that Binnie, I want us to be friends but only friends if that is alright with you?" you truly smiled at him as the worry melted from his face.
"That is exactly what I want" he grinned taking a mouthful of his beer "We can hang out, joke around and go eat but no other stuff".
"Deal Binnie" you chuckled as a large steaming bowl of noodles was brought out for you.
"What are you going to do about the others?" he asked casually brown eyes flicking to yours as you paused noodles halfway to your mouth.
"I don't know, I really don't know" you mumbled slurping your noodles to give you a few more moments of not answering "Minho said they were in too deep to let go but I'm not sure what that means, Felix pretty much said he loves me, Seungmin could mean anything and Chan... Well Chan has said a few things in the past that suddenly feel far more real".
"Chan’s feelings are deep, and so are Felix’s if you continue with either of them you are looking at a long-term relationship there" Changbin pursed his lips as he put his chopsticks down "I'm not sure if it's love or lust that is holding Seungmin or maybe it's because your too good to let go. You pretty much let us get away with anything. Minho though, who knows, he plays it close to his chest"
"I don't want to hurt them" you pouted looking at the broth in your bowl the steam curling up towards your face.
"This will hurt someone regardless eventually" Changbin whispered before he started eating in silence again leaving you to get lost in your own thoughts.
"So, what do I do?" you sighed looking to Changbin for any advice he could give you, yes, he was younger than you, but he was always so observant that he could give your insight on things you had never even thought of.
"If you aren't sure then don't start another agreement, give yourself time to really understand what you feel and what you want. If they love you, they will understand and if it isn't love they will move past it" he smiled sagely standing up to get the bill and giving you a moment before you followed him back to the car.
"Did you want to grab some dessert? Or would you rather just drop me home?" you teased slipping back into the passenger seat of the car.
"Tempting" Changbin grinned cheekily as the engine roared to life "We will just have to decide on the way. Ice cream was always going to be a good idea in your book so when Changbin pulled into a side street and parked behind a ice cream parlor you knew it was probably just for your benefit but you let him once again escort you inside and to grab a table, conveniently at the very back of the place which gave you a tiny bit of privacy since he could sit facing away from the rest of the room.
"So, is it really just infatuation?" you asked spooning a mouthful of chocolate cookie dough ice cream into your mouth. Making his eyes widen as he coughed a few times.
"Jesus" he breathed clearing his throat a few times before taking a deeper breath than you liked the look of. "I adore you; I spend all my time wanting to fuck you, shit, I would introduce you to my mother tomorrow if you agreed to be mine... but I can't do that to Chan."
"I'm sorry?" you blinked rapidly spoon frozen in mid-air "Chan? I thought you said he had feelings for me? Like he might want more, or it might last a few years?"
"He's in love with you baby" he explained softly "For Chan you are it, you're the woman he wants to spend his life with, have children with, grown old with."
"Oh" you were stunned into silence you were never expecting to get that for an answer you were expecting his to admit it was mostly physical but that you would remain friends not that he lied and that his leader was secretly planning a future with you.
"Chan would give all of that up if I told him I wanted to date you, shit he will give you up for Felix, Seungmin or Minho because that's what he's like" Changbin continued stealing a spoonful of your ice cream as he went as though this was a conversation about the weather.
"Well shit" you mumbled, letting Changbin finish the rest of your ice cream before you let him drive you home, the lights blurred past your windows as you pondered what you were going to do with the information that you had just been given and it wasn't until Changbin pulled up outside your apartment that you were shaken from your thoughts.
"I'm going to walk you up" he said gently opening the car door for you again and taking your hand in his, the warmth of his palm against yours grounding you completely in the moment.
"Would you like to come in?" you turned your head to look at him as you waited for the lift.
"I shouldn't" Changbin swallowed his deep chocolate eyes meeting yours.
"But do you want to?" you breathed tugging him gently into the lift letting him crowd you into the corner one hand against the mirrored wall by your head as he licked his lips seductively.
"Shouldn't though" he began swallowing again "but god I want to".
"Then stay" you whispered brushing your lips against his "I want you Changbin. I want you to fuck me one last time."
"Fuck" he growled as the lift chimed for your floor and the doors slid smoothly open. You slipped under his arm and stepped from the lift leaving him to decide what he wanted hoping that he would follow you, which after another few moments he did. His hands circling your hips to press himself against you as you opened your front door, lips moving to press below your ear where he knew you were sensitive. "Going to fuck you until you can't walk baby."
A shiver of anticipation ran down your spine as he easily pinned you against the wall beside the door pushing your dress up your thighs, you wrapped your legs around him grinding your hips softly against his crotch a playful smile tugging at your lips.
"Too good for any of us" he whispered before crashing his lips into yours, his plush lips molding to yours as his tongue plundered your mouth dancing with your own. You could feel him growing harder beneath his jeans which only encouraged you grind against him harder unable to contain the need in your heart to be with him one last time if that was all he was going to give you. Changbin deftly slid one hand down to undo his fly freeing himself from the tight confines of the stiff fabric and easily pushed your underwear aside allowing his heavy cock to slide between your already slick folds.
"Binnie" you whined as his dusky pink head brushed against your clit sending a jolt of pleasure through you.
"Don't worry baby, I'll take good care of you" he murmured against your skin as he kissed his way down your neck the hand not supporting you against the wall now squeezing your breast. A few more slow ruts had his cock catching on your dripping entrance before he gave in to your pleading and sank you onto his hard cock.
"Fuck" you keened loudly the hot stretch of his thick dick splitting your walls was enough to make your head spin each inch making you feel impossibly full until his bottomed out leaving you gasping for air.
"So. Fucking. Tight, always so perfect for me" he groaned slowly pulling out of you before slamming back in beginning his brutal pace his arms bulging from holding you against the wall as he fucked you dumb.
"Binnie, please" you whimpered your legs shaking around him the hard slap of skin on skin echoing in your otherwise silent apartment.
"Gonna fuck you so full" he grunted before pressing his lips against yours again his kiss swallowing your whimpered cries. Snapping his hips even harder you felt the tip of his cock brush your cervix causing him to spill thick ropes of cum inside you. Without pulling out of you Changbin carried you to your couch laying you down and only pulling out when he was sure you were flat on your back. "Don't want you spilling any of that baby" he grinned ferally and stripped himself off stopping only to help you get your dress over your head and your underwear off before he impaled you again on his still hard member.
"Oh god Binnie" you sobbed as he threw your legs over his shoulders pressing you hard into the cushions. The change of angle lighting a fire in your core each drag of his heavy cock against your swollen walls was extasy the tip brushing that spot that had your thighs shaking. His thrusts were so much deeper that you thought you could feel him in your stomach until his fingers started working your clit the soft pads circling your swollen bud in tight figure eights until you felt yourself teetering on the edge of something you had never felt before the pressure kept building in your core until you screamed his name and let it wash over you. Your whole-body convulsing in pleasure as your vision dimmed.
"That's it baby, fucking squirt for me" Changbin rasped tightly, his hips continued to roll to let you ride out your pleasure for as long as you could. Your mind went blank for a moment the only thing you could feel was the heat radiating of Changbin's body, so you clung to him tightly letting him do whatever he pleased. With your body now plaint he pushed your knees against your chest letting him plunge even deeper inside you, forcing incoherent whines and breathy moans from your lips until he filled you again. This time pulling out to watch the white liquid drip from your used hole, spreading your puffy pink lips with his fingers so he could watch it quivering around nothing.
"Can I take a picture baby? No one will ever see it but me" he almost begged finding his jeans and fishing his phone out of his pocket. You nodded slowly thinking back to the last time he had brought up wanting to take a picture of you after fucking you senseless. "You look too fucking good like this" he grinned.
"Only for you Binnie" you smiled batting your eyelashes at him as he knelt between your thighs again
"Do you need me to carry you to the shower?" he asked earnestly running his hands slowly up your thighs.
"Only if you promise to get in with me" you teased.
"Oh, I am definitely going to fuck you in there too" you promised sweeping you up into his arms.
a/n: Thank you for reading my lovelies as always your reblogs, comments and likes give me life and I am always grateful for you all x
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