so with me there are a couple of types of attraction;
romantic: you know what that is, I don't need to explain this.
physical: aesthetically based attraction but not leading to sexual feelings
emotional: emotional attraction is best described as being in tune with a person completely and having a deep emotional bond towards that person because of the level of understanding between the pair..
purely sexual: sexual attraction towards a specific persons
platonic: very much the same as friendship but I'm more open to that person and I'll usually only be relaxed around them and them alone
now any of these can be mixed and matched but with cis males somehow sexual cannot be present.
I have and emotional-platonic attraction to a certain persons currently and to outsiders who don't understand my ways of showing affection and emotions it would probably look like a romantic/sexual relationship when in truth it is very platonic and very natural.
I have trouble understanding people's emotions without being able to have physical contact because how you touch, how you react to said contact allows me to feel what you are feeling and I can change the current situation around that, the touch can be as simple as the linking of a finger or grazing a pinkie across a part of a hand.
I'm quite emotionally reactive so when I feel an emotion its usually quite intense like I don't get mad I get full of screaming rage, I don't get happy I feel soaring joy etc... and this can be very exhausting physically to me so I tend to sleep quite a lot to recover a bit of energy so I can go and socially interact again the next day and this repeats over and over. I'm also prone to panic attacks so this next little section will cover what to do if you're present and one happens to come on.
DO NOT TOUCH ME I will physically harm you because I get very violent when scared and I've done terrible things because of this but it can be avoided, any touch that is needed will be initiated by me.
Keep an eye on me to make sure I don't hurt myself
If I start screaming just let it happen
once I start to calm down I will cry...a lot, just bring me my favourite blanket if possible and drink something (non alcoholic)
keep talking to me so I'm reassured that I'm not going anywhere and nether are you
stay with me until calm or call the person in my contacts that I ask you to so they can come and take over if we're not close friends, they will come and keep an eye on me and sleep next to me just in case
the following are specifically for Rezz, Paris and Finn/Corsair
If im out somewhere with you and get really quiet or withdrawn then first check with me if I've taken my meds and it still continues if I have then I need to get out of any even slightly crowded place because that a warning sign for the above and you guys haven't been explained to about this stuff properly like the people I see normally so this is more of a 'Just on the safe side' precaution, Its normally nothing but its better to be safe if it does come around and I can be in a place where it can run its course.
I'm working on a more in depth and descriptive explanation of my whole mental workings so look out for that in the future, It'll be under #About kas
