I'm perfectly aware that I'm talking about a community theater play & I'm a dork, but can I just say that if it weren't for Aziraphale I would never have been cast as my literal dream role?
First, I feel like I should say that in the DMV, community theater seems weirdly professional and competitive. We have a really strong pool of companies that put on such good shows. So being a fat AFAB person, who is too poor to afford actual tap dance lessons and voice coaches, I assumed that I would never fit in here.
But I did! And I did some theater but I was finding it hard to... fit into any of the female roles available to me. And I figured they'd never cast me as a guy because why put a 5'3 person with a giant rack in a role when you have a traditionally attractive man? Who is probably tall?
And when I came out as nonbinary, they were all really supportive of me and I began to be asked to be a guy in like, pub scenes and servant scenes. Little guy moments. Then, one of my friends was like, do you want to cosplay as Aziraphale to my Crowley? And I was so nervous that first time, so uncomfortable, until about halfway through the photo shoot I realized- In the books Aziraphale is fat. It's okay if I have a double chin, or a belly, because I'm Aziraphale right now. This weird moment of 'It's okay to be ugly if you're doing something else well- like being funny or being passionate or being in character' kind of washed over me. It changed the way I audition for things. The pressure to be 'pretty' just went away.
I wasn't going to audition for Watson because I truly didn't think I'd get it. And then, in that room of cis male actors who were heckling me for my knowledge of fandom, I was scared. But I went in knowing John Watson in and out, knowing how to be a guy, and there was a moment that I was like, "I'm fat. I have tits. I'm short." But I remembered it didn't matter. Because I'd been a believable Aziraphale, and six dozen believable servant roles, and I was a believable Watson. No one knew Watson like I did.
And the director noticed. I didn't believe her when I got the email that I'd been cast. I thought it couldn't possibly be true. But it was, and I'm having the best time, and I'm in the most gender affirming costume I've ever been in and I'm playing on my favorite stage.
I used to be an acting major in college but I dropped out because... well, a lot of people told me I'd never go anywhere with it and never make any money. But back then, in the early 00's, I told my now-Ex that my dream role was to play John Watson. And he laughed.
And now I'm playing John Watson.