daily life in my adhd brain
• wow! that's really interesti- someone behind me is talking... i,,, what... i can't hear or understand anything rn... wait, hold up,??
• *people around me being negative* me (internally) : I FFFFFFRICKIN HATE THIS STOP TALKING RN I CAN FEEEEEEL YOUR NEGATIVITY IN MY BOOOONES
my brain : WHEN? WHEN?? WHAT HAPPENED? CAN YOU MAKE UP FOR IT? WHEN? WHEN? WHEN WAS THAT? HOW? WHEN?
• me : i wanna draw... and be productive... but it's so, far to my desk...
• look, can you like? forgive me? OH GOD WAIT DONT IM BEING EGOTISTICAL ARENT I??
brain : god you're lame. you're like a white suburban mom trying to be funny. you suck.
• sometimes my brain completely forgets stuff, and sometimes i just procrastinate until i forget about it, and i never know which one happened
• getting really excited or happy, and fEELING ALL THE ADRENALINE PUMP THROUGH YOUR BODY AND BLOOD RUSHING TO YOUR HEAD AS YOU TRY TO TALK CAUSE YOURE SO HAPPY AND YOUR HEART IS BEATING AND YOURE ALIIIIIVE :D
• being in casual conversation when someone says something you don't like and you get hit in the stomach by a metal bat of emotions, and all of a sudden you're FUMING WITH RAGE AND YOUR BODY IS ON FIRE BUT YOUVE GOT TO SSSTAYYY QUIEETTT
• i don't know how to explain that i have adhd so i'll just say that XYZ didn't work or its broken so i couldn't do my homework
• scared to tell my teachers cause they might think it's an excuse
• currently hyperfixated on writing this in class while i'm supposed to be working on an assignment
• brain : let's go do something!!!
brain : w-well... i dunno... like, i didn't think that far ahead but we should do something
• stop feeling emotions so i can stop being sad please
• 50% not understanding how i feel, 50% being overwhelmed by how i feel