I can't tell if it's because of Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria or some other wack ass shit but for some reason always kinda… it's hard to say exactly what it is but, I guess I have to kind of explain what I'm dealing with for you to get it.
I have a female character, let's call her A for anonymity's sake, who's kind of the overarching protagonist of the story and she's described as being "well-endowed, unfortunately or fortunately depending on your perspective."
Unfortunately because she's a woman, a woman of colour specifically, and her body draws judgement from old guys who can't keep their eyes to themselves. And fortunately because it's kind of something to be proud of, loving your own body sort of thing.
The "problem" that I know isn't actually a problem comes in when I have descriptions in my writing to say "He cried into her breast."
What this sentence describes is a child that A is comforting because of something that happened.
Breast and chest are two different descriptors that are rarely interchangeable, in this case they are not interchangeable. And that's a child. Would be pretty sus if you tried to make it weird bro.
So, there's nothing inherently wrong with the sentence, it would only be weird if it was pluralised to say "He cried into her breasts", which is… what?
But for some reason I have this weird hang up about people taking it weirdly. Which… is weird, because even though I'm not a professional writer, I write with a plan for animation so people won't see my descriptions until the script is released or novellised.
The major thing about my unnecessary hang ups with this character that I know probably stems from my RSD is the fact that I am quite hesitant to make any sort of jokes about her body.
And I know the difference between what a good joke and a bad joke is but I'm so afraid of the "Written By A Male Author" thing that I kind of just unnecessarily filter out any jokes about her body.
I'm comfortable with joking about male characters in the story who also have big boobs and big butts, and my friends were saying that "When we draw A, we can't forget to give her an ass and titties, everyone's gotta be thicc. Don't matter if you're a man or a woman or whatever." So I only make jokes that have been peer-reviewed.
By the way, the jokes that I'm talking about that I'm hesitant of are like, one of her walking into a "Holy House" and seeing a giant glass mural of her feeding a baby and she's like "I'm severely uncomfortable" and it's kind of meant to show how dangerous people who worship a living person as a deity are, and A is kind of a deity but she's Samoan so she's more of a Maui-like figure and this mural kinda shows these worshippers trying to Christianise her in a way.
The other joke was a more of a Deadpool style quip where she's fighting someone and they strike her in the chest and she's like "Ooh! Right in the Amatitties!" Which fits her characters because she's kind of this foul-mouthed jokester, and while she's not exactly like Deadpool it is something she would say.
I know there's nothing inherently wrong with either of these jokes and that they're not punching down on her body, but I just kind of am weird about them. Maybe I just need to get out of my own head. It's not offensive, and I wouldn't be being "brave", so I should probably just stop being a coward.
