His Favorite Patient
Locked doors. Hushed voices. Passionate movements.
This was your routine. Every visit whether it be schedule or for an “unexplained cough”. The two of you would become inseparable the moment he closed the door. You needed this just as much as he did, despite each of your drives. You were simply in it for a quick fix, a way to rid yourself of an ever growing craving for someone. While he originally denied the idea of someone as professional as himself being involved in such a scandal. However overtime as you had convinced him with sweet promises and propositions you began to become emotionally invested. Now it wasn’t just for the intense and passionate sex, though it was a wonderful perk. But now you were there yearning to know more about your physician and amazing lover. You couldn’t help but wonder with each tight grip, each moan quickly covered by a hand, or each graceful thrust if they were worth anything.
Your mind was quickly brought back to reality by the sudden feeling on his teeth gnawing on the nape of your neck followed by small,gentle kisses to excuse his urge. Though, to you it only made the sensation worse. Now you were aware of every thrust and grunt he would make against your body much like he had been the entire time. Unlike your mind, clouded by insecurities and doubt, his was filled with nothing but thoughts of you. His eyes couldn’t help but notice every drop of sweat on your body as your intimate act was coming to an end.
“A-Ah...fuck! You’re so fucking good.”
One…….two.…thre-
“Yes! Right there, please Jin…...j-just one more time”
One….two….
By the end of his last thrust you slammed your mouth onto his in hopes of muffling your moans. Soon after this stunt Jin thrusts faster, crazed by your sudden orgasm. Once they became slower and deeper you knew he was close and you began teasing him. You grab fistfuls of his hair as you nibble on the sensitive part of his left ear. All while your other hand skillfully travels up and down his body, grabbing and lightly brushing across all the right places. Jin couldn’t contain himself much longer as your mouth began to wander and he came while pulling out of you.
“That was pretty close there,” you say as you softly chuckle.
“Yeah….maybe a little too close,” Jin says as he presses his forehead to yours. The two of you lightly pant as you move closing the space between both of your lips, only breaking eye contact to deepen the kiss. Jin slowly backs away despite your shared desire for more only to disappoint you, “I hate to be the voice of reason my dear but, we need to clean up. I do have other patients and I don’t think you’d want them to see anymore than my handsome face.” Comments like these are ones that make you question what you are to him. And your head soon is clouded with the same questions from earlier in your “check-up”. He obviously has some emotional value attached to you…..
You clean yourself up and gather your clothes as these thoughts continue. You want to ask him if it’s more than just meaningless sex or a quick fix. You need to know if he is willing to start a genuine relationship with you...or maybe he already is in a relationship. Jin notices the slight change in your mood and questions you to see if he had unknowingly hurt you or did something that made you uncomfortable. You assure him that he had done nothing wrong but that doesn’t stop him. He inspects every square inch of your body to see if he left a scar too deep or if there was a bruise too dark, he was your doctor after all and your well being is his top priority. While it was very comforting knowing that he inspected your body to make sure he caused you no physics harm it still hurt.
“Hey Jin. What….what am I to you? And don’t say ‘My patient of course!’ or ‘The best lover in the world’. It’s really been bothering me for a while and I just would feel better if you could tell me...please.” You hadn’t expected to ask him like this but, while the sex was full of the rush of danger you also needed some kind of closer.
“Oh….well um. I-I honestly can give you a straight answer right now…” was all he could say. While you appreciated his honesty it wasn’t the answer you wanted. You needed a definite answer whether it be that you were just a plaything or something more.
You remain silent as you nod your head and digest his answer. He apologizes to you and tries to explain himself but you can’t hear it. You can’t hear anything to be exact. The thoughts in your head have eerily gone silent. “I hope your not mad at me...I just need some time to give you a proper answer,” is all you hear as you snap back to reality. You try to reply as casually as possible and say your goodbyes to Jin and leave the office with a prescription slip you never planned to fill for your “sudden fever”. You feel bad for wanting more but deep down you knew that relationships like yours were never meant to last. He was your physician and you his patient, and it should never be anything more. A patient is supposed to go to a 6-month exam and only see their doctor for unexplained or sudden illness not because they simply want to fuck. And it’s that same patient’s responsibility to not feel like there’s something more there than two people that happen to have a sex….After you drive away, you leave behind the feeling of completeness and open the door to a seemingly never ending hallway filled with want and loneliness.
~ ~ ~
It was time for your next exam and you weren’t sure what to expect. “What would Jin say?” was the main question running through your mind. You didn’t how he would react without having seen you for six straight months. Would he be touch starved like you? Or would he pretend like what happened between the two of you was nothing? Maybe he would jump into your arms and proclaim to never let you go. Or he could just end everything right there…….You park your car and slowly walk up to the receptionist. She notes on how she hasn’t seen you in a long time and comments on how surprisingly your health has increased but, you didn’t care. The only thing that was on your mind was Jin and how he would react after seeing you for the first time in what seemed like an eternity to you. You jump a little in your seat when you hear Jin call your name to an exam room. Neither of you say anything until you reach the room and Jin mentions how surprised he is that you haven’t contracted any illnesses in the past few months.
“You know that I’m not here for small talk...you either tell me what we are or…” you trail of your sentence afraid to say that the two of you will act as though nothing had happened between the two of you.
“Listen.” he begins, “what you need to know is that this won’t work between us. What we were doing its...it wasn’t supposed to happen. A doctor isn’t supposed to break his oath and secretly have sex with his patient, especially not at his facility.” You look away and try to avoid eye contact yet Jin grabs your chin ever so slightly to get your focus back onto him. “You didn’t let me finish. As I was saying, I should have never had sex with you but I did. And I never regretted any of it, mostly because of how amazing your body is but that’s a different story.” He winks his eye at you and you lightly chuckle at his attempt to brighten your spirit. He gently intertwines your hand with his as he delivers the rest of his well thought out proclamation. “But, it was never just the two of us getting together when we need a quick fix. That’s why I was so reluctant in the beginning. I didn’t know if you were going to fuck me and act like nothing ever happened or if you were doing it because you wanted money but you never wanted that. And while we did get out of hand more than a couple times, you would always make sure I was satisfied and learned about what I liked and disliked. And while it was not done in the typical way, you still showed you cared and that was enough for me. But when you asked me what you were to me, I felt so horrible. I barely knew anything about your personal life and yet I felt so close to you and, it was so confusing. I came here everyday hoping you would show up so we could fix it and go back to our normal routine but you didn’t. And in that time I came up with all of this. Now, it sounds like a jumbled mess of excuses and sugar coating but I promise you it’s not. This is my answer to what you mean to me and…..I pray to God that it’s what you’re looking for.”
You sat in disbelief and shock. Jin had just told you everything you wanted to hear and more. Nothing could be better than this, he was pouring his heart out to you just like you had always wanted. You couldn’t believe that this was happening, it all seemed like you were still stuck in that touch starved haze and imaging this like before. The only difference now is that when you felt a tear fall down your cheek, there was someone there to catch it and when you reached out and held onto them like you’ve wanted to for the past eternity, this time they didn’t disappear. This time, he stayed right there and held you tight as you sobbed into his chest. This time, his hands gently patted your head and ran through your hair. And this time, the locked doors, hushed voices, and passionate movements all had a newfound meaning to the both of you.
*A/N: I really didn’t feel like doing anything so I decided to spend most of my night writing this and procrastinating. Hope y’all like what I wrote for my bias wrecker....maybe I’ll write something for my bias next >:)
