#adorkablephil

[underground-monarch]

a lil sketch i did a while back, inspired by @adorkablephil 's prb fic Snow Angel, which i was beta'ing. if you wanna know the context of this pic, you can read the fic here :)

[jestbee]

Reading back through Like We Used To because I’m finishing it with @adorkablephil and realised I wrote this in February 2017: 

Had they already started using the phrase ‘give the people what they want’ by then? Or did I psychically predict it?

[alittledizzy]

adorkablephil replied to your post: “WORD WAR CHAT”:

Are these regularly happening at a new time now? It seems like I always miss them. :(

The Sunday ones are 12 and 7 pm CST, those are set times that don't change. But I've basically told everyone that I'm willing to set the room up and make the post any time someone else wants to host one even if I'm not available (like right now, it's the middle of my work day) so the surprise pop up ones are just because someone else volunteered to run it!

[dnpbream]

Tag thingies

I was tagged to these question thingies by @adorkablephil​ and @roiceromo​ weeks and weeks ago. Better late than never, right?

I’m tagging @dreamdilddy, @talkaboutartassholes and @nihilismdan, all of whom I’d like to get to know better.

Relationship status: single Favorite colors: dark green and dark blue Lipstick or chapstick: usually neither, but chapstick in the winter Three favorite foods: I don’t really have any specific favourites. I always cook the same three recipes, but that’s because I know them by heart and they’re easy, not because they’re my absolute favourite meals in the world. Last song I listened to: Get Well Soon by Ariana Grande (as in, the last song on her new album) Last movie I watched: Solo: A Star Wars Story Top 3 tv shows: all time favourites: Babylon 5, Doctor Who (2005) and Emma (2009); recent favourites: Broadchurch, Queer Eye and Terrace House Books I’m currently reading: Letters from Maresi by Maria Turtschaninoff, The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas, North and South by Elizabeth Gaskell + a couple of others because I have a problem Last thing I googled: I googled my university library to see the opening hours for today. Time: 12.14 pm Song stuck in my head: no tears left to cry by Ariana Grande How many blankets do you sleep in: In the summer, I sleep under a duvet cover (without a duvet) and have a thin throw blanket on my legs to give some weight. In the winter, I sleep under a duvet (inside a duvet cover) and a bedspread. Dream trip: Interrail in Germany alone Anything you really want: I’d like to be in a good enough health to finish my degree.

NAME: Rosa

STAR SIGN: Virgo

HEIGHT: 177 cm (that’s like 5′10″ to non-metric people)

WHAT’S YOUR MIDDLE NAME? I’m pretty sure my middle name is an answer to a security question somewhere on the internet, so I’m not telling. It’s a flower name just like my first name.

PUT YOUR ITUNES ON SHUFFLE. WHAT ARE THE FIRST 4 SONGS THAT   POPPED UP? (I used Spotify and omitted classical music pieces.)

Taking All His Time by The Sam Willows

No Harm Is Done (feat. Tunji Ige) by Christine and the Queens

Das Sägewerk Bad Segeberg by Wise Guys

This Vibe by Skott

GRAB THE BOOK NEAREST YOU AND TURN TO PAGE 23. WHAT’S LINE 17? “sillä hän ei saata syödä liian kuumaa. Myös kylmä on”

EVER HAD A POEM OR SONG WRITTEN ABOUT YOU? I don’t think so.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU PLAYED AIR GUITAR? I honestly can’t even remember.

WHO IS YOUR CELEBRITY CRUSH? Does Mr Philip Lester, the Amazing count? If not, then no one.

WHAT’S A SOUND YOU HATE + SOUND YOU LOVE?

   – HATE: mouth chewing

   – LOVE: the rain

DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS? no

HOW ABOUT ALIENS? It’s pretty unlikely that there isn’t life outside the Earth, so yes.

DO YOU DRIVE? no

IF SO, HAVE YOU EVER CRASHED? haven’t driven

WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ? Bubble by Siri Pettersen

DO YOU LIKE THE SMELL OF GASOLINE? yes

WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU SAW? Solo: A Star Wars Story

WHAT’S THE WORST INJURY YOU’VE EVER HAD? When I was 8, I was riding a scooter down a hill and fell over on asphalt, which left my shin in a pretty bad condition. I needed two giant plasters to cover the injury but didn’t need to see a doctor. At 12, I sprained my ankle when one side of a swing I was sitting in suddenly snapped and I landed on my ankle.

DO YOU HAVE ANY OBSESSIONS RIGHT NOW? Dan and Phil, duh.

DO YOU TEND TO HOLD GRUDGES AGAINST PEOPLE WHO HAVE DONE YOU WRONG? It really depends on how close we were when the incident(s) happened.

IN A RELATIONSHIP? no

[waterdnp]

@adorkablephil for the best writer!

@adorkablephil you’ve been nominated! like/reblog to vote! 

nominate a blog for the phanisthetearinmyheart phandom awards!

[templeofshame]

I don’t know how to reply to notes on tumblr, because I am incapable of tumblr, but I Googled it and it said this is a socially acceptable thing to do?

@adorkablephil said: Hey! I followed the rules! I just tagged the person who tagged me at the *beginning* instead of at the end. :)

I didn’t mean that you weren’t following the rules!  Just that I am, sort of, by not tagging anyone else but still tagging you.  I will have to get to know you better before I start throwing shade at you.

Re: lj, I still crosspost some stuff there but have largely vacated due to the whole Russian censorship laws thing. But yes, I am old enough to have a lot of attachment to lj.

[jestbee]

Kindly Calm Me Down

I posted yesterday that I write fluff on demand for my wonderful mutuals who might need a pick-me-up. 

So, just for you @adorkablephil, have Phil comforting Dan during their trip to Singapore. Because who doesn’t need a Phil taking care of them when they’re feeling less than their best?

This might have been inspired by some of my own experiences. The title is from a the Meghan Trainor song of the same name. Because its beautiful and encapsulates this well I think.

Enjoy!

AO3 Link (1k, fluff, comfort, hints at social anxiety I guess?)

Singapore is hot, and crowded, and full of constant interruption. It’s seeing pictures of themselves taken at a distance in their own social media tags and posing for them every couple of hours. It’s feeling that trailing presence wherever they are and while they wouldn’t change their lives for the world, it does have a wearing effect on Dan as the day goes on.

They’re used to travel by now, so it isn’t the jetlag that grates on them. The familiar plane interiors and sensation of folding themselves, long legged and uncomfortable, into too-small plane seats, is simply an ample excuse to press knees together in full view of anyone who may be watching. And similarly, they’re used to being stopped in shopping malls, and at aquariums, and on the street, but it is this that means Dan is exhausted by the social interaction when they make it back to their hotel.

“Had enough for one day?” Phil asks as Dan shrugs off the backpack they’ve been sharing and drops to stretch out on the bed.

“Mmm.” Dan hums into a pillow.

Phil doesn’t need to ask what he can do. Not like the early days, when he hadn’t really understood in as much detail, but still felt the urge to reach out, to comfort. Back then Dan hadn’t been great at telling him how, and Phil had bumbled through, stumbled around what worked and what didn’t. He’d drifted between doing too much and too little.

Asking Dan to elaborate on his thought process in moments like these exhausts him more, and abandoning him completely makes him feel isolated and lonely. Now, Phil doesn’t need to ask, simply removes his shoes and drops to sit beside Dan on the bed. He picks up his book and leans against the headboard.

Dan doesn’t move for a moment, staying face down in his pillow, limbs spread wildly across the sheets. Phil waits.

Soon, sure enough, Dan is shifting rubbing one foot against the other to kick off his shoes, legs curling upwards and body tipping sideways. There is an awkward shuffle across the bed, and Phil feels the dip in the mattress along his side but doesn’t look down. Instead, he lifts an arm and feels the warm press of Dan curving around him. He drops his elbow, transferring the book to one hand as the fingers of his other wind into the hair on the crown of Dan’s head.

The room is filled with the low hum of the air conditioning but is otherwise silent. Beyond the window and out in the hall the world could be moving at a million miles an hour, but in their few square meters of mattress they carve out their fortress, basking in a solitude they can share. Dan wants to be alone, but he wants to do it with Phil.

Phil slides his fingers absently through Dan’s hair and feels him relax against his chest. He’s still, eyes drifting closed but he isn’t sleeping. He simply needs these few moments for his brain to wind down, to put away the day for a moment and stay, suspended and quiet.

Phil feels Dan’s ankle hook over his and soft toes rub against the top of his foot. Phil tightens the arm around Dan briefly, shifting him closer. It isn’t a hug, not really, but it’s reassurance nonetheless.

Dan’s arm wanders over his waist, languid and artfully unintentional. He’ll never ask for this, Phil knows, it always has to appear as if it almost happened accidentally. He wishes Dan would reach out occasionally, or ask him to cuddle when the world gets too loud, but for now he’ll wait for the moments he can spot when Dan’s mind is whirring too fast, and settle for creating the opportunity for Dan to slip in, supposedly unnoticed and offhand. He’ll remain silent on the subject of it, but always have a welcoming space for Dan to drift in to.

They spend so often ensuring the space between them is maintained, are so careful and wary of keeping their relationship unseen that Phil wonders if it’s seeped into their private moments too. But Dan has always had issue with asking for what he needs. Since the first visit from an awkward and beautifully unsure teenager, to the familiar shape of the man Phil loves, Dan has always been reluctant to take anything from Phil he deems unnecessary.

In various moments Dan has eluded that he is still somewhat delighted that he even gets to be with Phil at all, still in awe of him, and Phil can almost understand why. Not because he thinks he’s deserving of the praise, but because he too is still in awe of Dan, still counts himself the luckiest person alive to witness him each day, to make his life and home with the one person who makes him happier than anyone else ever has.

Still, while Phil understands why, it doesn’t stop Dan’s natural avoidance of taking too much from Phil, even when he needs it most. But Phil will always give it when it’s needed. And until Dan learns to ask, he’ll provide it without prompting.

They stay that way for a while. Phil reading his book silently, running fingers through Dan’s hair every so often, changing direction when he feels like it. And Dan doesn’t sleep or maybe he does. Either way, they unfold from their position some time later, stand and go about the business of their next activity without the need to acknowledge their tiny sojourn further.

Phil doesn’t ask whether Dan is okay now, because the smile on his face says that yes, he is. And Dan doesn’t give gratitude in so many words, but the loving press of a hand on the bottom of Phil’s spine as they leave the room later that night, and the bump of a hip against his own in the elevator down to the restaurant, daring and stolen in their public sphere, means <i>you always know what to do</i> and <i>thank you</i> and, most importantly of all, <i>I love you.</i>

[jestbee]

Some songs on my phan playlist: Standing By (Pentatonix), You're Not Alone (Mads Langer), Hold Each Other (A Great Big World), You and Me (Lifehouse), The Way I Am (Ingrid Michaelson), True Colors (Cyndi Lauper), Signal Fire (Snow Patrol), Bromance (Chester See & Ryan Higa), and of course Long Live (Taylor Swift)

[Send me Phan songs for my writing playlist!]

Thanks for sending these!!

Here are some ramblings about them as I listen to them under the cut because it’s long:

Standing By - Pentatonix:I’ve heard of these guys and heard a bit of their stuff on YouTube but I never listened to them too much to take notice. This is totally going on the playlist. I like these lyrics - 

And we've travelled land and sea,Our beacon the love we keep,But when we unite,This will all have been our dream

I’ll probably look up some other stuff by them too.

You’re not alone - Mads LangerI couldn’t find this on Spotify but I will look it up on YouTube at some point

Hold Each Other - Great Big WorldI like these guys. I have Say Something on the playlist. But then, I’ve pretty much twisted that song to every otp I’ve had. Its a good song, I wasn’t expecting the little rap break so that was a surprised lol. 

You and Me - LifehouseI love this song!! I didn’t have it on the playlist but it’s been on other ones but it is now going on this one because my eyes have been opened to how much of a phan song it is. 

The Way I Am - Ingrid MichaelsonThis is the perfect song about long-term love and complete acceptance of the other person. Which, yeah, so them. 

True Colors  - Cyndi LauperThis is a classic song. I really like the message in it.

Signal Fire - Snow PatrolI like Snow Patrol. I don’t think I’ve ever heard this song before though. I like the ‘There you were standing right in front of me’

Bromance - Chester See & Ryan HigaHonestly this song just made me laugh alot!! haha. I love Chester See though. My fave song of his is ‘Who am I to stand in your way’ which I think is just beautiful.

Long Live - Taylor SwiftTaylor isn’t on Spotify but this is definitely one thats in the playlist in my mind. Along with a few other Taylor Swift songs when I want to write break-up fics haha. I’ve always got Back to December in my head while writing Like We Used To.