#again please

[melxbxbi]

How I’m biting back btw

yearning for this so hard i think i actually felt that on my neck 🥴

[becabeale143]

🎶 I kissed a girl and I liked it 🎶

[grendel-menz]

yo im not sure if this is a weird ask so feel free to ignore but like !! sorry i just had a moment bc ive been struggling w being half white for a long time now, like something was off my entire life with how other white people would treat me as an Other, the way they would like reduce me to an animal/the wild friend/make some weird dehumanizing comments, and despite all this not even knowing the truth of my ancestry til i was out of high school. but at the same time i felt like i could never really claim it? like i had no connection to my native side since my father wasn't allowed that so i was basically raised White and every time i looked in the mirror something told me it was wrong for me to even seek that connection. it did not help that i'd meet other half natives here who would tell me that (there is a weird culture here about rooting out "fakers" and accusing people you dont like of faking their history to get yourself more legitimacy). sorry this is all a rambly preface to say id always related to your art about ancestry and culture and finding yourself and how people treat you but felt wrong for it but then you post a picture and you're a stones throw away from me. like, we look like we could be cousins. idk i just went wow, i look like that too, its okay, i shouldnt have gatekept my connecting behind fear of... i dont even know what anymore. idk this ask has no point so from another genderweird half who hallucinates i hope u have a great week month year and i hope good things happen to you. you bring a lot of joy to people

I'm sorry you've struggled with all this, it can be really tough. My situation is a bit different since my mom never let me forget I'm Filipino. I never felt distant from being mixed, just the culture we lost due to some extraordinarily difficult circumstances in the past few generations of my moms side. I'm also lucky in that Filipinos and SEAsians as a whole tend to be very avid about welcoming mixed kids into the community (though there's a lot of racism and colorism involved in the level of acceptance someone gets, unfortunately. I'm pale and treated well, and I doubt someone darker skinned would be treated as well in certain circles.).

I can't speak for Native American communities, but I will solidly say in general that blood quantum and its enforcement is colonial. Your ancestors do not love you in halves or quarters, that would be very strange. When I have a baby I plan to love the whole thing and not just whatever dna percentage is mine. It's just important to research, support, reach out to, and represent your community to the best of your ability. (If I've misspoken here lmk.)

I have Indigenous family members, ancestry, and community, but I don't personally call myself Indigenous because I am still researching and reconnecting, and it's such a big word. There's no rush to things, go at the pace you're comfortable with when it comes to seeing yourself.

Sorry for being long winded! Hopefully that helps or yeah! :D

[siratonin]

How the hell was the conversation eddie had with that boys father any indication of queer/gay eddie 💀💀💀

All i saw was a window to open Eddie's eyes (and for us to interpret these things) to the situation he is with his own son !

"And yet he blames me for staying away" , "but you are the adult in the situation" -> this here!!! Eddie keeps trying (in the wrong ways but well) cuz he knows he has to. He's the adult, and he is the one who made the mistake

"Me and Winston, uh, we don't have the best relationship" , "mm i get it. But sometimes a son needs his father. Hell, the father needs his son! I speak from experience" -> obviously admitting and thinking about how he NEEDS Chris, he is now living without him, and without talking to him for the last 6 (?) Months. Eddie definitely understands well how much HE needs Chris in his life

"But you are missing on watching him grow up, on who he is becoming" -> literally what's happening!!! We saw in the first episode that Chris now have new interests (the pool and that stuff) and all that is happening away from Eddie, he isn't even aware of tge changes in Chris's interests and personality

"I think you love your son, just confused on how to show it" -> Eddie's shows his son he loves him, just maybe not in the way that Chris needs it

"Who are you to judge me?", "i am a DAD who doesn't live under the same roof as his son"

"Its MY fault, and i hate it" -> good now will be finally the time he will do a proper thing about it ig

You see that and think of gay eddie??? Not his son?? The most important person in his life??? Please, use some common sense here 🫠

[securityunit-ese]

I think I like the TV show of All Systems Red more than the book of All Systems Red.

which is pretty amazing cause I really liked ASR and they both have kickstarted different activities (book= taking up fanart again, TV show = starting fanfic) and the fandom has been so fun over both of them.

Pretty keen to see how they push it for season 2. The TV show kept taking things just alluded into the book and just shoving it right into our faces and going harder than I’d ever expect a TV show go. Just damn. The meta and the layers and

I can’t wait to see how the take and adapt and change and flip things from the other books like goddamn.

[therealnoot]

Potato?

Oh Potatoes! I love Potatoes for many reasons. They’re great and healthy for you. They’re rich in Vitamin C and antioxidants.

When Scurvy was a really big issue potatoes were literally life savers at the time as well! They have done wondrous things for peoples health and saved many many lives. They also contain potassium and contain a specific electrolyte that helps your heart muscles and nervous system function!. They have fiber rich skin and are very low in calories as well!

But there’s also the downside on potatoes. There’s some research suggesting that eating too much potatoes raises the risk of diabetes and hypertension which has over time been raised as well from being genetically modified and used in mostly used to make greasy foods like fries. Please take this with a grain of salt. These are of course studies and research and it never hurts to be a bit skeptical even with science!

Did you know that some food guides have started to exclude potatoes from the vegetable group due to how often it’s associated with high-fat diets?(Fast food/Junk food)

Potatoes are generally fantastic and easy to use for just about everything. The saying or insult of “ couch potato “ is pretty silly imo. When people tell you that you don’t want to be a potato or anything along that line they are completely ignoring the fact at how versatile a potato actually is. They are used to make all kinds of foods whether as sides, compliments to the main dish (or the main dish themselves) or eaten as a snack. From baked potatoes to chips to even Vodka! They are able to be used in so many ways and I think people really miss the bus here. I think being called a potato should be a good thing in positive context. Being versatile and able to do or make so many things by being yourself is amazing honestly.

Here’s a small list of things potatoes are used to make or made into

Hash browns, chips, fries, tater tots, potato salad, potato bread, potato pie, potato soup, potato noodles, hasselbacked, boiled, broiled, mashed, smashed, baked, braised, roasted, fried, and smoked

And here’s a small list of different kinds of potatoes

Russet, Jewel Yam, Japanese sweet, Hannah sweet, Austrian crescent, Blue, Red norland, Russian banana, La ratte, purple majesty, French fingerling, Red gold, Red bliss, Yukon gold, Red thumb, Creamers, orange sweets, and yams.

It should be important to note that I am taking classes for Culinary and food. I am learning a lot about food and enjoy food! I suppose this is incredibly lucky timing because I am just finishing up learning about fruits and vegetables. A lot of this also comes from research and I am by no means a professional. Please take all that I say with a grain of salt. I also encourage anyone who reads this to PLEASE do their own research as well!!

[i-own-loki]

Happy Tuesday! Today's my last day of being 34!! Tomorrow I've got a delicious massage booked, I'm going to swing by the jewelry store to take advantage of that mighty nice discount I got in the mail. I'm going to get myself some sweet treats and maybe even some fast food, which I know is a weird choice for a birthday dinner but I never get any unless I'm at airports so that'll be an actual treat for me!

Anyway. I had some lows this year but I had some GREAT highs

-I met my favs for the last time and it was a bit weird because it happened right when actors went on strike so we were not allowed to take photos (we were lucky enough the convention wasn't cancelled altogether) and it was actually better? I had a great seat and I even got some one-on-one time with the greatest people ever and I lost at rock, paper, scissors against Matt Daddario but that's ok, he had our back and he was so happy.

-I finally went to Pompei and climbed Mt Vesuvio on the hottest day of the year (and brought back a little piece of it,don't tell anybody)

-I went back to see my therapist after almost 4 years, which was a great decision, she's amazing, I look forward to seeing her so much

-I took a giant leap and bought an apartment and it was so stressful, the whole process with the bank (iykyk) but I learned to reach out for help and I am working on all of this so much and I'm so proud of myself

-I finally decided to do things for myself and not limit myself because I can't do it with someone else. It's a work in progress but I did a city tour with myself (and 20 other people) and I'm going hiking in Turkey this summer! Again with a group of people I don't know but I'm still going and it's going to be hot but it's also going to be so great!!

-I didn't think I'd write so much this year or have inspiration for more than one Pedro boy and yet here we are. It's an achievement in how much I'm trying to detach myself from outside validation.

-I took my mom to Paris (well technically she took me as she bought the plane tickets) and we treated ourselves to some fancy theatre play

-I survived two major pet freak outs with minimal damage and he's still kicking and turning 9 next week!!

If you've made it that far, thank you for the support, I'm so lucky you're in my little corner of my Internet xxx