Chapter 27: The Great
Taking advantage of the fact that both human and skeleton were distracted with greasy breakfast, Flowey disappeared on the ground.
The last thing he wanted was to leave them alone with him, but after a week of nothing but jokes and not lethal pranks, he had to make a choice.
And there wouldn’t be much more time, if the determined hue of their eyes this morning was any indication.
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Since he woke up on the true lab, Flowey had to make a lot of hard choices.
Abandoning his name or being guilty of all the events his previous life triggered.
Not meeting his father or being held expectant to what he used to be.
Never seeing his mother or being swallowed by her madness.
Give up on trying to help people or being merciless murdered.
Kill and live or hide and survive.
And after many and many failed resets, he had learned his lesson.
For a long time he had chosen to sneak around the cities, to help just enough so he wasn’t caught. To live just near enough to meet people and preach a more pacific way of life, but distant enough to flee at the first threat.
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“Are You Ok?” the concerned voice had cut through his fear like the sharpened bone sword would cut his vines at any moment now.
It hadn’t yet, that had been last timeline, before he was captured and sent to the labs, this time he dodged the attacks in time. This time the guard looked at him with an expression he hadn’t seen in years.
“You Aren’t Dusting Are You?” The monster looked frantic, abandoning the fight instance, concern and guilt making him lower his guard “I Didn’t Lower Your HP That Much” not that Flowey could do anything to harm him, his pellets were too weak to harm a guard’s HP.
But if he lowered his guard, maybe a surprise attack now would dust him and allow Flowey to escape. He couldn’t go back to the labs, he would do anything to not go back at the labs! He thought about taking the easy betrayal kill, but he knew sooner or later he would regret the idea, and go back to his last save file.
“Your Soul” Flowey stopped, his body going colder than the snow below him “What Happened?” he looked at the new guard, really looked for the first time.
He was a skeleton, instead of eyes he had two holes on his hollow head, dim white lights trembling inside his skull. It was nothing he had seen before, it wasn’t nostalgic, it wasn’t relatable, it wasn’t recognizable in any way… But looking at those fearful eyes, something inside coiled at the genuine show of feeling, even if Flowey couldn’t feel it, he was compelled to say something to the monster in front of him “I’m fine”
“NO! YOU–/” He stopped himself and looked back to where he came from “YOU ARE NOT FINE, I CAN’T SENSE YOUR SOUL” Flowey never thought that shouting and whispering could go together, but the skeleton just proved him wrong.
“I don’t have one” There was no sense in lying, not when he could experience a reaction so genuine from a new monster, he was tired of the same faces.
“You Don’t…”
There it was, the moment of realization where every monster sported an horrified face, and gave him either pity or disgust, he wondered which one of the two his reaction would be.
“FEAR NOT” but the skeleton got on one knee, getting near his height, chest puffed with pride, like a real knight “THE GREAT PAPYRUS WILL FIND A WAY TO FIX THIS” and extending his hands he started to heal him.
A guard that was ordered to find him, dead or alive, actually healed him.
And on his magic he could feel, all the kindness and sincerity of his words, not a speck of malice, nor the lingering residue of disinterest of the paid healers, no, this monster wanted to heal him, not because he agreed on a price, but just because he wanted Flowey to be better!
Flowey was capable of healing, he had learned it from his parents. But being healed was so much better…
The feeling… that someone cared… that someone was there for him…
The new monster’s magic spoke more than he could ever describe with a straight face. He would cry, if he still had the ability.
“THE DOCTOR SHOULD KNOW WHAT TO DO” the sentence drowned all the warmth of his chest, or lack of it.
“No, please!” he tried to retreat, startling the monster before him “Not her, anyone but her!” but he was caught on his grip and couldn’t stop trashing “She will cut me open, please!” but he was trapped again, that’s what he got for dropping his guard “Please, don’t let her experiment on me again”
“AGAIN?”
“It’s her fault! I’m like this because of her!”
The lights in his head went out, he was terrifying like that “She… Took Your Soul?”
He wanted to say yes, but he was scared the skeleton could see through his lies, skeletons were powerful monsters, he remembered the stories his mother would tell before he slept.
“She… didn’t build me one”
The silence was palpable.
Neither of them moved.
He wanted to escape of the other’s grip, but it was useless.
His lights were still out.
He didn’t know what to think, and the environment was too charged for him try to say anything without being prompted.
“Cadet!” Came the strong yell, the monster went stiff, getting up abruptly, and Flowey saw himself free, but more trapped than before “What are you doing standing there?!?”
She approached, and he knew that at this distance, if he so much as tried to move she would see him, if he kept completely still the skeleton’s boot gave him the cover he needed.
“FORGIVE ME CAPTAIN!” yelled, body completely stiff “I WAS LOOKING FOR THE FUGITIVE”
“And did you find him?”
“I” that was the moment they sent him to the doctor “COULDN’T FIND A SOUL, CAPTAIN” was… was he covering for him?
She shouted aggressively, hitting the trees behind with spears “What are you waiting here for?! Move!”
“YES CAPTAIN!” he made a symbol with his finger… ‘up’, Flowey climbed his boot. Hiding inside.
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The first person to try to help without knowing him… The first person to still treat him as a monster once he found out he didn’t have a soul.
This memory had been lost in time, many, many resets ago…
Papyrus didn’t need to remember that. No one need to know that. He escaped the lab before the scientist could know of his existence, made a point to avoid Undyne this timeline, and was sure that this timeline neither Papyrus or Sans had the chance of using the blue magic directly on him, and finding out his secret…
This timeline he did everything right… he tried, he really tried to make a difference… but it always got to the same point…
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“But... Papyrus... You are my only friend...”
The lieutenant sighed, not looking at him “YOU ARE MY FRIEND TOO, FLOWEY, Just Not In Public, Ok?”
“But…” no matter what he did, it always came to this.
“NOT IN PUBLIC! I CAN’T BE SEEN HANGING OUT WITH A FREE-EXP!”
He took a brief moment to think, was there anything he hadn’t tried to say? “... No one is going to hurt you for it” he was sure he hadn’t said that one yet, but it seemed to be the wrong choice either way.
“ARE YOU SUGGESTING I AM SCARED?” He was scared of be seen as weak, of becoming a target, everyone in the underground was, and everyone would kill before admitting that.
“I can protect us!” but Flowey had to try.
“HA! YOU SHOULD GIVE MY BROTHER SOME LESSONS ON HUMOR!”
“It’s true!” He didn’t want to lose his best friend.
“YOU CAN’T.”
“I can! I can tell what is going to happen and–/”
“AND I WILL HAVE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. OR WILL YOU RETHINK YOUR FOOLISH IDEA OF MERCY?” He didn’t understand, Papyrus didn’t understand what he was asking.
“But no one has to die! If monsters can just–/”
“WOULD YOU KILL FOR ME FLOWEY?” He just didn’t understand… He had killed, and then he hadn’t.
“...” He always reseted after killing, it was just wrong, even Papyrus agreed that if something like this could be avoided, it should be.
“WOULD YOU KILL SOMEONE IF I ASKED YOU TO? IF I NEED YOU TO?” But he was insistent.
“I... could avoid us having to kill them...”
He gave an empty laugh, and Flowey knew he had lost him again.
Like all those other timelines.
“It’s Funny, Because Until Now I Would Kill Almost Anyone For You” Papyrus got up from the rock and walked slowly before turning to him “SEE WHO IS A TRUE FRIEND, AND WHO IS A FILTHY LIAR!”
“Wait, Papyrus!” He tried to follow when the skeleton started to walk, but a bone attack materialized in front of him
“IN THIS WORLD IS KILL OR BE KILLED, FLOWEY! I DON’T WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN UNTIL YOU’VE LEARNED THAT, AND IF YOU STILL HAVEN’T, I WILL MAKE SURE YOU UNDERSTAND!” he threw a wave of bones in front of him, uncomfortably close, and disappeared on the snowy path.
So this time instead of resetting a few days and trying again, like he did so many times he could swear an entire year had passed. This time Flowey left his only friend at his own luck, and went to the Ruins, to talk with the flowers.
He knew no one was listening, but it had become a habit.
He was glad he did, because a human fell the next morning.
~*~
“WHAT IS THIS OBSESSION WITH THE HUMAN?” Papyrus always paced when he was conflicted “FIRST THE DAMNED DOGS CLAIM THEY ARE ONE OF THEM” It was a sign that there was still a chance “THEN MY USELESS BROTHER TAKES THEM TO THAT GREASY TRAP EVERY MORNING” The harsh movements and the agitation were scary, but gave him hope at the same time “THEN YOU COME BEFORE ME ASKING ME TO SPARE THEIR LIFE? HAVE YOU LEARN NOTHING ABOUT THIS WORLD FLOWEY?”
Apparently not, since he was standing in front of the Lieutenant of the Royal Guard, trying to convince him to commit treason and let a human reach Waterfalls.
“I WILL TELL THIS ONLY ONCE, DO YOU WANT THEM TO LIVE?”
He nodded profusely, his leaves were trembling, Papyrus last threat still hanging in the air, only now he couldn’t come back to life if he died.
“THEN DON’T LET THEM FACE ME” His right eye light flared red as he stared directly into Flowey “BECAUSE I WILL KILL THEM AND BRING THEIR SOUL TO THE KING”
“Papyrus...” he was so tall standing in front of him.
“OR BE KILLED TRYING, IN NAME OF ALL MONSTERKIND”
“Please...” standing still…
“I ALREADY WARNED YOU, SO CONVINCE THEM TO STAY IN SNOWDIN OR DECIDE WHICH ONE OF US YOU WANT TO SEE DYING”
“There is another way” Floyey pleaded, but he had seen this end too many times to hope.
“MAKE YOUR CHOICE FLOWEY” and with this the skeleton left.
~*~
Flowey couldn’t make a choice…
It was not his choice to make, not anymore…
And somehow he was glad.
One of the two would die… many, many times… until they gave up.
He just hoped they gave up from the fight, and came back to Snowdin.
He just hoped that they weren’t like him…
That when they got stuck in a challenge too big to surpass, that they didn’t got angry… and striked the enemy down.
They were human, and humans could deliver so much damage when they were angry…
He didn’t want to see it…
He didn’t want to see his sibling’s blood… over and over again staining the snow.
He didn’t want to see his – former, he forced himself to think – best friend’s dust… blowing on the wind, just like any other monster… not even a proper burial…
But even if they did kill him in the end, they would certainly be guilty and try again, right?
They wouldn’t go ahead if they killed, right?
They wouldn’t save over a monster’s death…
They couldn’t…
He…
His leaves were still trembling, even without the eminent danger, if he still had emotions he would think he was scared.
But he wasn’t.
He didn’t have emotions.
He didn’t have a soul.
And if he, who didn’t have a soul, still had the hearth to do the right thing, and not save after killing someone. Then they could do the same.
And if they didn’t?
Well…
He just had to make sure to remind them.
The easy or the hard way.
Luckily for him, he learned a thing or two with past resets.
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