#airingout

[koutzfarm]

Guys, I think he sat like this for a good 15 minutes. Hubby and I got a good laugh in. #airingitout #airingout #airingoutthegoods #cats #catsofinstagram #dailycatphoto #dailycat #thisisstew #koutzfarm #veteran #veteranowned #homesteadinglife #farmlife #cat #weirdcat #weirdcatsofinstagram #weirdcatpositions (at Sutherland Springs, Texas) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqdP80CFfqr/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1c1ox8ltul3rl

[mostly-kpop-ace]

#messingaround #bored was checking on my #wigs as they’ve been in a bag for a year! #airingout #makeup #face #lipsstick

[forr-est-fran-zen-blog]

Forrest threw himself to our neighbor, Sarah's arms from mama because she could get all the kitties to come. He loves animals.

[jetblackjuelz]

So I'm tired of being genuinely interested, being straightforward about my intentions, and building up the confidence to tell them what I truly think ... It drains you fail after fail. But I'll live tho.

[beenjen]

It’s hard being a mom. It’s hard doing most anything actually, work, school, stay in shape… And just like with anything else, there is so much unsolicited ‘advise’ or pointers. It’s hard to distinguish what is truth, good information or just bossiness versus self-importance.

Hubs and I have been trying a few things out for size. Switching up our routine, making a few changes, etc. and I’ve been doing some research. The long and short is that our son just isn’t sleeping through the night. He’s almost 5 months, and he just won’t do it. He’s slept 8-10 times close to 6 hours, maybe 2-3 times close to eight, the rest is a few hours, or sometimes less.

We have had the best results sleeping him in his swing - and this has been a touchy subject. People want to tell us how horrible that is, how getting 1-2 decent nights of sleep makes us bad parents. Well, I’m not perfect. I’m new at this. And if sleeping in the swing gets him rest and us rest, then sometimes it’s just what you have to do. We’re transitioning to the crib, and it’s going better than it was at first. He actually slept 4 hours in his crib last night. I nap him in his crib and daycare does as well, so it’s a work in progress. Working on consistency. But I’m sick of being criticized and judged for making the decisions I feel are best and doing what I think is right. It’s none of your damn business.

I’m also not feeding him. We’ve tried a couple of bites, but he’s just not interested in food. He spits it out, and anytime someone tries to sneak in a few bites, he’s sick and has a tummy ache. Contributing to the not sleeping. Making my little man a mess. So we are holding off - not starving him. I’m well aware that other moms have incorporated cereal at 2 weeks, solids at 2 months, or what have you. That’s just not the path we are taking. It doesn’t make us bad parents. It doesn’t mean anything at all, except maybe your kid and my kid are different. I’m ok with that. He’s a healthy and happy baby, so I must be doing something right… So back off.

Furthermore, while I’m just airing it all out there - more for personal reasons to prevent my head from exploding than anything else - I’m not letting my son ‘cry it out.’ Will I lay him in his play pen so I can go pee? Yes. Will I leave him in his nursery crying for 10 minutes? No. I don’t care what the research says, I just don’t agree that it’s healthy. I’m not doing it. Some moms are, and that is their decision, but it’s not one I choose to make. I feel that this time is a bonding time. He’s a bloody newborn, and we are working on trust, just letting him scream his little head off in the other room is not something I’m ok with - call me weak, call me a pushover, say whatever you will, it’s just not happening. Again, I’m ok with it. My choice. Our choice. Not anyone else’s. So, you guessed it, buzz off!

Now, on a lighter note, I was able to get to the acupuncturist this morning while my dad was over for a bit, and I can now lift my head without excruciating pain. Yes, I’m aware that judge-y over there thinks acupuncture is quack medicine. That’s alright too. Don’t you go and do it xx

[yeahmoo]

Side stepping my way around #nyc today found me these guys #airingout must have been a long #tuesday

[thealexisjenkinsperspective]

Dirty Laundry

Listening to Kelly Rowland's new single Dirty Laundry has inspired me to air some of my own dirty laundry...

I just spent 15 minutes airing some things out. Reading it over, I don't think I'm ready for everyone to know what I think about them. Maybe that's being a coward. But it just felt good getting it all out.

This post I'll need to take my time with. I mean no harm and especially do not want to cause and pain or reopen any wounds. But in all honesty, I've been biting my tongue for a long with with a lot of y'all and right now doesn't feel the right time to get into it.

At the end of the day I'm happy and I hope everyone in my past and present are happy too.