@cobaltmoony I ADORE That pose on the Batman Begins poster. This is the one I think I’ll draw anyway even if I don’t pick it for the CA:TMPProject. I can picture Steve very clearly, standing with his suit singed, torn and ruined with Bucky in his Civilian!!Bucharest!outfit.
At the same time though, it’s kinda Steve’s time to be carried because I never finished that one sketch with Bucky carrying Steve away from the secret HYDRA Siberian Facility that I shared. uh. months ago? Ouch.
@akaiamedama I FEEL YOU. But there’s no next to no poster that I can find that’s not genderized like that. D: Luckily, 80% of the vibe comes from the poses and faces, and I promise I’d work on those! Like, look at the Attack of the Clones poster. I wouldn’t have Bucky leaning all dreamily on strong!male!lead!Steve!!!! He’d be heavily injured, and Steve absolutely mad with rage. Or, in reverse, a sluggish, wounded Steve, and Bucky in full, ice-cold, Winter Soldier rage.
It’d be fun to work on the Thor one from this perspective, because Bucky could be standing in Jane’s position, but actually *restraining* a spitting-mad Steve with that carefully-placed hand, or keeping him upright because he’s wounded. Or, Steve might be providing cover for them both with his shield, whereas Bucky is firing his M249 over Steve’s shoulder. A total power couple ♥_♥
...sadly, neither poster fits the “Your Bucky” line I wanted to add in. To me, it suggests something a lot mellower. DAMN. That’s partly why I’m so unsure. I can’t reconcile the battle images with that line.
@captainvulcant The Romeo and Juliet poster is the one I feel is so accurate it makes me laugh. Two sides warrying, like on the original Civil War poster, and Bucky and Steve immersed into each other and oblivious to the rest. On the one hand, I’m excited about this because I could! Make! Them! KISSSSS!!!!!! But on the other hand, I’m afraid it’d work waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay better as a photomanip than as a painting.
the one that feels like an obvious choice t me is Attack of the Clones, because it keeps the tradition of the earlier posters of having the Lovers together, but in their own bubble, and it would so easy to swap Boba Fett with Iron Man. But. I dunno. MEH.
My personal favourite is the black-and-green-and-purple-ish The Empire Strikes Back poster. But.... *pensive noise*
Yes, yes, this is going up FOR SURE. It may take me more than planned to finish it though. Because I can usually paint in the weekends only… and I totally forgot I have to work next weekend! _(:|」∠)_
I will keep posting WIP screenshots though. I’m crying tears of blood over this one (Funny tidbit: I think I redrew Bucky’s nose something like. 6.354.978.356 times. And his lips half those times. *sheepish grin*) But it’s coming along nicely, and I truly feel like sharing. Imma gonna post one of those screenshot now actually……………………
Hey, I'm so hyped for that project and just wanted to thank every artist involved in it. I'm sure this anthology will be gorgeous. I Originally wanted to get some of the bonuses but due to the extremely high shipping costs had to settle for the one without. Which is a bummer. :( I'm sure I'm not the only one. That being said, if the funding continues to do so well, would you consider adding a bonus for people outside the US who can only afford the standard copy due to the high shipping costs?
I’m so, so sorry about the high costs. Unfortunately, given the book’s weight (over 2 lbs, and even more if we get hardcover/thicker art paper) that was the lowest shipping price we could offer. It’s still below what we’ll actually be paying for the shipping; we’re just absorbing the extra expense into our operating costs.
We have a number of stretch goal goodies to add for all physical backers, including those getting just the book, and of course will not be charging extra for those. The first one is at $17K, so it looks like we’ll be announcing it very soon!
send a number (or 2) and a pairing and i’ll try and write a drabble or ficlet
since you sent it as fanmail i had to screenshot your request and put it in a post heh
sorry for taking so long to write this, but i hope you like it. i had trouble with the ending, but i hoped it turned out okay.
4. Irresistible
18. Bite
WARNING: Contains Incest. Please refrain from reading if you are uncomfortable.
It was addicting
This insatiable sin between them.
They're not sure how it even started. Kei's sure he’s the one who started it all, while Akiteru blames himself. But what they do know for sure is that they can't stop.
They're well aware this is wrong, that this was not right. That this was sick, depraved, immoral.
They were brothers after all.
There were times when they tried to stop. Tried to be alone in a room together without giving in to the pull between them, the desire to be close.
But they were irresistible to each other.
The most fleeting of touches was enough to trigger a yearning.
The yearning to connect.
To be as close as they once were but somehow they went beyond that.
Because it just wasn't enough anymore. Years worth of pent up feelings and distance made the usual brotherly affection unsatisfying. They needed to connect more, deeper than ever, let the other know just how much they loved him, make up for the years lost between them.
Even if it meant crossing boundaries they weren't supposed to.
A sick attempt to rebuild their bond, their trust, their love. For acts so intimate could only create and strengthen these things.
But even then, it wasn't close enough. They still craved more and more.
Still, they had some semblance of self-control. In the eyes of others, they acted as brothers would. No one suspected a thing and it was surprisingly easy to fool them. Even alone in public spaces they kept to themselves. It was only when it was just the two of them, in the privacy of either of their rooms, doors locked, they indulged. At home, they make sure to keep their voices down so their parents don't hear. However, at Akiteru's apartment, they're wild and uncontrolled as possible, loving freely without holding back.
But, the evidence of their sin still remains long after the deed is done.
Marks and bruises across their skin as if it was territory claimed. Kei loved to mark his older brother where people would see it, biting his neck and leaving as dark as possible of a bruise so it wouldn't fade for some time, especially against his pale skin.
It brought him satisfaction when he watched his brother's team point it out and ask about it, ask about why he always has so many. The way Akiteru would bring his hand up to cover them, his face red in embarrassment made Kei smirk to himself, thinking that his older brother was actually cute like this. They'd turn to him and ask if he knew anything about Akiteru having a girlfriend. He smiles knowingly at his brother, who gulps, and tells them it's not quite a girlfriend.
Of course this causes commotion, but Kei never says any more. Neither does Akiteru. They conclude Akiteru is having a string of one night stands, or that he has a sex buddy, assumptions Akiteru neither confirms nor deny.
He does, however, warn Kei to control himself and where he leaves hickeys next time. Kei agrees, but never really heeds the warning.
He wanted everyone to know Akiteru belonged to someone. Belonged to him, even if they couldn't say.
Akiteru was much more subtle about where he marks Kei; the finger-shaped bruises on his hips and the bitemarks high up his thighs that were still able to be covered with a pair of shorts. He was more loving as well, kissing each bruise as if to say sorry for hurting Kei, even though Kei was never in any pain. He's unable to show off such marks to others like the ones he gives Akiteru, but he likes standing in front of the mirror and shifting his clothes slightly to reveal them, looking at them in his reflection and touching them lightly with his fingers. Even if they were subtle, they were still proof he belonged to Akiteru.
Belonged to Nii-chan.
They belonged to each other, in their tainted world of sinful love.
akaiamedama replied to your post: guys if you want me to write a thing t...
"I just really need to have you here right now." Tsukibros … ( ๑‾̀◡‾́)σ» You should have seen that one coming. Really.
Send me a pairing and a line of dialogue and I’ll write you something angsty-ish
this got.... really long... like re a ll y long
i didn't even know how to cut it down so uh
enjoy i guess
--
If there's one thing Tsukishima Akiteru should have learnt by now, it's that he and alcohol are not a good mix.
He just assumed that being able to drink alcohol was a thing adults do and at 22 years old, Akiteru would like to think he was an adult. He'd rather be an adult than the pathetic teenager he once was.
So he'll go out drinking with his teammates after practice, all of whom were adults his age or older. It was commonplace after all, it was only natural to go out for a few drinks after a hard day's work, as is the normal routine of an adult in this world. His Dad did it, his Uncle did it. It's just what adults do. In fact, it was one of the things Akiteru was looking forward to when he turned adult.
Unfortunately, he had a very low tolerance level for alcohol.
It didn't take him much, two beers and a cup of sake (which took him a while to drink too, he cant seem to get used to the taste) was enough for him to start staring glassy-eyed at the slightly blurry and dizzying world around him with a lazy smile, laughing.
"Oi, oi, Tsukishima!" The voice of his team captain, Akaizawa-san. "Don't tell me you're drunk already!"
"Again?" Another teammate. "Tsukishima, ya really such a lightweight, huh? You drink like a young teenager."
Akaizawa-san laughed at that and Akiteru frowned. "s'not like i'm plastered or anythin'..." he slurs.
"Yeah, ya probably need to go home," Akaizawa suggested.
"No! I.. I can still drink...!" he holds out his empty sake cup. "Fi'me up!"
But Akaizawa pushes his arm down. "We're not gonna have ya throwin' up an' passin' out again, yeah? I'm gettin' ya home."
Akiteru giggled. "Aww~ Akaizawa-san are you worried about me?"
"'Kay, yer gettin' flirty. Tha's how I know yer too drunk."
Akiteru pouts. "S'fine, I can walk myself home. S'not far anyway."
"Are ya sure?"
Akiteru lifts himself up from the table and wobbles a bit. He steadies himself and pauses for a moment before replying "Yeah m'sure," and walks out of the bar, swaying a little.
The night air was cold against his skin, but the alcohol sat warm inside him. He was suddenly filled with self-hatred. He made a fool of himself. It's like that's all he's capable of doing. But naturally, when he sees his teammates tomorrow, he'll smile and act like everything's fine, like he wasn't acting like some big idiot the night before. Though he likes that they don't, at the same time he really did wish there was someone who could see through his smiles. He thought that becoming an adult would be a new start for him, and in a way, it was. But things kept catching up to him, old habits, old feelings, memories of back then...
Akiteru looked up at half-full moon and was reminded of his little brother. A sudden pang of loneliness. His little brother was so far away and it was all his fault. Well, he wasn't that far away. But it's not like Akiteru could go see him whenever he wanted to. They used to be so close... they've managed to make up now, but Akiteru honestly wonders if they can be like that again.
Probably not. Akiteru missed out on the last couple of years of Kei's childhood and now he's a teenager who was even taller than Akiteru was now, has his own interests and friends and life and doesn't need his big brother anymore.
But Akiteru still needed him.
Always had.
Dammit, he's so pathetic.
He fumbles with his keys before managing to unlock his apartment, slips off his shoes and wades over to the fridge, pulls out a can of beer and opens it, taking a sip.
Ah.
Now he knows why adults drink. Things weren't meant to be easier once you're an adult - they're harder. He gulps the beer, finishing it fast and reaching back for another one. He presses his back against the fridge and slides down until he's sitting on the floor. He sips this one more slowly now, letting the alcohol overtake him easily like it always does. Soon enough the second can of beer was empty again and he grabs another one, but the whole world starts to move and moves him with it. He pauses to steady himself and then makes his way to the couch, flopping himself on it without a care.
Right now, he didn't feel like caring about much.
He felt something dig into him and reached into his pocket to pull out his phone. The wallpaper was a photo he took of him and Kei not that very long ago. All of sudden, the loneliness of his empty apartment seemed suffocating.
The alcohol was doing wonders cos he was already dialing Kei's number, knowing it's the middle of the night, and he's drunk and is probably gonna sound really pathetic but he just didn't care.
He needed to be vulnerable and he needed someone to be vulnerable with.
Akiteru didn't have anyone he felt close enough with to do that.
And hey, he already disgraced his little brother once, so why not a second time? Just a reminder that the big brother you decided to make up with just recently has always been pathetic and disgraceful.
But Akiteru needed this.
Just this once.
After, he'd understand if Kei wouldn't want anything to do with him for a second, more permament time.
"... Nii-chan?"
It must be the alcohol, but the sound of Kei's voice made him really happy. "Kei..."
"What do you want?"
"Mmmnothin'.... did i wake ya...?" It was impossible to hide the slurring.
"No, I was doing homework... are you drunk?"
Akiteru shook his head as if Kei could see. "No... yes... a little..."
Kei sighs. "Nii-chan..."
His voice was exasperated, annoyed, but Akiteru couldn't help but giggle. "I like it when you call me 'Nii-chan.' Somehow s'how I know you still love me."
There was a pause and Akiteru realizes he said something stupid. But that was the purpose of the call wasn't it? Akiteru doesn't think he wants to do this anymore.
"Drink some water, and go to sleep," his brother's voice told him. Akiteru felt rejection wash over him, like his little brother was trying to dismiss him.
"Kei, wait! Can we just talk a little? Please? Please..." He wasn't sure how desperate he sounded right now. He thought he was too drunk to care, but now that the threat of his baby brother leaving him again and for good was right in front of his face he wanted to keep Kei with him for as long as possible.
He hears Kei sigh again. "Okay. But promise you'll take care of yourself after."
Akiteru was so happy he couldn't stop the words that came out of his mouth next.
"I just really need to have you here right now."
There was another pause and Akiteru bit his lip at his bluntness about his pathetic neediness. After all, it's not the big brothers that are supposed to rely on their little brothers. It's the little brothers that need their big brothers. Big brothers are supposed to be strong, reliable, dependable.....
Well, maybe Akiteru just wanted to believe he was still able to be all that for Kei. Even though that all fell apart years ago.
And, it was true. He wanted Kei here with him right now. Needed him physically here. The phone wasn't enough, he needed to see his little brother, take in his features as he looks at him, feel his soft hair as he ruffles it, breath in his sweet scent as he embraces him. Just to know his little brother is still there. There and with him, and that he wasn't going anywhere.
"S-Sorry Kei, I'm drunk, I'm just saying things... I didn't really mean it. Seriously," Akiteru was clamoring at excuses, trying to make Kei ignore what he just said.
"The buses and trains have stopped so I can't anyway."
Akiteru pauses. Would... Kei have actually considered it if that wasn't the case?
"Kei-"
"Hold on. I should be there in less than hour."
"Wai-"
"See you soon."
The dial tone. Kei hung up. Akiteru sat there still holding his phone to his ear for a good minute or so, trying to register what just happened. Did Kei say that he was actually coming? But how? It was past midnight on a Friday night and like he said, all the buses and trains have stopped. A taxi? could he afford the fare? Maybe he would get Mom or Dad to take him?
Akiteru shakes his head. Nah, he was just hearing things, he's drunk, so things are gonna get a little mixed up. Kei was probably just fed up with him and went to bed.
He sipped on his beer more, staring contemplatively at the floor. He didn't even notice how much time had passed before he heard rattling at his door, and felt himself tense up, but was too woozy to get up off the couch. The door opened and Kei stepped though.
"K-Kei...? How did you...?"
"Spare key," Kei says, holding it up. "You told me where you kept it remember?"
"You got here...?"
"By taxi. Mom was hesitant at first but when I explained the situation she gave me money to pay for it." Kei explained all this while taking off his shoes and shuffling over to his big brother.
"You... actually came...?" Akiteru blinked, wondering if this was some kind of drunken mirage. Was that even a thing?
"You needed me, right?"
Akiteru opens his mouth and closes it again, staring wide-eyed as his baby brother stood in front of him. He... actually came. He came for him. Even though he was just being pathetic and needy and lonely and a useless big brother, Kei still came. Why?
"You smell like alcohol," Kei said with a sneer. "But you don't seem as bad as I thought you'd be."
"Kei... why...?"
Kei raised an eyebrow. "Why?" He then reached a hand to the back of his brother's head and pulled him forward, burrowing Akiteru's face in his abdomen. "Because you're pathetic."
Akiteru felt himself shudder as he sobbed. He was pathetic. He was pathetic and he let himself be vulnerable to Kei over the phone and now he was crying into his brother's shirt, clinging to him like the sorry excuse for a big brother he is. "I'm sorry."
"It's okay. I'm not a little kid anymore." Akiteru hesitated, not sure what Kei meant by that. He continued, "You don't have to keep being strong for me all the time. Learn to rely on me too, okay?" Kei contemplated for a second before adding "And not just when you're drunk."
Akiteru chuckled, with his face still buried and holding on to his brother, clinging to him like if he were to let go, Kei would disappear. Kei pats his hair like Akiteru had done to him many times before, Kei's large hand proof that he really wasn't a little kid anymore. He was grown up now. Grown up and taking care of him in turn.
akaiamedama replied to your post:akaiamedama replied to your post:rinter-kun...
It’s really strange though coz I started out kinda liking that ship .. or well .. at least warming up to it. And I’m following some blogs which have kurotsuki but lately, whenever a new fanfic gets posted I’m just like “nah … nah.” XD
yeah i used to just be indifferent or neutral about the ship but now
