Had to go to an all-managers' meeting for our job & it sort of hit home again that we're... Actually kind of competent now. People can rely on us for things & reasonably trust it will get done, even if not when or how they expected.
Meeting itself wasn't anything big - anti sexual harassment refresher so important but not noteworthy to this post - but it just kind of hit us that we recognized every other manager & asst manager from our town but one, because we've covered shifts at every other store in our chain but one. (We all met at one store to carpool to the meeting since it was in [nearby major metropolitan city] instead of our [smaller city], for context.)
That's... A lot of people we haven't let down. I guess it's just surreal because while I'm used to this, most of the system isn't. I was basically running the gas station on the edge of town alone before introjecting here; most of Archival hasn't kept a stable job for more than a year & a half. This month is our 2-year anniversary with this company, we're assistant manager of our store, & get to work with surprising autonomy, none of which we're used to.
All that was a lot already, then we had to start training the new guy today - he's a whole new flavor of neurodivergent than the rest of us so that'll be fun to pin down - but I overheard our boss say, "I showed you [the non-alcoholic drinks section], Archival knows the beer side like the back of his hand so he'll be training you on that side". Again, a new thing for us, being praised & known for doing something well.
All this feels super attention-seeking, but we spent decades destroying our lives & bringing those we said we loved down with us until they finally got free. May was 3 years since our breakdown. 3 years since the old host went dormant. For everything to have changed so rapidly is basically incomprehensible to us. Especially since said old host woke back up recently, but different. It's like all our BPD he was stuck with almost exclusively has so many outlets how he can just be what he always was, a little overwhelmed dog who just wants a lap out of anyone's way. It's such a change from the snarly, snappy, scared, manipulative abuser he was.
We're all adjusting, but I think the changes are hitting him harder since he wasn't around for all the change.
...There was a point to this. I dunno.
