#ambtext

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i’ve been trying to write a post about my experience with wake up dead man as an ex-hardcore catholic who was raised in the church for like an hour now, but i just keep sobbing to myself over the scene where one character asks another to pray for her & he sits for hours consoling her… not “god’s here”, but “i’m here”.

it’s so embarrassing but i’m literally tearing up just writing this… that’s really what it’s all about... that’s really what it’s all about…!!!!!!!!!

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rewatched wake up dead man with a friend a few days ago and they said “do you think the reason why jud gets so upset at people calling him the “killer priest” is because he can’t say he’s not, because he DID kill a man?”. anyway i’m sending rian johnson a cheque for my therapy bills

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feeling sad so i made some more amber memes

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genuinely honest to god such an incredible physical representation of how culty religious extremism uses perceived threat to make its victims afraid of the world. this movie is such a masterpiece

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the further into s8 i get the more i realise that the internet is a literal fucking tar pit. what do you MEAN people have been saying foreman dgaf about chase cause he didn’t check on him in nobody’s fault????? foreman, who has a reputation for being avoidant about grief????? foreman, who is the fucking DEAN OF MEDICINE and spends the entire episode TRYING NOT TO GET HIS EX-BOSS AND BEST DOCTOR FIRED?!?!?!? not even mentioning that the doylist reason for the lack of interaction in that episode was probably just that There Was Too Much Going On To Bother?!?!?! i am going to die from high blood pressure caused by falling for this dumbass ragebait bullshit over and over and over again please god save me from this nightmare

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when ur fave is so niche that nobody makes merch,,, sometimes you need to step up 🙏‼️

ignore the bad product photography i hate it

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seeing people talk about pre-house-watching misconceptions on the tl so i must confess… memes had me convinced that kutner killed himself over a lack of government aid or something like that. i spent the whole of s5e20 waiting for a reveal, and then at the end i said aloud to myself “wait, but what about obama???”

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(full ATTWN spoilers ahead!)

so i was having a conversation about and then there were none and lombard in general a while ago. i thought it was so stupid that killing 21 africans was deemed as “less bad” by the narrative than, like, vera killing a kid. it was something i just took for granted as a doylist thing, a byproduct of the racism of the time…

…until i realised, suddenly, that the fact that it’s stupid is part of the point.

wargrave is inherently an unreliable narrator. he kills these people based on his own individual definition of justice. he’s a white man in the 30s— of course his definition of justice would cast the killing of africans as inherently less villainous than the killing of whites. it’s the same definition that casts marston with less guilt because he’s “naturally evil”, and the same definition that casts vera with more for the crime of being a Hysterical Woman.

even if you say these people DID deserve to die, the manner of their deaths is a power fantasy come to life. in spite of its commentary on the ineffectiveness of the justice system, and then there were none isn’t a cathartic story of killers being brought to justice. it’s just as much a critique on the the power that the justice system has over individual lives— a massacre committed by a man who has been taught by the system that he has the right to play god, to decide who is deserving, to decide who gets to live and die. that’s how i read it, anyway.