May 11
i hate always feeling so other. i feel like i dont belong among anyone...
#like all the women at my internship have husbands#and a driver license..#and a job ðŸ˜#im like a 27yr old child who isnt a real person#and it is so visible and noticable#im always the odd one out. the failure!!! the loser!!!!!#it just sucks bc i WANT to be normal#i want a job... a home i share w my bf... a car.... a normal life#being terrified on my own is just awful#idk how to explain but it's just social isolation. my father managed to isolate our entire family#and now we're left on the outside not knowing what to do or how to function & we have NO safety nets or connections#it's such a hard way to live. most ppl have some sort of community so we're like completely isolated#it's such a major sorrow and heartbreak in my life and idk how to get over it#i just want to be let into society and be like everyone else :((( & be able to help my family... i feel so useless