#and regrettably

[minyard-05]

you know what i've been thinking about a lot lately?

- the raven king, chapters 10 and 11

[short-for-melancholy]

Dead mount death play s2 when. I need more of this style of storytelling. And misaki.

[sanntafe]

🍷 “ i just .. you know .. sauntered vaguely downwards “

-

first good omens drawing of many to come 👀👀

[whitefangz]

just recent screenshots i liked

[dynjay]

Gonna delete this later, but mental health vent dump under the read more

I feel like I'm spiraling in some way right now.

Something is causing my mood to tank recently and I have no idea what it is. Fatigue's also been plaguing me for a majority of the year last year, so I'm always tired/sleepy, and my social battery has been dead for even longer.

Life isn't terrible, but I feel like I'm losing control in a lot of aspects of my life and losing my mind in the process. People around me are trying to be helpful and accommodating, but I genuinely don't know if this is caused by external reasons (work life, home life, potential physical health issues), internal reasons (maladaptive stress responses? depression? anxiety? poor life decisions??), or medication reasons (increased strattera dosage? allergies? weirdass hormones??).

I just had 2 mental breakdowns at work in the past 2 weeks, which may have stemmed from high anxiety; once from a mild health scare, and the other from a desperate desire to feel some semblance of control in my current life (quitting).

If I'm to keep working, I don't want this to keep happening. It's awkward; I hate the atmosphere it creates and it brings morale down immensely.

The fact that I don't know what the root issue is breeds a lot of anxiety by itself and I feel really lost right now...

I do know that based on my last blood test results, I do need to start exercising more frequently though. My diet's honestly not that bad as long as I don't eat too leanly so I'm not too worried there.

There's so many different possible factors and I'm so bad at living a consistent way that it's difficult for me to feel grounded.

....

Maybe I should start smoking weed or something :/

[gayrob0t]

might that be the "unnamed, nondescript" person you mentioned earlier? 'Cause if so, I bet you two are really cute together~!

That was actually me sitting on my little sister back when I was avoiding my bed and she took the couch i slept on. The “unnamed nondescript” person is actually very recent