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[dqllpestilence]

hi blood warning

[ragsweas]

Okay I need to tell someone this story so here goes:

OC, let's call him V (no not Taehyung) who works for intelligence and does dimension travel as a part of his job (it's a long story) ends up in a world where he is friends...with his siblings...

Which would be fine except, he was adopted by his Elder Uncle as a kid and his biological? Genetic? Siblings essentially died before he properly knew of his existence (except his twin who he only grew cordial with at like 50...yah as I said, long story)

Thing is, both his parents were agents, and one of their old cases was the reason the siblings never knew each other or the parents (separated at a young age)

Anyways so V ends up in this new dimension, this is his 67th jump? And with his three partners (all of them are in a polycule btw) and he is shocked to see his eldest brother (who he said he hated and had died while he was just beginning to know him), his elder sister (who died of lung cancer before he even knew of her existence in the OG timeline) and his twin (who actually pretty much detested him in the beginning cause why did he get to have a normal life with parents while he was literally being abused along with the sister?) being extremely good friends with this dimension's version of V.

And they don't know they are siblings.

(except the twin and the sister cause they were taken together and grew up together)

V panics cause, cause you have to tell your siblings that they are siblings right? It's not the kind of thing you don't tell them, right?

(except in the past 66 jumps and variations of timeline it never ends well. The siblings- whoever is alive, that is- they don't really get along well, not with what the parents did and their actions in all of this)

But the parents are dead this timeline.

And V holds out. He doesn't tell them, not yet, because the friendship they have is much more precious than a tag they will get.

(he knows a thing or two about tags)

But then, they have their own connections drawn. Remember, they all work in intelligence. They know how to connect dots.

And it is as V feared, when the truth comes out it's ugly. It is horrific. They want answers but the people who could give the siblings the answer are dead. The parents are dead here.

But V is here. He knows. He knows multiple variations of this story. He has enough access to know how it plays out.

So they ask him, because nobody else knows. Not exactly what happened. And he must know, right? He has travelled so much, V must know!

And he does. He does know.

But what nobody tells you about dimension hopping- timeline hopping is that, no matter how much you see the same scenarios play out, no matter how deep your knowledge gets or how much stronger you become, no matter how godly you feel, you are still human. And humans have emotions. They carry the scars, visible, invisible, with them. They cringe over old stories, they feel the pain that has been gone for so long, they feel angry about things that happened years ago.

V is still, after all, a human.

So when they ask him, this 67th version of him and his twin and his sister and his eldest brother, he tells them. At first, like reading off a report. Clinical. Objective. Factual. Connects the dots and reveals what he knows.

It should be enough.

Then the sister asks, 'what was different for you? Was it the same? Do we never get a happy ending? Is it always going to be this tragedy?'

And.

And the thing is.

It is a tragedy. Yes. But not this tragedy. THIS? is hardly a tragedy. The siblings, they are friends. The parents are dead and they don't have answers but V can give it to them and they are all alive and seemingly settled and, and...

Tragedy? Tragedy was him rejecting his eldest brother and receiving the news of his death in active duty mere days later. Tragedy was seeing his mother's face once before he lost her forever, before she even got to know that he was there. Tragedy was meeting his twin and feeling nothing. Tragedy was him learning he HAD a sister, one he would never meet. Tragedy was V calling his father once, only once, when his son was born and his father telling him, 'never let your son go. Never.' Tragedy was going through his father's possessions years later with his twin and realising that if he had let go of his anger and let his father in he would have had a relationship because that's what they both wanted.

Tragedy was just beginning to form a relationship with his twin before he had leave that life forever.

Yet he couldn't say that to these people. These four people, who just found out they were siblings. Because for them, their present is the worst and the best case scenario. Because it is better than so many lives but also worse than others. Because this? Just this is what their life is.

So V smiles, ignores the tears and says, 'you don't get a happy ending. You make one. You get to make one. It doesn't have to be a tragedy.'

[ackermans-freedom-inc]

That's like kinda weird tho😂😂 like dude I don't wanna see your neck for an hour straight. We are learning about ~linked genes~ in my bio class. Also, I don't like coffee🥺-🏇

ooh linked genes sounds like...a hard concept?? my bf has a science background and poor guy doest like the genetics unit XD

oh!! not liking coffee was me before I got into uni, and from there it became one coffee induced haze..and now here I am, still until coffee like 6 years later LOL 

do you like tea??? I love tea as well I can ramble about tea for ages!!

[darkcolinodonorgasm]

*Game show music* Welcome to my spontaneous game of Would You Rather: Colin Edition! Would you rather (1) Write a two-page letter to which Colin will read and reply to in kind OR (2) Send Colin a 30-second video to which Colin will watch and reply to in kind?

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I LOVE THESE GAMES!!! I love them because I hate them, probably. Odi et amo.

Okay, let’s first analyze the options:

1. which kind of letter? handwritten? yikes, a chicken writing something has more possibilites of being understood than me. My calligraphy is literally the worst, especially when I’m under pressure and write fast - aka take notes during class - and then, when I need to rewrite them, not even Rosetta Stone could help me. BUT!!! If that would mean Colin replying writing his own letter by hand... well... I’d love to be the Rosetta Stone trying to decipher his handwriting - though he does write quite well, from the quotes I’ve seen. Still. It’d be a letter. From Colin. To me. And god, I’m a romantic at heart, handwritten letters are like sex, to me, porn of words. Words porn? Mhm. (Oh, especailly if he does such wonderful Fs lol)

2. I am a very awkward person, definitely not self confident about my appearance though after high school - and since I’ve joined the fandom and met wonderful people - I started feeling a bit better with myself. But this is not the point. Not exactly. I am a very awakard person, again, and I hate talking - work is kinda helping me with that, but I’m still struggling - hence why I love writing more. BUT!!! It’d mean Colin doing a video for me - woah, very self-centric, Sara. But I think you know what I mean: every time your fave does something for you, you are happy, you are happy he talks to you about something, that he’s hugging you, that you have his autogaraph even if you know others have it, but your own is special for you. So having a video of Colin for me... well, I’d be happy. However, I’d also be afraid of losing it, and somehow I’d love to keep it private, so I’d fear someone could hack it or something, whereas a letter, especially if handwritten and sent to me, well, I’d share with trusted people, but only its content, not a photo of it.

THEREFORE - !!!! - as much as I’d love to have Colin doing a video for me (wait, he’d reply with a video of his own, right?) I’m sorry sweetcheeks, I choose words porn.

[radioactivedotcom]

Montreal, May 2009

⇜ | Beginning | ⇝

[coffeefox2k]

Coffee Cup: full

Word Document: Open

My mind: scattered 

Welcome to college 

[weisscoldglare]

your music taste differs based on how you're feeling

Yeah you right, but also a song can totally pump me up too