Jinshi
So like, Apothecary Diaries Jinshi. I need to talk about him.
I refrained from posting any mid-season 1-watch comments like I did with Frieren because I genuinely didn’t know if I’d finish it at first. I was a little skeptical about the story revolving around concubines and stuff, but I was absolutely hooked on the little mysteries and the characters!
Alrighty, so here’s my thoughts (I have only watched season 1 so far)
Jinshi:
He is SO GREAT. A character who’s aware of his beauty, and believes it to be his only strength! How tragic! He’s so complicated! He doesn’t want to be left out, but he can’t really participate… he’s jealous, but he can’t get the girl because she’s immune to the one thing he’s good at? Ouch! He’s got to hide his identity, and has to feel selfish for keeping Gaoshun from his family. On the contrary, he’s selfless when it comes to making decisions, but then he can’t handle it when the decision makes him sad.
For instance, firing Maomao? The poor guy is on the ground and sulking. He’s made a hard decision, and he really struggles with the consequences. I mean, he completely hide the fact that he’s just 19… 💔
Jinshi is shown as being a little overzealous when it comes to pranking/flirting, which demonstrates the fact that he’s 19– but one thing I love is when his faked cheery demeanor falters the closer he grows to Maomao. In the beginning, he’s literally just playing with her, and as time goes on he drops that flirty act and you see him actually get desperate. As the season continues, he’s genuinely trying to get her to like him by being more like himself. Maomao brings out Jinshi’s true nature— and even Maomao herself notices his demeanor shift. He becomes less fake, less false joy, and becomes his genuining caring, kind, desperate self. What’s funny is that his 25-year-old-eunuch disguise is more immature than his true 19 year old self in my opinion, LOL. But both personalities are childish in their own ways, I suppose.
Because the anime is being told from Maomao’s eyes, I find it a little unfortunate that a lot Jinshi’s depth is lost to her disinterested view of him. I do wonder how much we’d discover through the eyes of Gaoshun— who honestly seems mildly terrified of his master’s attachment to Maomao, LOLOL.
Anyways, Jinshi is just a masterfully written character who is obviously starved of his love language: y’know, touch. I’m pretty sure it’s touch. I think it’s really really sweet how he puts his hand on Maomao’s shoulder 3 times as noted by her father during that “scary” chess game. I know a lot of people with touch love language, and they do the exact same thing to me when I’m in a stressful situation.
Jinshi is so complex, but I’d say: he is a sad person who is desperate to feel loved whole heartedly and purely. He’s not after lust, but he pretends to be because of his position. He wants to feel included, but he struggles to participate effectively in things that pique his curiosity. He wants to make mature decisions, but he’s kiiiiind of emotional. 😅 It’s all about desire, and not quite making it all the way to achieving that desire. He shoves himself into so many situations so that he can be close to things that spice up his daily life, but he comes across as nosy (which he is) and often times a burden because he sort of just stands there and listens to what everyone’s saying and doesn’t have much to contribute.
Then there’s the topic of Maomao. Like I said before, she used to appear to him as an interesting person that he could tease and be flirty with. However, as he spent more time with her, he started to see something in her that he needed.
At one point, he has that internal monologue about how he doesn’t really feel smart or extremely gifted in combat— but that he does have a nice face.
In Maomao, he sees what he feels like he doesn’t have: Intelligence, steadiness, confidence, and talent. But not only that, the scene where he gets drunk shows us that he sees something else in her that he doesn’t have: stability.
He’s constantly running to her when he’s stumped or worried. He asks her for help because he knows she will provide what he needs because she’s stable and consistent (unlike himself). When he gets drunk and Maomao falls on him— instead of just letting her go, he holds on to her. It’s because he feels safe with her around. She’s where he runs to when he’s confused and she always provides a solution. After each time he asked her for help before that moment, he felt a little more comforted, and now he straight up sees her as a pillar of safety in his sad life. In my opinion, that scene answers the question of why he’d fall for such an “apathetic” young lady.
So yeah, the reason he’s so jealous of men that Maomao hangs out with is not JUST because he’s attracted to Maomao physically and mentally, but because he ALSO sees her as his comfort and is attached to her emotionally. Imagine seeing the threat of your consolation being stolen from your life by some random guy. Imagine dealing with the loss of your peace, the person you could go to ask questions, the person that complimented your weaknesses, and the one that (in the most desperate situations) you could hug to receive relief from stress.
Anyways, sorry for the super long analysis on Jinshi, I just find him really intriguing! And I could be wrong about the reason for his attachment to Maomao, lol! I’m just over here making crazy assumptions about this guy to try and explain his behaviors. Anyways, thanks for reading all the way through! Until next time! ❤️❤️❤️










