this likely qualifies as a vent post.
Angie was reblogging pictures of him and Husk. The last one was posted to the system blog at 4:47 am 3 days ago. Less than 45 minutes later at 5:23 am, Red posts this:
Then this:
Awhile later, L posts this
The next day at 2:48 am Red posts this one
So Angie tried to apologise for whatever it is he did, and she rejected his apology. The same day, I believe, is when I posted about her shutting me out, making me unable to hear the argument they were having. It was likely Angie trying to convince her to let him out.
Yesterday at around 2am her paranoia, which I was unaware she struggled with so much, was triggered by someone's username, which she believed was directed at herself. She freaked out until L took over for her.
21 hours ago, after setting up our intro for me in the discord server, her paranoia was triggered again, after she put in information about me for trigger warning purposes into something she believed was entirely anonymous and entirely automated, and recieved this message:
Based off her posts I'm assuming her paranoia led her to believe that, since the post would be tied to us on the admin/mod side, the information it contained would somehow be used against me. She made a number of posts referencing this belief, one of which is the following:
I'm unsure what exactly she means by shutting everything down. She may have been planning to deactivate some accounts or remove me from the server.
After this, Em took over, complained that she and L have to deal with Red's paranoia, and, when I woke up, told me to make a post asking people to interact with Red.
Today, as you may or may not have seen, it happens that Angie switched in while I was making myself lunch, and stayed until about 7:30 pm. I have little to no memory of what happened, which is unusual for me. I have some memories of when we started to co-front towards the end, before I went to make dinner, but that is all. He was posting both here and on discord during this, normal things and things about the way Red has been treating him the past 3 days. Red has been silent all day, and to my knowledge Em, L, and potentially Lily and/or Nova have been with her. Angel says in his posts that her not being around is why he was able to come out, implying she had to actively keep him from doing so.
He also says that she had him "locked up" and claims he did nothing wrong, that all he did was use tumblr and then she got mad at him. Among his messages on discord is this one:
Which seems to mean that Red is the reason Angie has been silent for 3 days without coming out, and potentially why I can't remember him coming out today.
The only person we've ever had to restrain was Lily. I won't get into it here, but there were extreme reasons she had to be kept from interacting with others. Angie isn't like that. As far as I can tell, he hasn't done anything wrong. And I would think that if he had done something bad enough to be "locked up," I should be aware of it. Red has never done something like this without good reason, but I struggle to think of a reason good enough for this.
And now that I've gone through all their posts, their messages, I'm more concerned than ever. I thought Red was silent because of the toll her episode took on her last night, but after seeing the post about disappearing, I worry that's what she's trying to do. It took a year, at least, to get her back after I realised I wanted to. I don't know what I'll do if she goes silent again. Like she says in her intro post, she took care of me when I wouldn't. Without her, I probably wouldn't be here. And she says her job is to protect me, but how will she do that if she goes away?
