#red updates

[redamancy6]

FUCK PMS !

[redamancy6]

sooo sorry for the inactivity i am legit on vacation and forgot to update my queue, but i will soon get on it <3

[im-a-fucking-dumbass]

Update on the system drama situation for anyone who cares

Red fronted last night, and Angel did after her. She made a post directed at me that was very hateful towards Angie, explaining her reasoning for what she did. I'm not going to talk about it here because I don't feel like it.

Angel fronted after (yay having specific trigger songs) and made a new post owning up to what he did and apologising. I think Red is the one who owes Angel an apology.

The difference between how the two are handling it is astonishing. Red is unfathomably angry at him for a relatively simple thing, and he's just kind of upset at her for how she's treated him, even though it would be justified for him to be just as angry at her over this. Red continues to be angry, hateful and deliberately inflammatory towards him, while he apologised near immediately. He's owning up to his mistakes, while she doesn't seem to think she's made any.

I'm not entirely sure what I'm going to do about this, but I'm probably not gonna post about it anymore on main. I'll likely be checking their blog more often and might post there from time to time.

Like I said in my post on their blog, Red might be grounded from the internet or fronting or both. Angel and the others might get to run the sideblog instead of her. However, she will not be mistreated the way she did to him. Being "grounded" has never meant that someone gets treated that way, and I couldn't say why Red thought that was okay to do.

Please don't take this as an invitation to be hateful towards Red. She may have treated Angie terribly, and I don't forgive her actions, but I still see her as a sister. She somehow thought she was doing what was best for me, and I do believe that she didn't actually want to hurt him. I don't think she realises how harmful and traumatic something like that can actually be; I think her past must have desensitised her to it, and she genuinely didn't think what she was doing was that bad.

[im-a-fucking-dumbass]

I think keeping her from front is just making everything worse. Whatever happens happens I guess. I apologise in advance.

[13redspace]

Hi, forthfellow here, Red is still missing. However, when she is found, she may not come back to this blog for awhile, be it her choice or mine. If she doesn't, it will likely still be active, it'll just be Angel and the others instead of her.

Is she going to be grounded? Perhaps. I can't think of a reason good enough for what she's done. I need her side of the story.

Is being grounded going to be the same for her as it was for Angel? No. She might be grounded from the internet, or from fronting, or both. But she will not be trapped the way he was.

I will post some updates here and potentially more on my main as information becomes available to me.

[im-a-fucking-dumbass]

Red still nowhere to be found except for vaguely expressing from somewhere in the brain that she likes this song and wants it. Yeah girl we know. You have 2 or 3 songs and L has none, let her have it.

[im-a-fucking-dumbass]

this likely qualifies as a vent post.

Angie was reblogging pictures of him and Husk. The last one was posted to the system blog at 4:47 am 3 days ago. Less than 45 minutes later at 5:23 am, Red posts this:

Then this:

Awhile later, L posts this

The next day at 2:48 am Red posts this one

So Angie tried to apologise for whatever it is he did, and she rejected his apology. The same day, I believe, is when I posted about her shutting me out, making me unable to hear the argument they were having. It was likely Angie trying to convince her to let him out.

Yesterday at around 2am her paranoia, which I was unaware she struggled with so much, was triggered by someone's username, which she believed was directed at herself. She freaked out until L took over for her.

21 hours ago, after setting up our intro for me in the discord server, her paranoia was triggered again, after she put in information about me for trigger warning purposes into something she believed was entirely anonymous and entirely automated, and recieved this message:

Based off her posts I'm assuming her paranoia led her to believe that, since the post would be tied to us on the admin/mod side, the information it contained would somehow be used against me. She made a number of posts referencing this belief, one of which is the following:

I'm unsure what exactly she means by shutting everything down. She may have been planning to deactivate some accounts or remove me from the server.

After this, Em took over, complained that she and L have to deal with Red's paranoia, and, when I woke up, told me to make a post asking people to interact with Red.

Today, as you may or may not have seen, it happens that Angie switched in while I was making myself lunch, and stayed until about 7:30 pm. I have little to no memory of what happened, which is unusual for me. I have some memories of when we started to co-front towards the end, before I went to make dinner, but that is all. He was posting both here and on discord during this, normal things and things about the way Red has been treating him the past 3 days. Red has been silent all day, and to my knowledge Em, L, and potentially Lily and/or Nova have been with her. Angel says in his posts that her not being around is why he was able to come out, implying she had to actively keep him from doing so.

He also says that she had him "locked up" and claims he did nothing wrong, that all he did was use tumblr and then she got mad at him. Among his messages on discord is this one:

Which seems to mean that Red is the reason Angie has been silent for 3 days without coming out, and potentially why I can't remember him coming out today.

The only person we've ever had to restrain was Lily. I won't get into it here, but there were extreme reasons she had to be kept from interacting with others. Angie isn't like that. As far as I can tell, he hasn't done anything wrong. And I would think that if he had done something bad enough to be "locked up," I should be aware of it. Red has never done something like this without good reason, but I struggle to think of a reason good enough for this.

And now that I've gone through all their posts, their messages, I'm more concerned than ever. I thought Red was silent because of the toll her episode took on her last night, but after seeing the post about disappearing, I worry that's what she's trying to do. It took a year, at least, to get her back after I realised I wanted to. I don't know what I'll do if she goes silent again. Like she says in her intro post, she took care of me when I wouldn't. Without her, I probably wouldn't be here. And she says her job is to protect me, but how will she do that if she goes away?

[every-dayiwakeup]

I finally started a fic based off of that Walkman post I made 😙

It may or may not be the unofficial sequel to the makeup fic