xunxjustxjusticex said: @Ann, are you still in love with Makoto?
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Immediate wave of TENSION felt like her every muscle would turn to red-streaked ICE or STONE. That question... "Does it matter anymore?" She hated to say it, but so much of her faith was DEAD & GONE. And the morsels that remained only served to further the AGONY behind her ribs. "Makoto's heart isn't all MINE. I--" Throat choked on those words. Hand clutching at her chest. RIPPING sensation born anew -- ALL OVER AGAIN. "I'm..." Sniffle. Humorless & pained laughter. "Not the only girl in her dreams..." Tears we're streaming. Cheeks flushing rouge from SHEER, OVERWHELMING EMOTION. Raw and honest. "And until..." Pause. Conscious kick to TWIST her own words around. Take out the meaning lest her true desires come to light. Lest it be known that she was still HOLDING OUT HOPE. (((COULDN'T HELP HERSELF.))) "Unless that changes, I just...” Shake of her head. Sadness tipping on back over into ANGER. That happened A LOT these days... Clashing LOYALTY & FURY. How could Makoto EVER done this to her? Let alone as OFTEN as she had... “I just...” Shake of her head. Her whole body, too, for that matter. Though that part was BEYOND HER CONTROL. Eyes dipped down, incapable of holding that gaze. Of seeing that judgment in the other’s expression. Tone filled with DISGUST & DISAPPOINTMENT. And something else. (SADNESS.) “Like I said... It doesn't matter anymore..."
..............THAT WASN'T WHAT SHE SAID......