#annaoverboard

[emobanana22]

Bright eyes

I once laughed so often, smiled so big, trusted that everyone meant as well as I did, and I walked blindly, with arms wide open, and with a heart full of love, in the direction of anyone who seemed alone. I once had bright eyes, filled with hope for life. I stopped laughing at everything, because it annoyed everyone. I stopped smiling so much, because it wasn't pretty. I stopped loving so much, because people kept leaving me empty, and they didn't care. I lost the light in my eyes, the hope, when I was laying in bed and crying alone, for the first time, and I realized there was nothing to be hopeful for. But now I hope that one day someone makes me laugh at everything, because they love hearing it. I hope they compliment my smile, and say sweet things, just to see it. I hope I trust them with life, and I hope that I walk arms and eyes wide open into love with them, see every flaw, that they see my every flaw, and we still love each other so much, that we couldn't imagine a life apart. I hope they fix every empty part, and fill it with love. I hope they hold me at night when I cry, and I hope that when my eyes dry, they are bright and full of hope, once again.

[emobanana22]

I'm really pissed off that I won't live to see year 3000. My shithead grandkids better not pull any of that "I wish I was born in an earlier time" bullshit, because I will come back from the dead and haunt them by singing busted.

[emobanana22]

Fools Gold

I saw you in the distance, you were shimmering.

I picked you up and cleaned you off, but you were fools gold.

I kept you anyways, because how sad it must be, not to be wanted

I kept you and cared for you, as if you were valuable, because to me you were

You are not gold, but I use to be

you took all that was in me

drained me

I am bitter, broken, and cold

because I fell for your fools gold. -Anna (Inspired by “Fools Gold” by One Direction)

[emobanana22]

This war is mine

One day this war will get the best of me, I can feel it. Since the day I let the enemy kiss my skin, I've broken promises and lost my sanity. All the ghost would rather see me die, than to watch me live.

[emobanana22]

Wonderless.

someone, somewhere, will think this is for attention. In honesty? It's not. I need to vent & I'm 99.9% sure nobody ever actually looks at this. I have been addicted to self harm for almost 7 years now I do it everyday. Nobody knows. I walk into class & everyone goes on about theirs day. Nobody knows that I'm hiding scars. They don't know about my constant struggle, the endless fight that I have with my depression My best friend doesn't know because I don't have one. My depression has taken a victory over me & My "best friend" is too tiered of picking up the pieces. She hasn't told me that, but I feel it. She constantly tells me about how great her life is She's so normal & I'm glad she doesn't suffer like me Sometimes tho, I wish she knew how bad I needed her. She's so smart, so strong, so much better than me. I could never tell her how bad I want it to end. She's seen my scars before, she called me stupid.. My moms seen them recently and told me if I didn't stop cutting Myself I wouldn't get a new phone. right mom, because a new phone is my biggest problem. My dad doesn't even consider it anymore. He thinks I stopped 3 years ago. My legs, stomach, shoulders, arms, wrist. They all have scars. Just the little things set me on the edge lately & the worst part of it all I'm going through it alone..