May 13
it's probably good that i can never go back but ough what if sometimes i want to go back. i feel like my relationship to online has become much more peaceful now that the primary fandoms i'm in aren't constantly live updating anymore and that's probably a good thing. and the shift coinciding very neatly with moving out for college which means my living environment is less of a high cortisol horror game all the time, which is also good. but i feel like i've just gotten so busy and caught up in other things that the time i used to have to do really crazy creative art and writing just keeps shrinking, which is sad... i miss having that creative energy i feel like i can barely remember when i have class these days
