#apsirations

[bits-of-wit]

B98.7

[sobeautifullittleliars]

[kisstheboysmakethemcry]

And they don't even have millionaire as an ideal job, what if that's all I aspire to being?

[homonymsandoddysseys]

Remnants

There's a kimono in the corner on the wall and it's all I have left of a girl from four years ago who loved other cultures and dreamed of the stars. There's a bear on a box on the floor and he's all I have left of a girl from fourteen years ago who wanted to be everything and dreamed of adventures. There's a motorcycle helmet in the cupboard gathering dust and it's all I have left of a girl from one year ago who lived in hope and wonder and dreamed of love.

There's a tear rolling down my cheek, starting to dry, and it kind of sums up the whole that lost its parts.

[desert--bloom]

All I want out of life is cereal and cross-country road trips.

[subconsciousknowledge-blog]

[savethecharmanders-blog]

Just A Little Something.

I have a vivid imagination. There's no lying there and on it's own, it's not very impressive. Almost everyone has an imagination, some are weak, others are strong and some are phenomenal. 

My imaginations tend to be incredibly realistic based on the fact that it is fueled by my dreams and desires. I'd use another word instead of "realistic" but I intend on fulfilling my dreams. To make sure that it doesn't stay as that. As just a dream. 

I dream about a variety of things. My emotions play a huge part in who I am as a person. I don't like being left alone, actually no, that's a lie. I'm usually an introvert. I like the quiet and the soft lull of everyday things that we sometimes take for granted, such as the gentle whirring of the washing machine, the quiet hum of the fan and the click of the keyboard as I type this. These sounds are very comforting and it makes you think about how many other things can go unnoticed if you don't stop to listen. Until a few weeks ago, I didn't know that our noses can actually be seen in our vision, our brain just chooses to ignore it. What else does it have the ability to ignore? 

Going a little off topic there, what I'm getting at is, even though I love the quiet and the peace that usually comes with it, I hate feeling lonely. The difference between lonely and alone may not seem like much, but there is a big difference. At least to me. Lonely is when you long for company but don't get it. It's when you feel a little empty inside and you can do next to nothing about it. However, when you're alone, you don't feel abandoned. You're alone because you choose to be. Because you want a little bit of alone time and that is perfectly fine. 

Anyway, I'm one of those people who absolutely cannot live without friends. The thought about being alone frightens me and this, is when I start to dream. (Just to be clear, I do have a few very close friends and honestly, I'd rather have a few that I value immensely than have millions of "friends" who don't care about me) I dream about college, about work, about traveling the world, about meeting new people and learning new cultures, meeting "the one", starting a family, making my parents happy, owning a beautiful home with every unique room I see here on tumblr, having my own library, an art studio and just being content with my life. 

Until about three months ago, I didn't know what kind of a career I wanted. Well, I did know then and I do know now. I wanted to be a photographer. (For a fair amount of time, I was sidetracked by psychology too but I realized quickly that it wasn't for me) However, it's [photography] a fickle industry and to get to all my other dreams, I'd have to have a reliable paycheck at the end of every month and a job in photography does not guarantee that. So now, I've decided that I'm going to be doing Mass Communication. It is a perfect fit I think, because I can learn a little bit about photography while learning about journalism, public relations, film industry, etc. I get to learn a little bit of everything with a huge base such as MassComm so I'd have more knowledge and information on what I'd want to do. All I know is that a business degree would be a complete waste for me and I wont even go near the topic of I.T. More than anything though, mass communication will be perfect to get me out of my shell and be more confident in myself. 

Wow, I started writing today, thinking I was just going to write about dreams and inspirations and such. I guess it's all linked and to get to one, you have to complete another. It's like a math problem when you HAVE to finish part 1 of the question to know what's going on in part 2. 

Sure, it can get a little tiresome when life gets in the way of life, but when you feel like giving up, that's when you should take a moment to reflect back on everything. You must've held on so long for something, surely you can find that same inspiration again. :)

[surrealthoughts]

someone interested in my aspirations not my ass. i always go back to this song to remind myself what i expect out of myself & what i expect to find in my significant other soon enough.