#aro troubles

[sillymagikz]

A perspective on “love” and relationships from the lens of someone on the aroace spectrum but still craves romance.

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I’m on the aroace spectrum. Im not 100% sure what my specific orientation is, but my feelings are as such; I deeply desire romance and a deep connection with another person, and I often thought that I could fall in love, but anytime I enter a relationship, my “crush” quickly dies out. I thought that it was because of the relationship itself since I could be “in love” with my friends, but as soon as it became official, I would lose interest and begin retracting, damaging both me and my partner and that may be the case, so I tried a queerplatonic relationship, but I think since my boyfriend is not on the aromantic spectrum, our qpr ended up much more like a traditional romantic relationship. Our qpr was fine for a short while, but soon things became really serious and my feelings have since decayed, which really fucking sucks because he’s so amazing and sweet but I just don’t know if I want this anymore. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t want to break his heart. I don’t want any of this anymore.

[siamusotima-aranea]

I know I’m somewhere on the Aro spectrum, but its so hard to nail down where. Like am I gray Aro, Demiromantic, Aroflux, Aegoromantic,? I dunno.  Like I guess I don’t have to nail it down, but it would be nice too, yah know?