Lately I have been feeling totally disconnected from people, I might be becoming people averse and repulsed even. Here is the thing though I feel so touch deprived, but I don't mean touch in like a romantic sense, I mean touch in like a providing sense of warmth and a feeling of security. Why do we limit ourselves only to touch romantic and sexual ways? Lately I have been struggling with doing online dating, it's like I'll find some people I'll like on there but then they'll talk about "trying to find the one" or people will hit with a long list of "don'ts" that aren't very detailed and sound petty. Also there's another problem how do I communicate what I want a relationship but not romance or a relationship without romance and talk about how distinguish between the two? Also everyone's profile sounds so perfect even their flaws sound perfect. How does one communicate I'm not perfect without being like "I'm shitty deal with it" and does one be like I require extreme levels of patience without being like "I expect you to take care of me". Everything about dating feels like they're searching for something or someone they've already seen before instead of going out doing their own thing. I don't want to be somebody else's finished drawing, I want to be my own still worked on drawing that will never probably be quite finished. Also I think it's impossible to expect people to know what to say all the time but to work through that and talk each other through that even if it seems messy and counterproductive sometimes and even if you can't agree
