want to nibble on a boy so badly.
i dont want to hurt him, but i want to leave marks all over so i can look at them later and think, "how pretty ... you're so pretty."

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want to nibble on a boy so badly.
i dont want to hurt him, but i want to leave marks all over so i can look at them later and think, "how pretty ... you're so pretty."
goddd im not normal about these two actually. this is a memory that, for the current entropy, is something she never actually experienced (because is the "her" from 2 loops ago the same person? what about 10? 50? how many times has she lived already?) but it is still true, and it will always be true. because senadina is indispensable even if she is not the key to saving langqiu, because she still would be entropy's "fated firefly" no matter what, because if entropy doesn't remember senadina then nobody else will, because nobody else can
ALSOOOO THIS PARALLEL. no matter which memories entropy visits- hers but not real, or real but not "hers"- there's one thing always missing, and that is time. time to be real friends without having to save the world, to eat local food and laugh with each other, to take a group picture, to finish all the plans they made together (whether it be a group of two or five). and it's a next time that entropy wants- a next time to see senadina
Me: Okay, let's work on researching this thing
Brain: I don't really wanna do the work today I don't really wanna do the work today I don't really wanna do the work today I don't really wanna do the work today I don't wanna do the work today
That sinking feeling when you're 70k into a wip and realize you're going to need to do at least two separate sets of major edits in order to patch a glaring weak point
Looking at those stats, is it any surprise that I feel almost personally responsible for keeping that fandom alive? And, by extension, feel like I’m personally snuffing it out, simply by slacking off lately?
I think that thing is indeed the most German thing I’ve ever written. Yes, even more German than the previous most German thing; which was already pretty damn German.
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They offered me Christmas Eve. I don't know whether or not I want to do that.