Bitches be telling I'm a Asa Larper,
YOU HOES, SHE WAS MY COMFORT CHARACTER THAT I COULD PROJECTED ON WHEN I WAS AT MY LOWEST BACK IN 2023.
She's a well written teenage girl, who gets mad at people and the things they love, because she was isolated from those people and those experiences, until she gets them by the end that she appreciates them.
She self loathes herself because of the things she did, and eventually led to her believe she would deserved it when she thinks in a situation people would kill her. Especially that she intentionally trip to make the rescue longer to her dad.
She doesn't know what she wants whether to go for solitude or companionship, since solitude is what makes her feel alone and empty but companionship can make her feel trapped and be a burden in her friendships.
In my interpretation for her trips can be reflected as a self sabotage from her opportunities, mirroring the guilt that she won't deserve those opportunities since she killed her own dad through tripping, burdening others because she needs assistance to get up in the cost of everything. Like a punishment from that childhood event.
Bullying and passive exclusion can effect you deeply guys 🥀🥀🥀
She's so relatable, like bringing up facts about sea creatures to entertain your date even though it's boring but it's said by the book.
Also comparing herself to celebrities and how she's better than them.
And she's like hating sex?? OMG SO MEE