RFA Dating Asexual MC - RFA, V, + Saeran
request sent in by @engel-katze . this is for you, angel!
DISCLAIMER: I myself am NOT asexual and I can’t convey the broad spectrum that is asexuality. If any of my followers are asexual and feel like this does not represent them at all please let me know and I will adjust it to the best of my ability. I would hate to misrepresent anybody, and I want to make sure you all are seen and heard as accurately as possible. I love you. - luna xx
warnings: some sexual themes, but nothing too crazy.
• He’s taken by surprise for sure
• He doesn’t understand it at first; he thought that maybe you just weren’t ready to go all the way with him yet, and he respected that
• But one night the both of you were exchanging kisses here and there and his hands started to wander and you could see his expression getting darker with need
• So you shoved him off of you and onto the floor
• “MC I’m so sorry I should have known that you weren’t ready yet I—”
• He isn’t hurt at all by your pushing away he just wants to understand
• And so you explain to him that it’s not...personal per say
• You thought that he was very handsome and if you could, you would absolutely jump his bones every second
• Though he’d never tell his ego was nice and fluffed by that reassurance
• But the thought of the act of having sex (with anybody, not just him) made you physically sick and he never made you feel bad about it once; if anything he was happy that you were communicating
• The two of you discuss maybe alternatives or different ways to both have that sexual release with each other, without any sort of act of intercourse involved so that it wouldn’t negatively effect you.
• His self esteem took a rather hard hit for sure
• He thought that you didn’t even romantically like him and didn’t know how to tell him otherwise
• One night his hand was on your thigh and he started softly running his hand up and down
• You looked away from the television to look at him, noticing how his brows were furrowed from nerves as he looked at you.
• “Yoosung...?” Your voice was anxious and he could tell, but he thought that maybe if he just tried a little harder; made the first push.
• He kissed you once, and then gently placed you in his lap, and as you sat there you could feel his lower region beginning to harden
• “Oh, oh God no wait—” You hurriedly pushed yourself off, standing away from him across the coffee table as his face fell
• “Is...is it me? Am I not attractive enough? I know that I’m not rich like Jumin, or as toned and attractive as Zen, but...” His eyes started to fill with tears and you instantly felt your heart sank
• “No! Oh, God Yoosung no please...” You hurriedly ran to his lap and knelt in front of him, taking his hands in yours
• You tried your best to explain what it was and why you didn’t really want to have sex with him
• He was so relived that he cried
• He’s lowkey okay with it because while, he’s never experienced sex and he knows that he wants to have sex and experiences sexual attraction
• He’s too anxious about his performance in the bedroom to do anything anyway; he just tried initiating things because he thought that’s what you wanted
• You’d decided to tell her one night after work when the two of you were exhausted and you just blurted it out
• “I...I’m asexual, Jaehee. I don’t...I don’t feel sexual attraction.”
• You were actually a little pissy that she reacted so calmly; since that’s not the reaction you usually get
• She honestly didn’t care if you wanted to have sex or not; if anything after you’d explained to her what it was she herself thought that that might be her sexuality too
• She has always been romantically attracted to women, but when it came to sex for either gender she just felt...like it was pointless. No need.
• “I think I was able to take it so easily MC is because, well, I think I am too.”
• You were okay with that. More than okay with that.
• It was hard enough for Jumin to get a better understanding of his own emotions
• You didn’t want to overwhelm him with your sexuality, especially because of how rare it was
• One night the two of you were in bed, his hands wandering over your body as you two kissed
• You weren’t fully comfortable but you figured maybe, just maybe you could do it. For him.
• That didn’t work well at all
• “Yes, Jumin. Go ahead.”
• “...Then why are you crying?” You hadn’t even realized until he said it, shaking your head softly as you sniffed
• “Don’t worry about it okay? Just..are you almost done?”
• “MC.” He was concerned and a little hurt, immediately pulling away as he turned on the bedroom lights
• You covered your naked body and immediately began to sob, Jumin holding you close as your body shook from how hard you were crying
• “I’m so sorry, please don’t be angry with me. I...I’m asexual, Jumin. I can’t do it I can’t—”
• “Shh, MC it’s alright. It’s okay. I just wish you’d told me sooner, darling...”
• After that night Jumin tried his best to make sure he didn’t cross any boundaries
• If he wasn’t working on paperwork from his job he was reading a book on asexuality and researching it, just to make sure he knew the ins and outs of a rather important part of you
• He thinks you’re joking at first when you tell him the poor idiot
• He knows that asexuality is rare and so he figured it was just another sort of prank or joke that you were trying to pull
• To be fair you were rather nonchalant about it because you figured it was important he know and that he wouldn’t make a big deal out of it like others have in the past
• So he freaks out when out of nowhere he shoves his hands down your pants with a cheeky giggle while you guys are play fighting and you immediately scream and bite his shoulder
• And I mean bite it like you drew blood from how hard you bit this man
• “Ah! MC, what the hell?!”
• “I should be asking you that! What is your problem? Don’t stick your hand down my pants you asshole!”
• You immediately ran out of the living room and slammed the bedroom door behind you, feeling embarrassed and a little violated by your own boyfriend
• While he hurriedly tends to his shoulder to stop the bleeding his mind immediately drifts back to the conversation you’d had with him towards the beginning of the relationship
• He literally wants to kms he’s so mad at himself
• He figured you two hadn’t had sex yet because you were just trying to take it slow; after all it’d only been a few months
• He gave you time to calm down and after about an hour he reaches out to you
• He fiercely apologizes and promises that he will educate himself better and take you more seriously
• Like Jumin he’s not really familiar with the term itself
• So when you bring it up to him he’s a little embarrassed to ask so many questions to clarify what that meant for the two of you
• “Essentially, you don’t feel sexual attraction? Like when you look at me, or anybody else who you want to have sex you just don’t feel the need to?”
• “In a way, yeah. Every person who is asexual is different, but that’s how I feel about it. I personally can have sex with you I just... I won’t really want it and I don’t need it.”
• Still a bit confused but he respects your boundaries, always
• “Okay, MC. Thank you for letting me know.”
• He’s never been in a relationship like this before, and his last one was a complete train wreck
• You both establish boundaries with one another when it comes to intimacy; what he’s comfortable with and what you’re comfortable with
• It was a bit rough and took a lot of adjusting but with patience and progress the two of you ended up with a healthy and happy relationship
• He really isn’t trying to be an asshole, he just genuinely is surprised and confused
• He’s still dealing with his emotional and physical trauma that he went through from his childhood and Mint Eye
• The idea of having sex and being intimate with you was the last thing on his mind and you were okay with that
• At first he thought that your sexuality had something to do with your upbringing and trauma and he thought you two would be able to relate
• While you didn’t have the easiest childhood, that wasn’t why you were asexual. That’s just...the way you were. You always have been asexual you were just born that way.
• “So it’s like when you’re gay? Or bisexual?”
• He understands a lot more now and he tries his best to educate himself and keep himself in line
