#ash hcs

[chaosandthe-deadblog]

ash expresses her love in weird ways. ash also has mentioned that she has a collection of organs and that she would cut open gary's chest to take his heart for it

im just saying, it would make sense if she was uncomfortably familiar with anatomy (human and serepentian)

[tojiswh0re]

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*i don’t own this gif nor did i make it

imma cut it here because MAJOR BANANA FISH SPOILERS BELOW 

a/n now that that’s out of the way ive been feeling sad and since i cant cry so here you go. im very sorry but i was listening to mr loverman and it just inspired me. also i feel for those recovering from banana fish, im just so numb it doesn’t hurt anymore.

warnings: angst with no fluff, major character death, swearing, suicide attempt 

eiji found himself back home looking at a picture of him and ash with a grin bearing his face thinking fondly of his time in america. as much pain he went through, he got to meet ash and that made him feel as though he’d do it all again. he went to unpack his clothes whilst thinking of all the places he wanted to take ash when he came to visit. wondering about all the cuisine and experiences he should show him but he has all the time in the world to do that when ash comes.

he had arrived early in the morning so he knew ash’d be awake so he went to visit ibe’s house to get him to call ash since eiji lost his number somehow. 

they sat there and waited for ash to pick up but it happened to be in vain as it just went to voice mail. instead he got a call from charlie which was bizarre as everything was finished, he was probably checking in anyways.

eiji sat there watching ibe’s face drop curious to what’s happened. he told charlie to pause and then turned to eiji.

‘ash won’t becoming to japan eiji’

‘huh? why, if it’s money i can pay for it!‘

‘ash has passed away’

‘are you sure? he was fine last time we saw him! im sure if we call him again he’ll pick up!’

‘ h- he got stab-’

‘NO. he promised me he’d come here s- surely t-they’ve mistaken him with some else. HE. IS. ALIVE. w-we went through all that, HE went through all of that shit that life threw him and he kept going so you’re telling me that a measly KNIFE was his downfall. bull shit.’

as he proclaimed this, tears were rolling down his face endlessly, his body racked with sobs so violently. charlie winced on the other end of the phone hearing the turmoil the poor boy was going through. eiji curled up on the floor and just kept crying, he couldn’t stop and didn’t want to stop as he didn’t want to think about a world without ash. he kept looking at the photo of the pair of them and each time he saw ash’s face he felt as though his heart was being wrenched out by some horrid creature over and over again.

ibe struggled with how to comfort him. sometimes going to hold the grief-stricken young man or just leaving a bowl of ramen which soon piled up outside of eiji’s door as he wouldn’t touch it. the first two weeks he was bedridden not eating nor sleeping. it got so bad to the point where ibe had to force feed him as eiji had simply lost the will, lost the ability to care because what was there to care about anymore? ash? he just simply left him choosing to stay in that measly library instead of fighting leaving eiji to live a life without him.

when the tears stopped flowing eiji’s pain turned into anger at ash and the stupid people in the library. how the fuck do you not see someone bleeding out? it was THEIR FAULT. then anger at the guy who stabbed ash, he didn’t even care to think of his name as he didn’t deserve that respect. then lastly anger at himself. he was so fucking dumb to leave ash, he knew that he had lost so many people he cared about and he still had the cheek to leave ash there all by himself.

then one day it got to the point that eiji wanted to see ash again and decided that they could meet again in another world and when he was in the bath he sunk lower and lower hoping to fall into ash’s embrace. he saw a light that slowly morphed into ash’s face but it was fading mouthing the syllables,

‘sa-yo-na-ra’ 

he was met with ibe’s face mixed with worry, pain and guilt. how could he have been so naive to leave eiji for that long? after that, seeing ash’s face whether real or not that stitched a tiny piece of his heart again and although eiji believed he would never be happy again he decided he would try. for ash.

[lost-in-the-in-between]

How do u think connor and evan's first time cuddling would go?

Mmmmmm, this is so cute to think about. I’m just going to do some hcs on it; if you want it to be an actual fic, I’ll write that up for sure, but it might take a few days because I’ve got several requests still in my inbox.

So they’ve been together for a while now, probably a few weeks

Connor has a habit of spending most of his time at the Hansen’s because Heidi’s always gone and that way they don’t have to deal with the rest of the Murphys

So they’re watching a movie and Connor’s getting sleepy because he doesn’t really sleep that much, just little naps here and there most nights

He’s dozing off and slowly he starts sliding closer and closer to Evan because Evan is warm and smells good

His head just sort of lands on Evan’s shoulder and at first Evan tenses up and gets a little flustered because his neck is hypersensitive and he’s very ticklish

Connor pulls away immediately, apologizing profusely and basically throwing himself to the other side of the couch

Evan starts apologizing then because he didn’t mean to make Connor feel bad so both of these boys are just saying that their sorry over and over until finally, Evan blurts out that his neck is like, really freaking ticklish and Connor just stares at him for a second before laughing

Evan nervously laughs too, unsure why they’re laughing but he’s not going to not laugh with his boyfriend

Connor just sort of moves back over and asks if he’s okay with Connor holding him and Evan blushes but nods

So Connor pulls Evan towards him, letting the shorter boy rest his head on Connor’s shoulder and he wraps an arm around Evan

They both get sleepy due to how late it is and before the movie is even over, they’re asleep

Somehow, they wind up tangled together during the night, with Connor’s arms around Evan and Evan partially laying on top of Connor and both really, really like it

Heidi comes home from working the night shift to find them. She can’t help but grin as she wakes them up, happy to see both boys so at peace

[chaosandthe-deadblog]

ash mentioned having a collection of organs i suggest that her special interest is anatomy. like in general. she fixates on different species from time to time