#ash lives

[figjelly]

Whelp, signed up for new insurance. My previous one ended because emergency covid stuff ended. Finances are gonna be way tighter now. I was getting all of my meds and doctors visits for $0. Now all my Rxs will be a $20 copay which means a minimum of $80/month is that's for a thirty day supply. I won't be able to afford 90 days if it's going by 30 days. Then the insurance is $100 a month.

Already that's an extra $200/month and that was my grocery money 🥲

[sunshinebunnie]

12 for the writers asks ✨️

Thank you for the delightful ask, @lavender-blush!!

#12. What headcanon will you keep implementing in your fics, even if canon ends up contradicting it?

I hope this isn’t too much of a cop out, but I definitely feel like Ash will always start off salty with Lexi, but then she wears him down (thru sugar or spice, dealer’s choice!), and then he’s a 1000000% on Team Fexi and wants to see Fez & Lexi happy. (And I will keep on writing this goddamnit!!!)

Thank you for talking to me!! I hope you have a wonderful weekend, hun!! 🥰🥰😊😊

[ashrieds]

I just broke up with my dad

[ashestothewind]

name change

So, my birth name isn't Ash/ley but I've been using that everywhere but with family and at work.  Coming out to my mom has given me a tremendous amount of confidence to be more myself, but more on that on another post.  This is about my name at work.

I told my managers I want to go by "Ash" now and explained that I've been using it for 2 years everywhere but there.  They were super cool with it and it was awesome.  A few of my coworkers already knew about the name from facebook, which I won't link to cause i only use it to (barely) keep in touch with my friends from college, and they had no problem with it.  But this post is more about the negative responses, I'm just gonna list them with my feelings afterward.

"I'm not gonna call you that!  That's not your name.  Your name is _____!  Your name is _____!  I'm not calling you that!"  This one was super surprising, she was actually angry about it, which made me angry and it was just totally fucking absurd to me.  I asked her how it affected her and she didn't have a response and I don't really remember anything else she said about it. 

"*laughs* (to self) is this pussy serious? (to me) are you serious?"  I ignored the first part and told her I was and she got really serious and said she'd have to remember that.  She's actually been the best about not slipping and only slipped my birth name once and told her daughter, who told me she didn't like it and again "but that's not your name", to respect the change.

I told another coworker and she giggled a little and said ok.  Later I was introduced to a new employee and I introduced myself as Ash, which felt good and then the giggle employee paged me with my birth name and I mentioned I introduced myself to the new person and she asked me why I used Ash.  Like, what?

I told my mom and she said "you're killing me ______!"

I guess the negative responses just stand out more... anyway, it all made feel very bitter.  By the second day, though, I was only misnamed a few times which felt really good.

[ashrieds]

teaching yourself or just learning through trying new things is fuckin hard and takes a long time.  I get frustrated a lot... but I hope to start getting some cool things together that incorporate physical and digital elements.  Also animation, i want to start animating again. 

Sorting through samples going back to 2010, editing the good ones, and then reorganizing them again for the order they would go on my sampler took a long ass time.  But it's done and now I can look forward to more creative work, musically.

[ashrieds]

Also I just hooked my M-Audio M-Track up to my computer which should hopefully mean I'll be uploading more audio content.

[ashrieds]

Daily Productivity List 14

ok! I'm gonna change these up a bit and only mention important shit.

worked 4:50-1:15

recorded 1.5 songs worth of vocals in the short window I had to do so

edited and placed vocals, new drum beat, and 2 bass tracks

[ashrieds]

Daily Productivity List 13

today could have been better

woke up early

stayed in bed and vividly dreamed about making a time machine and getting stuck in the past

made steak and eggs for breakfast

recorded vocals

thought about recording bass

remembered I have to send out the Minibrute today

arranged for that

showered

took the Minibrute to UPS place and sent it out

bought new computer speakers with a subwoofer

set my mom up with a new gmail so she could play candy crush on her tablet

grumped

thought about recording bass

fapped

dicked around some more

made steak fajitas for dinner

dicked around some more

charcoal shaded the robit

posed mannequin for future robit paintings

set up to record bass tomorrow

called S/O

went to bed