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Banana Fish ((Ash Lynx x Reader)) ; no warnings
「When Dawn Breaks.」
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𝑻𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒇…
↪ Ash Lynx who never forgets to spend the night with you before he goes to a dangerous fight.
↪ Ash Lynx who can never tell whether he'll make it out alive so his first thought is to let you know how much he craves your warmth, your love and affection for only God knows if tomorrow will come.
↪ Ash Lynx whose arms only wrap around you tighter as you laid in bed together, blissfully unaware of the silent goodbyes that come with his feather light touches and light pecks on your skin - trying to map out all of you in his mind so when he breathes his last, he'll still be able to remember the entirety of you.
↪ Ash Lynx who wonders if there were happier versions of the both of you in a different universe. How did you fall in love? How did you meet? Were you both living happily living the life of his dreams? Perhaps you were married, living in a quaint little apartment with a toddler than only seems to babble with laughter - filling your home with a joy that no other could.
↪ Ash Lynx ponders about many things and the faintest of smiles tug on his lips. No matter what there is one thing he is sure of, you would be lovely in every universe.
↪ Ash Lynx who thinks that falling in love with you in this lifetime is a blessing and a privilege. No words can describe the amount of peace and tranquility you've brought into his nightmare-stricken life.
↪ Ash Lynx who reluctantly pulls himself away from your sleeping form when the light of dawn starts to peek through the drapes of your windows. He casts you a soft gaze, trailing the back of his fingers against your cheek before leaving the bed.
↪ Ash Lynx whose eyes widen in surprise when he hears you mumble his name, half-asleep as you try to entice him back into the warmth of your covers - to forget why he was even about to leave in the first place. "Aslan". His name had never sounded sweeter than when you say it.
"Will you come back?" You mumble, sleep still holding you like a vice and your voice barely above a whisper.
"I will. I promise." Ash lies, because he doesn't know if he will but he doesn't have the heart to tell you that when you look at him with so much love.
"Take care." You whisper, pressing a soft kiss onto his knuckle.
"I will." Ash says again and in this moment there is nothing more he wishes to be true apart from the promises of a tomorrow with you that he wishes to keep. His heart is reluctant to leave but he knows that he must and he cannot be kept elsewhere except for his duty. With a final look in your eyes and a kiss to your forehead later - Ash Lynx slips out of your apartment and out into the dawn.
The city greets him noisily and the day begins again.