#asmo hc

[headcanons-ofthe-devildom]

Asmo regularly watches soap operas, and will talk about the plots at length to anyone who will listen. He's also able to recite the entire script of both Legally Blonde and Mean Girls, due to having seen both movies so many times

[marieminkk]

i think i went overboard with the background but i really needed to practice a bit... anyway, here's a headcanon

[asmobabe]

Angst HCs: Asmodeus

“Like any unloved thing, I don't know if I'm real when I'm not being touched.”

He's a narcissist with low self-esteem. Asmodeus is obsessed with what he sees in the mirror but hates the person he becomes when he's alone - so weak, so fragile, never satisfied, never enough. It's exhausting.

Sometimes Asmo thinks being beautiful is his only redeeming quality. A single pimple will ruin his day because, well, if he's not attractive, then what's left? What is left of his sin, what is left of the demon in the mirror? What is left of the angel he once was? 

Sometimes nothing feels real, real to the touch. Sometimes he can't believe this is what he's come to. It doesn't feel enough. So he goes to The Fall. He dances until he can't feel his own feet and sings along until he loses his voice and takes as many pictures as he can, to convince himself it happened. He obsesses over followers on Devilgram, trying to prove to them that he's happy, that he lost everything, and it was worth it. 

The only time he feels present is when he's being touched - as in when he's having sex. Not many dare to touch him without second intentions.

It's been so long he started getting things mixed up. Asmodeus just assumes any attention he gets comes from a place of desire for his body, any affection showed (or felt by him) must mean sexual interest.

He fears abandonment above anything else. It can get very ugly in terms of despairing if he feels like he might be left behind.

Not gonna lie, it hurts knowing people only think of him as a pretty face with loose morals. But he plays the role still. It's easier.

His hands never stop shaking. Never.

It's not like anyone will stop to listen, but he's a pretty good singer. He also draws, not only clothes but in general. Not like anyone ever stops to take a look at his drawings.

He likes you so much it's suffocating, and when you lie about Belphie it hurt like a stab in the back. Was it all in his head? He wouldn't be surprised if he was, he has a tendency of overestimating how much he means to people, overestimating the relationship he has with others. Take Solomon for an example.