#astradecays

[absclutio]

@astradecays ( hideko ) said : ❝ i do need you. i wouldn't be here if i didn't. ❞

 ⋆｡𖤐°⭒˚｡⋆ ♪  —  he keeps his distance , just as he has for the past several weeks . if there's anyway to convince her that she doesn't need him , that she deserves better , it's by pushing her away . and , fuck , he's good at pushing people away . especially now . especially now that he wears his shame around his neck , thorned and angry . who would want a broken man ? a man who had been torn apart and pieced together as a mockery of that which he stands against . he's not the same man he used to be . he knows he never can be .

the man she loves is dead .

there's even a memorial she can go to to mourn him . hell , how many times has he visited it to mourn himself , to tear his throat out to bleed on the memories of everything he used to be . everything had been taken from him . his life , his soul , his body , his mind , the love of his life . there is nothing left for him except the grief of knowing what could have been .

and she ... oh satanas she deserves the world . she deserves the universe . she deserves everything he could have given her before his head met steel and wood . and now all he has is darkness , confusion , and nothing at all . and he can't understand why she can't see that . why she's so fucking determined to stay with him . " you need who i was . i can't be fixed . i can't go back . that isn't me anymore . and you deserve someone who can treat you like he did . "

[anticristvs]

@astradecays ( shi ) said : ❝ i don't mean to be too forward, you just seem like you could use a friend right now. ❞

｢ TERZO. ｣ —   doesn't he always ? he looks up from the pew he's sat in , head on his arms on the back of the pew in front of him . sister has been on his ass and he's not sure how much more he can take before he breaks and pushes her wheelchair over a fucking cliff . what more can he do ? he's earned a grammy for fuck's sake . he'd done that without her help . it had been he and his ghouls and somehow that wasn't fucking good enough ?

what about the congregation that adored him ? the ones who shouted from the crowd , the ones who wore his face on their chest and painted his papal paint on their own face ? what about the radio channels and the mtv and vh1 that got requests to play his music , his video . and still he wasn't enough to please her . he'd be worried if he wasn't so angry , so hurt .

but after another night of being told how much of a failure he was , being screamed at that he was getting too cocky , that he would be forgotten by the congregation and clergy soon enough ... all he wants to do is break things . which is never worth it when sister imperator has eyes every where in the fucking abbey . he's never safe doing anything that might piss her off , or something that she disapproves of because it all somehow gets back to her .

so he's trying his best to calm down and not take the anger back to hideko .

head pops up and he turns towards the familiar voice with a heavy sigh . " is it that obvious ? or could you just hear sister yelling from wherever you were because that wouldn't surprise me " he tilts his head to the spot beside of him , welcoming the other . " did dee send you ? "

[vcrtexed]

@astradecays ( shi ) : ❝  the way i love you goes beyond description.  even those words don’t seem like enough.  ❞

⋆⭒˚.⋆   guilt colors her eyes as he speaks . how had she not realized she'd been gone for so long . it isn't the first time that she's disappeared . though , last time no one could have begun to guess where she was . her face on milk cartons and missing posters . she'd sworn she'd never do that again . and she'd kept to it for longer than even she'd expected . even after finding herself in another universe , she'd made it a point to call home , to try to reappear within a few days of her leaving .

but sometimes the universe has other plans .

how had she been gone for more than a year ? she knew that things had been weird with the tardis after going through an odd anomaly in the milky way , but she had never thought that it would spit her out over a year after she'd left . when she'd realized , the first place she'd gone was to find him . not that she had expected him to wait , but because she needed to see his face , whether or not he was hers . she didn't expect the welcoming waiting for her .

arms had quickly enveloped her and she'd buried her face against his shoulder , holding on for dear life , terrified that if she let go , he'd fade away . words whispered against his skin , fragile , " you ... waited . " and she'd been met with the most important declaration of love she had ever heard . it may not make sense to her , but she dare not question it . she could feel tears pricking at the corners of her eyes and she tried her best to hide them against his skin . " i missed you . i love you . i'm so sorry , shi . you deserve better . but i'm selfishly glad you didn't look for it . "

[legacysouls]

@astradecays asked: i'm lost. (hide&ves)

Stepping into one's dreamscape was as easy as taking a breath for them now, years of practice from Sleep's influence paying off with each time they decided to use such an ability. Stranger's minds always held the same sensation, like walking UNDERWATER. Each movement was slower than expected, a slight pressure weighing in on their chest. Sometimes however, their very presence in someone's subconscious mind caused the individual's dreams to shift from what they once were. A natural thing they concluded, work of the mind alerting the body to something UNKNOWN and potentially dangerous lurking just beyond the veil of reality.

" Lost? No, you're exactly where you're supposed to be. This is your dream after all. " Vessel's voice echoes in the shadows, deep and smooth, LAYERED like a chorus of more than one entity. They let the darkness slip away from them like the cloak that adorns their shoulders, masked features staring down at the other with a curious tilt of their head. " I am but a visitor here. " Oh, but that wasn't entirely the TRUTH. Vessel had the power to manipulate anything they wanted, this was all Sleep's realm after all, it did not matter whom was dreaming so long as they were.

[perpetval]

@astradecays asked: I can feel people's eyes on me. ( shi )

( Let them watch. ) That's what Perpetua wanted to say to the man she had initiated a dance with, to encourage him to throw all care what others think into the air in lieu of ENJOYING this moment, but she doesn't wish to push him. She'd be hypocritical if she did so. Compared to his sister Kiyoshi was not as sociable and much QUIETER which the antipope understands far too well in comparison to her own twin. Instead Perpetua nods her head, not uttering a word between them before she softly tugs on his sleeve and heads out of the main ballroom. But not before plucking two glasses of red wine from an offered tray and handing one over to him.

" Is this better? " Perpetua asks curiously once they're both out of the line of sight of anyone at the party, but still in EARSHOT of the music that drifts through the crisp evening air. They'd be able to speak out here much better anyways should they find themselves in conversation. She takes a long sip of the wine, smiling gently at him as the alcohol tingles and warms her throat on its way down when swallowed. " I forget that people aren't as into the spotlight as I've grown to be. Apologies. "

[deusabsentas]

@astradecays (kiyoshi) i've seen you somewhere before. 𝔪𝔢𝔪𝔢 — ( ⛧ )

if there's one thing he's always prided himself in was he always treated his stage hands with respect. he liked to get to know them on a personal level. okay, maybe not that personal, but at the very least a first name basis. enough to know pet peeves and whatnot so he could at least attempt to make sure everyone is in good hands.

so with every new crew member, he introduces himself. he offers a welcoming handshake — both hands encasing shi's with a slight bow of his head. ❝ ah! — ki. . . yoshi, was it? great pleasure to have you join us. ❞

the warm welcome was . . . disrupted by the man's response. [ i've seen you somewhere before. ] the cardinal paused mid handshake. there was no hiding the confusion in his eyes. he held onto the other's hand maybe just a tad too long before realizing, promptly letting go and taking a single step back. ❝ uhh . . . aha. — yes. i am almost certain you have. you have seen my previous shows, yes? ❞

or, considering the fact that he's a recent hire about a third of the way into the tour. sure, this was the first proper introduction he's had, but there's no doubt he hasn't been seen before, one way or another.

❝ or perhaps in the ministry. is a . . . big place, but still — ❞ hands wave in small circles. ❝ easy to cross paths. ❞

[serpcntes-a]

@astradecays / little thing for connor w/ moon boys based on this.

sat at the kitchen table of the current company's place, head rested in hands, fingers massaging slowly at temples to try and soothe the pounding headache that plagued him. vaguely, distantly, he heard the voice of connor speaking but none of it made sense ; they sounded muffled, as if speaking through a thick wall. it wasn't coming through clearly. eyes fluttered open and turned to look at the male, staring blankly, confused. everything felt heavy, as if he was wading through mud and navigating through fog. ❝ what? ❞ he asked. ❝ sorry — i didn't catch any of that. ❞

[general-kalani]

{ Thanks for the follow @astradecays!! }

Well, this wasn't how this was meant to go. John was meant to escape to his bunker and wait this out. He was meant to escape in general and get back to Joseph as a man with a hurt ego.

But no, now he had a hole in his ear thanks to a gunshot, injured further with the dogfight in the planes (how dare that Deputy be better than him in the planes!) and now he was captured.

Damn it all why did this Deputy have to ruin everything?

"Least the walk was nice." Small talk, or at least an attempt at it. That smile was remaining on his face, as if he wasn't concerned with what might happen next.

How he didn't want to imagine what might happen next. Execution? Probably mount his damn head on a pike! Oh well, what more could happen? This was already embarrassing that he got captured like this!.. Oh he was going to flay them all alive...