𝖘𝖆𝖙𝖆𝖓𝖎𝖟𝖊𝖉.

[perpetval]

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𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐃. || 𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐓 𝐁𝐎𝐀𝐑𝐃. || 𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓.

A STUDY IN: Reclaiming faith you once lost, nature versus nurture, the rolling fog obscuring dimly lit streets, the mystique of the moon, feeling as if half of yourself has always been missing, infinite reflections in the mirror, the darkness beckoning your sinful soul, yearning so much it aches, demonic hands reaching out from the shadows, being a part of a messy family, being destined for greatness, & new beginnings.

A highly-selective, iconless & headcanon based, mutuals-only, 21+ indie Papa V Perpetua from the band Ghost lore roleplay blog. Over time I might adapt and change some things up as necessary once we get more canon material, but overall will most likely stay very divergent from it. Please read my rules and info before interacting & following. I am crossover and OC friendly and I love making new verses to shove my muse in, don't be afraid to interact even if you aren't familiar with the lore! Personal blogs & minors / people under 21 DNI.

Please be aware that there will be triggering content on this blog: Satanism, murder/blood/violence, religious symbolism, religious parodying & criticism, mentions of religious trauma/Catholic guilt, drug & alcohol use, sexual themes and smut, and etc. various general horror triggers. I do my best to tag everything, though!  

AFFILIATES/MAINS: @faithstar / @4thslept (this goes for any of Lilith's blogs/sideblogs as well), @tooxldtorememxer, @divinehr / @prim0star, @putrefacerem / @7-inchez, @anticristvs / @vcrtexed / @absclutio / @phan7asma / @la1cized, @astradecays / @evocat1o, @shaepschift / @shotgunscn

OTHER BLOGS YOU CAN FIND ME ON:

@legacysouls (multimuse rp blog - low/selective activity) @divinesought ( vessel from sl.eep tok.en lore - low/selective activity )

[perpetval]

[ Hey all, sorry for the lack of activity across the board, but this month I'm going to be going through a couple of important changes regarding my mental and physical health. I've been prescribed a medicine for my anxiety and depression for the very first time that I'll be starting today or tomorrow and I got an appointment near the end of the month for my wisdom teeth to be yanked out if my insurance covers the anesthesia. I don't know how these new meds are going to affect me since I've never tried medical treatment for my mental health, I've got my fingers crossed it won't be as scary as my brain thinks it will be.

I'll still be trying to get as much done as possible here, but bear with me if throughout June I'm just sort of in and out when it comes to activity ( shouldn't be that hard since that's basically how things are at the moment fdghdfh ) Love y'all, I feel lucky to have so many supportive people through this. <3 ]

[poohsources]

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH EVERYBODY ! let’s take this as a reminder that no matter what you identify as, no matter if you’re out of the closet or not, no matter if you’re still questioning, all of you are incredibly loved and i am so damn proud of you.

[somebodys-bones]

post-tour

[perpetval]

[ Important update, I've added a DNI to my rules <3 Please check it over. I don't think it concerns anyone who's mutuals with me right now, but it's still an important new thing since I've been so hesitant to even put one up on my blog for years. I'd rather we all be on the same page! ]

[perpetval]

[ Important update, I've added a DNI to my rules <3 Please check it over. I don't think it concerns anyone who's mutuals with me right now, but it's still an important new thing since I've been so hesitant to even put one up on my blog for years. I'd rather we all be on the same page! ]

[disc90s]

kissing my girl who overthinks things. mwwwah. right on the lips, no more overthinking for you beautiful.

[satanpraycr]

spitalflelds : indie & selective, 21+ only multimuse ghost bc rp blog, featuring aurora ghoulette, rain ghoul, mist ghoulette and more, as loved by kai.

[perpetval]

𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝐝&𝐝 𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐬 𝐬𝐮𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲?

    — paladin.

You’re an idealistic person who is not afraid to stand up for what you believe in. You’ve got strong opinions and you are fully prepared to back up those opinions with your fists, if necessary. Sometimes you might come on a bit strong, but you always have good intentions. You’re very determined and you don’t back down easily. You have a protective side and, ultimately, you’re just trying to make the world a better place.

what is your paladin oath?

  — oath of devotion.

The Oath of Devotion binds a paladin to the loftiest ideals of justice, virtue, and order. Sometimes called cavaliers, white knights, or holy warriors, these paladins meet the ideal of the knight in shining armor, acting with honor in pursuit of justice and the greater good. They hold themselves to the highest standards of conduct, and some, for better or worse, hold the rest of the world to the same standards. You’re a very idealistic person with a strong moral compass. You try to do what you can to be a good person, though sometimes you might worry that you’re not doing enough or that you’re not living up to your own standards. You’re honest, compassionate, and you never go back on a promise. Though you are generally a kind and thoughtful person, you can be surprisingly fierce when you stand up for your beliefs. You strive to do good in the world, in whatever way you can.

tagged by: @eldrtchblst and @la1cized <3 tagging: anyone that wants to do this!

[vcrtexed]

@perpetval said : aftercare: for our muses to participate in aftercare together.

                  THERE'S  STILL  BLOOD  SEEPING  SLOWLY  FROM  bite  marks  littering  her  skin ,  a  dull ,  welcome  ache  settling  in  her  bones  as  she  lets  herself  slide  into  an  oversized  tub ,  full  and  warm ,  and  waiting  for  her .  she  can  hear  the  soft  rustle  of  sheets  in  the  bedroom  as  perpetua  changes  them  to  keep  them  from  sleeping  on  dried  blood  and  other .  she's  lucky  and  she  knows  it .  a  partner  who  completely  mirrors  everything  she  could  ever  want  or  need  and  who  cares  for  her  as  they  do ,  someone  who  doesn't  just  roll  over  WHEN  THINGS  ARE  DONE .  it's  still  a  new  sensation  for  her …  being  cared  for  as  she  is .  a  sensation  that  she's  not  sure  she  wants  to  get  used  to  because  she  wants  it  to  make  her  melt  every  time  they  shower  her  with  affection  and  care .

she's  just  coming  up  for  air  after  dunking  her  head  into  the  water  when  perpetua  steps  into  the  room ,  fluffy  robes  in  hand  quickly  dropped  to  a  nearby  table .  brown  eyes  find  them  and  a  smile  PULLS  TO  HER  LIPS  as  she  reaches  out  towards  them ,  humming  softly  as  they  take  her  hand  and  step  in  to  settle  in  the  tub  behind  her ,  pulling  her  into  their  lap  with  arms  wrapped  gently  around  her  middle .  rose  can't  help  but  lean  back ,  eyes  closed  for  a  moment  as  she  just  basks  in  the  feeling  of  their  arms ,  taking  in  the  smell  of  sweat  and  blood  and  something  that  is  distinctly  perpetua   as  she  presses  a  chaste  kiss  to  the  curve  of  their  neck . 

 she  loves  the  moments  after  sex …  where  THERE'S  A  CERTAIN  INTIMACY  that  you  can't  find  anywhere  else .  loves  them  even  more  when  things  have  gotten  rough  and  she  has  knots  and  muscles  to  massage  and  bites  to  attend  to .  something  about  having  their  hands  on  her ,  reminding  her  that  she's  safe  with  them .  that  she  can  trust  them  when  she  lets  her  guard  down  and  gives  herself  over  to  them  fully .  something  about  the  way  their  fingers  find  just  the  right  spot  to  press  to  make  her  gasp  as  tension  eases  and  the  way  they're  so  gentle  with  cleaning  any  wounds  they've  left  behind .  there's  something  comfortable  in  the  silence  of  LIPS  PRESSING  TO  HER  SKIN  and  trailing  across  her  shoulder  as  hands  move  to  follow  to  rub  where  kisses  have  left  their  mark .  

in  these  moments ,  the  world  stands  still .  everything  outside  of  the  ensuite  stops  existing  and  all  that's  left  in  the  universe  is  just  the  two  of  them  in  a  world  of  their  own .  a  world  where  there's  nothing  but  time  to  relax  in  a  hot  bath  and  enjoy  these  rare  quiet  moments  where  there  are  no  responsibilities ,  no  expectations .  just  them .  as  their  hands  press  against  her  shoulders ,  her  own  find  purchase  against  their  thighs  as  her  head  falls  forward ,  wet  BLONDE  STRANDS  falling  to  cover  her  face  as  she  groans ,  content .  “ fuck ,  if  being  the  antipope  fails …  you  could  always  own  your  own  massage  parlor . ”  a  soft ,  breathy  laugh  as  perpetua's  hands  shift ,  arms  draping  over  her  shoulders  to  pull  her  against  their  chest .  she  leans  back ,  eyes  full  of  love  as  they  meet  their  mismatched .  “ fancy  meeting  you  here ,  yeah ? ”

[perpetval]

One could describe it as a practiced DANCE the way the pair so easily fall into perfect rhythm with their aftercare routine, Perpetua quickly replacing the sheets with fresh ones from a small storage closet in the suite and Rose slipping away to get a much-needed hot bath running. After making the bed as neatly as if it hadn't ever seen the messy, beautiful ENTANGLEMENT of their limbs just minutes ago, they join their lover in the bathroom with a couple of fluffy robes ready for them to put on once they're both clean and dry. Even if it wasn't that far of a journey back to the warmth of the bed, no one would catch Perpetua neglecting any second of their partner's comfort.

Catching a glimpse of themselves in the full length mirror the antipope pauses to take in the sight of their body. Not just the notable smudges of lipstick and hickeys that Rose had left trails of on their skin, but the CURVES of their breasts, hips, and thighs. Softness where there was previously a lack thereof years ago. All the subtle and not-so-subtle changes that have gradually appeared after they got onto HRT. It all brings a smile to her face, a proud surge of euphoria that only adds to the pleasantness of the post-orgasm haze that was clouding in her head. It was still strange to finally be able to look at themselves completely bare like this and not feel ASHAMED anymore, to not feel like a significant part of them was missing, but to instead be thoroughly loved and desired both body and soul by another. They now could understand exactly why they were DESIRED and gained attention from complete strangers. Vanity had never been one of their sins while being a part of God's church, but Perpetua held no qualms with such a thing now. Why shouldn't she give a little love to herself?

The water is a PERFECT temperature, welcoming them in as they slide behind Rose's naked form and begin to massage at her shoulders. The Fifth can feel the release of their lover's muscle tension underneath the gentle pressure of their fingers, moving to a different spot to diligently do the same. " You think so? I'm not so sure I'd enjoy doing this to someone who isn't you, starlight. Besides, when it becomes work it takes the fun out of it. " Perpetua chuckles, stealing a quick kiss to the top of her head when she leans back in their arms to look them in the eye, their own mismatched gaze filled with UNDENIABLE adoration. " Well, hello to you too, sugar. Come here often? " They intentionally lay their Southern accent on thick, practically grinning from ear to ear as they playfully cup Rose's breasts in their hands. After giving them a few soft squeezes, the antipope snickers under her breath and instead reaches over to take the bottle of shampoo Rose uses, getting an adequate amount in her hands before they start to affectionately wash her scalp and blonde strands.

[la1cized-moved]

@perpetval said : you matter to me. i'll say it a thousand times until you understand.

                  IT  MUST  BE  SOME  SICK  JOKE ,  having  perpetua  confess  that  there's  some  sort  of  feelings  lingering  for  her .  her …  the  girl  who  can't  even  look  in  the  mirror  without  wanting  to  cry .  the  girl  who  has  been  lying  for  months  upon  months ,  though  maybe  that  made  her  a  sinner .  funny  how  the  catholic  church  had  been  the  ones  to  ask  her  to  lie  through  her  teeth ,  to  commit  a  sin  against  one  of  the  ten  commandments ,  the  words  SHE'S  BEEN  TOLD  TO  LIVE  BY .  and ,  yet ,  how  many  had  she  sinned  against  since  she'd  arrived  here ?  she'd  completely  forgotten  her  sunday  prayers ,  had  been  too  caught  up  in  the  world  of  the  abbey  to  keep  up  with  the  days  of  the  week .  surely  god  could  forgive  that .  honoring  her  mother  was  laughable  when  she'd  been  the  one  to  bring  her  into  this  world  and  let  her  be  taken ,  let  her  be  SOME  SORT  OF  EXPERIMENT .  had  she  even  tried  to  find  her ?  would  it  have  mattered ?

tears  run  down  hot  cheeks  as  she  tries  her  best  to  keep  her  composure  and  keep  her  glamor .  she  doesn't  want  to  hope  for  anything ,  doesn't  want  to  believe  that  anyone  could  look  at  her  and  see  SOMEONE  TO  SPEND  A  LIFE  WITH .  especially  someone  she'd  been  sent  to  help  sabotage .  she  was  everything  they  hated .  everything  they  were  supposed  to  hate .  everything  that  the  ministry  had  warned  them  to  watch  out  for …  wolf  in  sheep's  clothing .  and  here  she  was  in  the  hen  house ,  trying  to  keep  herself  hidden  in  the  shadows  while  she  decided  which  one  and  if  she  was  going  to  devour .  it's  stupid …  it's  absolutely  ridiculous  to  think  that  she  could  really  BUILD  A  LIFE  HERE  when  she  can't  even  decide  what  she's  supposed  to  be .

without  realizing  it ,  glamor  drops ,  tail  whipping  behind  her  as  tears  mix  with  the  fine  fuzz  on  her  cheeks .  the  little  ghoul  whose  growth  had  been  stunted .  the  little  ghoul  who  didn't  even  know  how  to  use  her  tail .  the  little  ghoul  who  didn't  know how  to  purr  or  how  to  growl .  the  little  ghoul  WHO  HAD  BEEN  TAUGHT  that  she  was  disgusting ,  that  looking  at  her  real  form  was  nausea  inducing ,  that  she  should  hide  every  inch  of  it  behind  a  body  she  was  only  mildly  happy  in .  the  little  ghoul  who  knows  it's  laughable  that  she  could  matter  to  anyone .  oh ,  but  she  deserves  this  punishment  doesn't  she ?  slipping  in  and  forgetting  for  just  a  little  while  that  she  wasn't  the  judith  THESE  PEOPLE  KNEW .

she's  thankful  for  the  privacy  of  perpetua's  suite  when  her  voice  comes  out  louder ,  sharper  than  she  expects .  “ understand  what ?  that  i've  been  caught  with  my  hand  in  the  cookie  jar ?  trying  to  have  my  cake  and  eat  it  too ? ”  a  loud  sniffle .  “ you  don't  have  to  rub  it  in  and  lie  to  me .  you  don't . ”  because  HOW  ELSE  COULD  THEY  WANT  HER ?  she's  let  herself  get  caught  up  in  the  fairytale ,  somehow  forgetting  that  she'll  have  to  leave .  she'll  have  to  go  back  home  to  an  abbey  and  take  vows  that  would  take  any  hope  of  holding  the  vocalist's  hand .  back  home  to  where  she'd  have  to  pretend  that  she  wasn't  leaving  the  best  parts  of  herself  back  in  italy .  “ don't  you  get  it ?  even  if  i  matter  to  you …  even  IF  I  BELIEVED  THAT …  i'll  just  have  to  leave  and  wonder  what  could  have  been .  and  i  can't . ”

[perpetval]

The reveal of Judith's BETRAYAL should've been enough to get Perpetua angry enough to throw her out, or worse, be sent to the pit for daring to lie to an Emeritus. However, none of that happens. In fact, Perpetua could hardly muster enough anger for it to really show when they spoke to her. They cared, they cared more than they should perhaps given this newfound information of Judith being a SPY for the Catholics. Instead of the cruelty and wrath that Satan himself could conjure in retaliation, they meet the ghoul with His mercy and understanding. Her glamour drops and Perpetua could now clearly bear witness to what years of being raised by those who had no clue how to treat a creation of the Dark Father below could do. Judith appeared far more human than ghoul, even like this. A creature forever looking like something in between everything she's been taught to know as NORMAL and it all combating with her true nature.

" Rub it in? No, that's the last thing I want to do. I don't take pleasure in watching you be in distress like this. " The sight of Judith's face streaked with tears tugs painfully at their heart. If they weren't CAUTIOUS of how she may react to it in this state of mind, Perpetua may have gone in for a comforting hug, but for the time being they stand patiently still.

A moment of silence lingers between them, giving the other some time to catch her breath after the sharp words leave her tongue. She was allowed her frustration, allowed to feel the grief of missing out on the life she could've had if she had remained in the Ministry as a kit. A gloved hand brushes across the surface of a large antique bookshelf as they start to slowly pace the suite, rubbing the specks of dust gathered between their fingers with a HUM in their throat. " You know...I've been where you are before. Not in the exact same circumstance, but I do understand how you feel. " Turning towards Judith once again when they approach closer, the Fifth's mismatched eyes seem to flicker a moment like FLAMES as they finally catch her watery gaze. " You feel trapped, like anything you do or say is watched and listened to and therefore judged. The version of God they feed us is ruthless, vengeful, yet they preach it as if He's loving. So long as you do everything right and be whatever they want you to be of course! " Perpetua laughs with a shake of their head, a sound DEVOID of humor as they reach out to very gently wipe away her tears with their thumb. " What a crock of shit. Love shouldn't be conditional even for a god to their worshippers and those leaders within the faith to their congregations. "

A sigh of exasperation is exhaled heavily from their nose, trying their best not to let their own UNPLEASANT memories with the church take over the focus of this conversation. This wasn't about them or what they went through, that pain would always linger, but they were in a much better place than before. What they could do was relate to her suffering and help guide her down the path that they went on should she take their hand to do so. " Who says that you have to leave? You hold the power over yourself and your own choices. I will gladly take you in as we already have if you choose to stay. " Perpetua reaches down, taking hold of the other's hand and holding it between both of theirs sincerely. " You're not a monster, Judith. Not here, not with me, and not with the others. You deserve to be told that even if you don't believe it right now. I hope one day you can come to see the beauty I see in you inside and out. "

@la1cized

[perpetval]

@invocari asked: Storm curls around Perpetua's back like a shadow, lips pressed against her ear. "Tell me, Papa, have you considered all the merits a ghoul's tail offers in bed?"

" Storm...my dearest ghoul, I'm in the middle of something here. " Perpetua TEASINGLY scolds him and moves to carefully lean forward to light another candle at the chapel altar, her words holding no real weight of wanting the other to stop his flirtations any time soon. The Fifth doesn't bother to hide the grin on their painted lips as they finally extinguish the match in hand, leaning their weight BACKWARDS in order to be wrapped up in Storm's arms. It was one of her favorite places to be, feeling safe and wanted by the ghoul. As the lull of silence accompanied by the now warm glow of flickering candles settles over their surroundings, Perpetua takes the time to let Storm's words SETTLE, mulling them over with a sudden chuckle. An almost sinister sound that reverberates within the dark, empty chapel.

Biting down briefly on their lower lip, the antipope reaches behind in an effort to lightly grasp onto the other's tail and pulls it around their waist as if to EXAMINE it. " I haven't considered it before now, I admit. Shameful on my part, but I suppose you could take it as an opportunity to show me all the opportunities I've been missing out on. " Pleading mismatched eyes peer behind her, trying to catch a GLIMPSE of Storm's gaze as her fingers continue to caress over his tail. " Won't you, pretty please? "

[phan7asma]

                  PHANTOM  HAD  NEVER  BEEN  ONE  FOR  ROMANCE ,  though  you  might  not  have  known  it  looking  through  his  extensive  catalogue  of  hallmark  movies  and  romcoms  taking  up  the  majority  of  his  list  on  netflix .  but  him  being  romantic ?  it's  not  that  he's  the  furthest  thing  from  it …  it's  that  he  doesn't  really  know  how  beyond  what  he's  seen  in  movies  that  he  knows  has  to  go  over  the  top  because  who  actually  DOES  THE  STAND  OUTSIDE  WITH  A  BOOMBOX  kind  of  thing ?  but  he  tries .  it's  mostly  in  soft  touches  and  gentle  kisses  in  places  he  can  reach  that  seem  just  a  little  more  intimate  than  a  cheek .  he's  well  aware  that  perpetua  has  a  lot  going  on  in  her  head .  between  the  tour  and  management  and  her  brother …  the  least  he  can  do  is  PROVIDE  SOMETHING  LESS  THAN  STRESS .  though ,  he  wishes  he  could  mend  things  between  her  and  copia .  truly  the  frater  is  someone  worth  being  around  and  he  can  only  hope  that  one  day  the  frater  will  see  perpetua  the  way  the  ghouls  do .

“ copia  put  in  a  memorial  for  each  papa  once  he  took  over .  i'll  have  to  show  you  terzo's  WHEN  WE  GET  BACK  TO  THE  ABBEY .  i  think  you'd  appreciate  it .  you  can  definitely  feel  his  energy  there …  at  least  that's  what  dew  and  mountain  say .  they  make  it  a  point  to  go  every  week  when  we're  all  home .  i  think  it  makes  them  feel  better  about  not  being  able  to  save  him .  it's  terzo's  story  that  worries  him ,  scares  him ,  gives  him  nightmares  of  losing  perpetua  because  the  idea  of  HER  BEING  TORN  FROM  HIM  and  having  to  watch  her  murder .  but  he  lets  the  thought  wander  when  conversation  comes  back  to  copia.  he  can't  help  but  snicker .  ” cardi  is  nothing  if  not  petty .  he'll  get  over  it .  everything  was  thrown  at  him  in a  letter .  didn't  even  get  to  ask  questions .  i  like  to  think  IT'S  HIS  DEFENSE  MECHANISM . “  a  soft  purr  slips  from  his  lips  and  eyes  close  for  a  moment  as  fingers  tousle  his  hair ,  practically  chasing  the  touch .  ” i  heard  he's  already  pulled  the  v  off  of  his  own  keyboard .  feel  sorry  for  anyone  who  has  to  read  any  emails  from  him . "

the  ghoul  shifts  at  her  cackle ,  lifting  her  head  as  cheeks  flush  a  bright  pink .  for  a  moment  he  thinks  HE'S  SAID  TOO  MUCH  OR  GONE  TOO  FAR ,  but  he's  quickly  reassured  when  perpetua  throws  his  teasing  right  back  at  him .  “ maybe  i  can  even  take  a  closer  look  at  some  of  the  other  things  i  can't  see . ”  a  wicked  grin  as  he  stretches  to  steal  a  quick  kiss .  “ do  you  even  realize  how  beautiful  you  are ? ”

[perpetval]

It was a SHAME that Perpetua hadn't been given much time at all to be shown around the Ministry before their departure for tour. There were many things that they weren't aware of, special locations in which those who dwelled within the abbey's walls visited as tribute to their devotion or to enjoy their off-time from their duties. At the mention of Dewdrop and Mountain, the Fifth seems to get a bit NERVOUS, fidgeting with the stalk of celery sitting within the red of their cocktail and even leaning down to gnaw on it absentmindedly. When it came to those two particular ghouls, Perpetua had tried her hardest to impress and be kind. They've been around longer than the rest of the current band members, had bore witness to the Third Emeritus and suffered with grief after his subsequent demise. Perpetua couldn't afford to lose their TRUST, or not even gain it in the first place.

" I'd like that. I want to properly pay my respects to him and the others when this is all said and done. Without them I wouldn't have been able to achieve all this. " Perpetua murmurs, lifting their gaze back to settle on Phantom. There's a SADNESS behind her mismatched hues as she thinks about how they were still transporting their bodies around to be on display for the fans. While Perpetua understood the sentiment, it did seem rather a cruel fate if they hadn't agreed to it when they still drew breath. She vowed to have a serious discussion with the clergy and her twin about it after the tour concluded. Hopefully it would be the one of the things Copia could AGREE with her on. Pulling off keyboard keys. How nonsensical could one man get with his pettiness?

" Such a wonderful ghoul you are. I feel very blessed by the Old One to have you by my side. " The Fifth praises the other quietly. A soft hum vibrates in their throat, a sound that closely resembles a PURR, as Phantom steals away a kiss. At his words it was now their turn to become flustered again, clicking their tongue and fixing a strand of their curly hair with a flair of CONFIDENCE that they never thought they'd possess had this exchange happened years prior. " Oh, yes, yes, I guess I'm pretty alright for my age. But I am nothing compared to the perfection that Lucifer has molded you from. " Fingers brush tenderly over Phantom's jaw, pinching his chin briefly before leaning in to give the ghoul a much slower, passionate kiss.

[alliekills]

if you really liked me you’d let me hunt you in the woods over the course of several days

[perpetval]

@invocari asked: ❝You showed me yours, I'll show you mine.❞ - Dewdrop

Fingers fall from where the antipope had been lifting away both their top and bottom lips, showing off POINTED canines for Dewdrop's viewing pleasure. Their teeth had always been like that, just another example of their strangeness that the church and their adoptive family had used as an excuse to deem an innocent child tainted by something demonic and dark. Perhaps, in some respects, they were correct in assuming it had been Satan's hand that swayed these abnormalities. From the infernal white eye to the pattern of faint freckles on the back of their neck that VAGUELY resembled the Mark of the Beast. Perpetua was never meant to be within the presence of God, yet they had tried. They tried their hardest for so many years to live in holiness, but in the end they couldn't deny that their faith in any Lord above had been torn from beneath their feet the night that their father had taken an iron hot crucifix and branded their face in the name of casting out their demons. All memories that will forever leave many SCARS behind, but Perpetua was determined not to let get in the way of the new life that they have now and certainly not allow it to ruin this moment with one of their ghouls.

" Yours are prettier I think. " Perpetua decides with a short nod of CONFIRMATION to herself when the other flashes their own set of fangs. A pair far sharper and more deadly than the ones the Fifth had. There would be no denying that if they were to ever hunt together, Dewdrop could easily tear through flesh while Perpetua might have to give a few FORCEFUL tugs to satisfy their hunger. " I'm sure you can leave one hell of a hickey with those, huh? "

[perpetval]

💌 what’s the letter / text they’ll never send?

headcanon questions /// - accepting! - @spitalflelds

[ A few days after they heard that they were going to become the new antipope, Perpetua in their nervous excitement actually wrote up a letter to send to their adoptive mother. Detailing that they're sorry for not keeping in touch, that they're safe and happy, that they apparently have a twin brother, that they're found what they were always meant to do and they were now going to make music and travel the world performing it all. Midway into writing it the reality set in that there was nothing positive to be gained by getting back in contact with her or anyone in their old life again. She would only shame and denounce them further for abandoning the church and the future that their adoptive father had made sure to pave the way for them before his death and instead pursue a faith devoted to Satan of all beings. They keep the unsent letter in a blank envelope tucked at the very bottom of one of their dressers. Maybe getting closer with this twin will heal the wounds left by the past in regards to matters of family. ]

[perpetval]

💪 What random skill are they weirdly proud of?

headcanon questions /// - accepting! - @scarbound

[ I've touched upon this before and it's one of my favorite early headcanons that I had for them, but I wanna expand on it since it's more or less become canon since (in a way.) While they're wearing their gauntlet-like gloves they have the ability to use the very tips of them as fountain / dip pens, a skill in it's own right that they sometimes flaunt since it's not as easy as it may look to do calligraphy with your fingers only. I have to say in regards to this, it's probably a rare thing that they do either in sheer boredom when signing papers or when writing to a loved one. After all, they wouldn't want to completely ruin their expensive gloves with ink.

In general though Perpetua loves to write letters and make them as personal as they can with custom wax seals, ink color, using actual luxury fountain/dip pens, adding spritzes of their cologne/perfume to the paper, leaving lipstick marks, or little gifts like flower petals in the envelopes, etc. They love the emotion and care that they can clearly convey in something more tangible and they take great pride in the craftmanship of them. Far better and more personal than writing up e-mails or texts! ]