#ateot

[gochujangst]

here's my object ocs lmfao

Sooby = Bottle she/her

Lampshade = Lampshade she/her

Terre = Rock Jar they/any

Sparkly = Sparkle he/any

[at-the-end-of-time]

At the end of time,

as the very last of humanity drifts among the stars, they desperately burn fuel trying to outrun fate. A supergiant black hole sits in the center of the universe, its gravitational pull so great that no particle of matter can escape it. They only have so much fuel left in their dying starship with nowhere left to land.

They will all die in the end.

But, until then, they will keep running. They'll keep pushing and pushing as far as they can until the bitterest of ends.

But why? If they're all going to die anyway, then what's the point of running away? Who cares?

In this existentialist, futuristic, simultaneously nihilistic and optimistic novel, follow the crew of the Borealis as they struggle to answer that very question.

[chkoitl]

reblog if you are also full of colors

[at-the-end-of-time]

What if we kissed in the dying light of the supergiant black hole at the center of the universe?

[at-the-end-of-time]

This is a dark premise. What made you want to write something like this? /noff

First off, I'm stealing /noff from you, I haven't heard that one before jfndnd

Second, I will put below the cut cuz this one's a bit heavy.

I've struggled with things like death and my place in the world for a while. I like to think I know who I am, what I'm about, and what I want to do, but I also know that I'm capable of so much more, y'know? So do I persue storytelling like I've always wanted, or become a biologist? I know I'd enjoy both paths, but which one is more fulfilling?

Not to mention, I've been outrunning death from some of my own earliest memories. One of my most formative memories is in one of those pools where lifeguards can control how big the waves are, and I followed my dad to a deeper part of the pool to get his attention. When he didn't even realize I was there, I pushed further, until the waves grew too much and I couldn't touch the bottom. I remember the feeling of water filling my lungs. I woke up on my side, and my parents were filling out paperwork with the lifeguards. Whoops.

I've got so many bad experiences 🥽 ng that it's a wonder I'm not afraid of water. In fact, swimming is still one of my favorite activities.

In middle school, I got diagnosed with Graves Disease. First of all, great name /sar. Second, mine was so severe that my resting BPM was 160. Granted, I was in middle school, so that's not TOO bad, but even still a normal resting BPM would have been between 120 and 140. My running BPM got up to 230, sometimes 240!

I'm finally out living it now in my 20's, but I thought I'd have this stupid disease for life.

Also in middle school, I became clinically depressed, which spanned into high school and even made me suicidal for a bit. I made it, but it was gruelling.

In 2023, for my creative writing class in college, I wrote an ode to death that, when voiced, is about 8 minutes long. Still one of my best works.

Throughout everything, I've always been morbidly fascinated with the idea of death. If not dead today, right now, what would that mean? What would happen? Exploring those thoughts has sometimes been terrifying, and other times comforting. Terrifying because I'm worried I'll have missed my shot, and comforting because I know I'd be missed, y'know?

This particular story came to mind because of modern politics and the 5 different genocides happening globally. Why can people just stand by? How? When the greenhouse gases kill the earth, is it possible to escape? Will Earth recover?

And from there, I just combined the two.

Existentialism, fear, love, terror, death- all things I'm fascinated by in different ways, combined into one giant exploration of what it means to be alive. How DO you find the will to keep living when, ultimately, nothing matters? The ship WILL be sucked into the black hole. You can't outrun death forever. So do you just give up and surrender to it, or do you keep fighting for as long as possible? Why should you?

All that and more, I guess.

[at-the-end-of-time]

Gonna start making refs soon!

Expect to see some of them for Artfight if I can get them done in time!