Hey, I just wanted to say that I love your fics very much!🩷
Could you maybe write one about Jannik Sinner with a little smut and angst maybe after an important match he lost?
Thank you!!✨💕
Thought I lost you too
jannik lost the big game, and was sure he lost you too, forever. all he didn't know was you were always his. wc: 1.1k
You didn't know if your presence was still welcomed. Your hand hovers over the hotel door, desperate to knock, but your past was holding you back.
The same past that had made your heart shatter six months ago, by the man who left broken in his room now. Paris felt like yesterday, the green and blue jacket thrown on the floor, room thick with misunderstanding as voices cut through it.
"Jan, please, say something I- "
"Say what? Like I'm extremely happy to lose after getting 3 fucking championship points?" His voice rose, holding back his tears. Corners of his eyes red, as he looks at you.
"Yes Jan, talk it out. I'm here for you". You couldn't speak above a whisper, trying to close the distance between you and him. Hands trying to cup his face, but he jerks his head away.
"Just, leave me alone. Please." Jannik's voice was eerily too calm, just like the calm before a storm. You were afraid that he will crawl back to the walls he built, so high that you could't climb it.
"I- I just can't let you spiral into your self doubt, please let me help you."
"I don't need help! I need no saving of any sorts, I- I don't need you." For the first time ever, he screams at you, voice breaking, just like your heart.
"What?" You could barely utter the word as choked sobs make way to your throat.
"Just, go I-"
"You don't need me? After all this time? I travelled a whole day to support you here while the expenses pile up my student loan. I-"
You take in a shaky breath, tears threatening to fall.
"I sacrifice too, ok? Its not just you Jan, I do it too, and I feel that you have taken my support for granted lately."
"You knew what came along with me , so leave if you don't feel if its right, I can't anymore. Lets end it."
Your heart falls listening to his words, devoid of any emotion.
"Do you mean everything you said right now?"
Silence takes over. Your eyes eagerly searching his, for any sign at all.
And he doesn't break the silence.
And it hasn't been broken ever since, not until today. Not when you saw his way to the US open final. Not when your finals tickets were booked within days. Not when Darren looked at you across the stadium, you in his player's sweater that no one could ever get in a store, laced with the smell of his damp ginger curls. Not when a little text pops up from him, telling you Jannik's room number and insisting on seeing him.
Three soft knocks. Easy to miss, but noticed if listened closely.
The door swings open, and for a moment both of you forget to breathe. He opens his mouth, but nothing comes out of it.
"Great match." You say, as quietly as possible, as if saying it too loud would break this dream.
Your eyes stayed on his face, how his beard has grown a little, how his lips parted. Finally meeting his eyes, which were already on you, wide in shock.
"You're.....here?" Jannik's voice sounded like it hadn't been used in a while, not to you. It carried a certain weight, unfamiliar to your ears, in sharp contrast to his soft tone.
"Just wanted to see you." You slowly took a step forward, testing the waters.
"I just wanted to -"
Before you could even complete the sentence, his arms found the way across your waist, head buried in the crook of your neck.
You stumbled a little from the force, his warmth slowly melting your heart, little by little. Your arms circled over his neck, pulling him even closer.
"I'm sorry. I- I didn't mean a single word that night. I was stupid enough to let ego take over, and I have regretted ever since and I-"
"Jan, breathe. It's ok I'm here now."
He broke the hug, eyes glossy as he stared into yours. He leaned into your touch, as you wiped his tears.
"Since that night, I- I couldn't focus on anything. My matches were robotic, god I missed the thrill of winning a point and cheering with you sitting in my box. I missed you, and I called you so many times, drunk or sober I- I don't remember. I fucked this up I-"
His breath shaky, trying so hard not to break down.
"I couldn't have this game and I thought I could never get you back too."
"But you never lost me in the first place Jannik."
And you don't know what made you do that, your hands cupping his face and pulling him into a kiss.
You feel his hands caress your waist, pulling you up to wrap your legs against his waist, like the countless times you have done before. He put his feeling into the kiss, a little rough just like his bittersweet heart and the mess in his mind, his pain evident as he bites your lower lip, going back to devour your lips, not like a man starved, moreover like him starved of your touch, your love, your existence in his life. Your gasps and his groans fill the air, as he places you softly on the bed. Hands fumbling to remove both of your shirts. His lips kissing on your nape as he travels lower, soft whimpers leaving his lips as he sucks onto you skin.
Jannik's eyebrows furrowed as your hands grab his face towards yourself.
"Tonight's about you. Let me."
You flip, straddling his lap, hands roaming on your chest. A small chuckle leaves his lips, turning into a moan as your lips find his, leaving a peck as you place kisses over his collar bone, hand moving towards his crotch.
"Fuck, you're killing me." Hands pulling his tracks down, slipping into his boxers to palm his cock. Thumb brushing over the tip. "Feels so good." he breath uneven, holding your hair as you go down your knees, pumping his cock. Kissing his tip, you swirl your tongue around him, leaving a trail of saliva on his length. "S-Shit I won't last." Bobbing your head up and down with your hands pumping his base, while looking into his eyes, how he could barely keep them open. You knew he wouldn't last. Jannik tilts his head back, the grip on your hair tightening as his moan rips though the air, arousing you. You could feel he's close, how he thrusts into your mouth, his grip on your head tightening, his curses in italian. "Cazzo, shit I-" You could feel the saltiness on your tongue, his gasps for air as he reached his high. Your hands gently remove his cock, kissing the tip as you come up to him, pulling you onto his chest. "ti amo tanto (i love you so much). I'm sorry I did that. I- I can't and won't lose you again I'm sorry." He whispered on your lips, thumb caressing your cheek. He pressed his lips against yours, sealing a promise which he would never break. "Now let me return the favour amore mio." ___________________
hii thank you so much for requesting this! so sorry for replying so late. hope you like it <3 i indulged a little too much in the angst part hehehe masterlist

















