I love the entirety of sfs just as it is, as all the characters are, nothing could ever change that but... god what I wouldn't give for an SFS Eren sitcom
Haha oh god SFS Eren is one of my fave characters to write, I swear… I am very tempted to write a few little drabbles about the other SFS guys once the epilogue’s done for SFS because I am a failure and cannot let this AU go, so you might get your wish!
Actually, I do have some drabble about SFSEren and Armin living together I can divulge (they’re discussing nsfw things sooo beware)
sooooo uh ask and you shall receive dear nonny~
Finding out new things about a partner was part and partialof a new relationship. It was something that was natural; the longer a couplewere together, the more was revealed about them. Tiny little snippets of thelife they led before meeting one another, mistakes they made (or wish they had)and quirks that wouldn’t be found out after a single date or two. It was likepeeling off another little layer, finding a far more tender part than beforehidden away from just anyone.
Finding out these kinds of things was something Eren enjoyedabout being with Armin. He was certainly full of surprises.
Discovering that his quiet, studious boyfriend sported adick piercing, however, sent Eren off into somewhat of a tailspin.
“What do you mean, you’ve got a piercing downthere?!” he screeched as they sat on Armin’s moth-eaten sofa together. SinceEren had practically moved in to Armin’s apartment, most evenings were spent onthe same sofa, with Armin trying to work and Eren trying to distract him asmuch as possible. It varied who won out. That night, they had been at animpasse before Armin played his trump card.
The blonde’s fingers didn’t even pause in their furioustyping across his tired old laptop keyboard, eyes only narrowing slightly soEren knew he was fighting back laughter. “Exactly that, Eren,” he said as hecontinued to type, “I have a dick piercing. Do you fancy tea? I’m gasping.”
Eren gaped soundlessly at him. “How can you be so casual about it?!”
Armin gave a shrug, smiling as he replied, “I just haven’treally thought about it for a while. I just got used to it. You know, sometimesif you have something you assume everyone else has one.”
“I don’t have a hole through my dick!”
“Well the hole is minute, so it doesn’t really matter.”Armin glanced up from his laptop screen to see Eren cringing and curling hislegs up to his groin. “It really doesn’t hurt that much. Just felt a littleunpleasant. Couldn’t use the bathroom properly for a week or so. I was told Icouldn’t have sex for a few months too but I didn’t exactly have a problem withthat.”
Eren couldn’t help to scoot a little bit closer. “S-so youuh- why did you get it?” he asked.
Armin’s furious tapping stopped for a moment. He looked overhis screen and raised a brow in his curious boyfriend’s direction. “Thoughtthey looked kind of nice,” he admitted after a pregnant pause. “My ex had one.Had to admit I thought it was rather attractive. But then I also got told thatit would make everything really sensitive, and I liked that idea a lot.” Hegave Eren a wolfish grin before disappearing back behind his laptop screen. Thetapping continued.
What would you say as advice to someone who is afraid to write their fic because they don't think they'll get any readers?
Well I guess the first thing I would say is that the somebody is definitely not alone in their feelings - worrying about not getting readership is something I’ve always struggled with! I still do - I’m planning to write some more JM fics but I am very worried to the point of disenchantment that no one will pick them up and read them!
But what I would say is: push aside those thoughts and do it anyway. The best thing I ever did was just write for myself. I don’t know about others, but my work tends to play out in my head on the regular, and I just want to get it out on paper. So I do. I try. And I do it so that I can look back and read it myself! Try not to make it a Big Deal. If you do, you won’t ever get anything down on paper. Write it because it’s fun and you want the story told - 9 times out of 10, there are people on this planet that want to see the same stuff you do.
That’s what happened with No Reins - I hadn’t written anything substantial in a while, and I wrote three chapters in the course of a weekend (v productive, I curse past me for her productivity) - then looked back and thought “ah what the hell, let’s post it up and see how it goes.” I didn’t expect much - despite the jeanmarco fandom being pretty huge, I thought NR was pretty niche. After all, who wants to read about horses in gruelling detail past the age of thirteen? I did. So I wrote it. And lots of other people read it. Soon, people were reading that had no extended thoughts on the equine world. And somehow, someway, people found it and loved it and started following me. It surprised me as much as anyone, belieeeeve me. And then SFS happened, and people who had come for NR stayed for the pain and the bohemian atmosphere.
I also think that, self belief aside, exposure is key. So you have a tumblr? Post your updates ALL THE TIME. Reblog your posts. Reblog your reblogs. You’re not bothering people - you’re getting your work out there. Put it everywhere you want people to see it. Talk about it. Be nice to fans. Reply to comments. ALL of those things contribute to people coming back and reading more, in my experience.
Okay..oof. Hey! I'm a fellow earthling from Turkey who loves writing and reading, and 5 days ago I started reading your fic SFS. I just wanted to say that it's been an amazing journey as I dive into the final chapter- and I wanted to tell you this as a person who is having problems with their sexuality. Not being able to admit is hard, and because of that I could highly relate to your fic. So yeah, thank you for making my heart race and making me feel queasy in the best way possible at 4 am :)
Hello there! :D
For starters, it’s so amazing to hear that you’re reading my fic from so far away, that’s just..insanely amazing. But I’m so so glad you’ve enjoyed reading what I have to write, and that it helped you in some way - I try to make my characters relatable and natural and at times they’re /too/ relatable :’D but Jean especially is very painful but very real and multi-faceted and I just love them all so much <3 so it’s so great to hear people love them just as much!
You’re more than welcome, and I hope I can continue to give you content that makes your heart race!
I'm still slightly (extremely) in denial about SFS ending, it's been one of my fave fics for the past year and now that it's over I don't know what to do. I want to create something for it despite not being creative at all haha, but in all serious, I know it may not mean a lot but the fact that you created something that moved so many people and managed to rekindle that creative energy in me is something to be proud of. I have no words and too many at once, but than you for SFS, it was amazing
Haha don’t worry, I’m just as in denial as you! I don’t think I’ll get used to not writing these goons for quite a while! Aww well it’s wonderful you even got inspired if I’m honest, I love hearing that my writing gives a reaction to people - even better if it inspires them!
I’m so touched by your words oh my goodness <3 thank you so much!
you're an amazing writer, i loved no reins and i've had sfs lined up to read for months but i'm legit terrified of the potential pain it will bring me lol. you're one of my favourite writers :) have a nice day! and please dont stop writing!!
Aw gosh thank you so much! :D I’m so glad you enjoyed No Reins, it’s my baby even after all these years and it’s so lovely to hear people are still fans (even if I read it now and cringe at some of the terrible plot decisions I made olol)
Haha well now you have the whooooole thing to read, and it is a beast - but I hope you enjoy it! It has a very different vibe to No Reins, but I think it still has a rather nice grit to it!
Thank you so much, you’re so sweet <3 I definitely have some ideas in the works right now, so you haven’t seen the last of me!
Now that I've had time to digest SFS, I can completely understand Jean's pov. Jean gave up a -lot- for him, and then Marco hits him with this. He has Claudine to think about, and now Marco's basically putting Jean in the same situation that Marco was in with Thomas. That's a huge lifetime disease. If they did end up having a relationship after this, I dunno if Jean would want to risk getting sick himself. I just don't see a happy ending, but I can't wait to see how you spin this tale.
Well I can inform you that, as I am Top Class Weenie, there will be a happy ending. How that happy ending comes to be is another story…
But yes, Jean did and said a lot of terrible things and did not handle Marco’s reveal the way perhaps he should have, but everyone has to remember that the boy is 20 years old and scared out of his wits.
Is it bad that I suddenly don't actually want Jean and Marco to get together (finally) in sfs? I mean... I understand that Jean felt betrayed and hurt by Marco not telling him, but it really felt like a selfish action on Jean's part. And yes, Jean isn't perfect but his character development seemed to be leading him on a good path, but now I'm not so sure Jean is becoming a better person. On top of rejecting Marco because it would hurt him in the end, not realizing the hurt he is putting (part 1)
(Part 2) them both through. He also told Christa about Marco, a secret that was not his to share. I just don’t feel like his reaction was all rightly justified, even if he was hurt. Jean didn’t think about why Marco might not have wanted to tell him. So I guess what I’m saying is I’m peeved off at Jean for not thinking about how he was hurting Marco with his actions, and the fact that he wasn’t thinking about Marco was solidified by his phone call, hours after he had time to think about it. (Part 3 I guess?) Hey, it’s the anon about Jean’s reaction again. I feel like I should clarify somethings that I didn’t I do a good job of explaining. First is that I love your characters so much. I want them to be happy (preferably happy together). But, if I were in Marco’s shoes, I’d have a difficult time forgiving the hurt that Jean caused. I am aware these characters aren’t perfect, that’s what makes the story so great. I’m just not sure I think Marco should forgive Jean at this point in time.
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I have to start by saying when I got this message, I was never offended or upset. I was actually really, really intrigued, because it made me think about the plot and the way I wrote the characters, so I’m genuinely happy you gave me these asks. They’re super cool and very nicely worded too :)
The simple answer is; no, I’m not surprised you think that way. Jean did not handle Marco’s secret well. I think he thought he did, but he made a LOT of rookie errors that’ll come back to haunt him.
Jean is the kind of person who isvery self-preserving, but that also means that he doesn’t see what’s going onoutside his own personal bubble. He finds it hard to empathise with otherpeople, and he was getting there with Marco until the reveal happened. Hecannot comprehend the amount of pain and suffering Marco’s going through, letalone the pain he had to bear when he told Jean about it in the first place, soinstead of facing that face on, Jean represses it and tries to ignore it. The thoughtof Marco in pain does genuinely hurt him, but he can’t bring himself to letthat into his own broken little psyche because it might just be enough to breakhim completely.
This is not me defending him, justan fyi – Jean is a MASSIVELY flawed character in SFS, as is Marco, and theyboth have a long way to go until they will be totally content and happy. That’snot something I can easily show in the scope of the fic, despite how long itis! There’s going to be stuff that I won’t be able to address, like Jean andMarco’s sexual relationship and how that develops (because Jean is scared todeath and Marco is super cautious).
I wanted to portray a reactionthat wasn’t healthy. Jean isn’t actively condemning Marco here: he was going toask all those inappropriate questions about HIV that stigmatise it, but as hewas a training nurse I figure that the stigma is not something he’d hold onto toomuch. Instead, it’s all very internal. We’ve seen Jean push people away ‘fortheir own good’ – but this is purely him. This is Jean being Jean and stickinghis head in the sand and hoping the problem goes away.
Throughout chapter nineteenpost-reveal, Jean is acting on his most dominant reaction: fear. And that feartakes the reins to his logic and reason and ends up making quite the mess. You’lljust have to hope that the pieces get picked up…
I agree, Marco shouldn’t forgiveJean at this point in time. But he might.Because, as we’ve already established, Marco is a flawed character too. He isflawed because he forgives, and that’s sometimes just as dangerous as beingselfish.
