#aughie

[yourknightinshiningplastic]

glad to know Spider-man (2018) hurts just as much the second time 👍🏻

[laulo821]

so yesterday i saw a post saying "robot displaying pixelated lipsticks marks on its screen-face" (and more but not applicable here) and though of them ... loving sigh

Clam Chowder belongs to @zapsoda

but i forgor the prompt til the midst of my nap time so it's done very after i saw that post anyways. do robots dream of electronic love ... anyways that's the L.I.Clam or the EllyClam they're a couple now

[nomegusta06]

4/29/14

I just stayed up another night writing a paper now I’m trying to make it thru the rest of my classes and stay awake. I’m not sure if I can do another sleepless night. The paper I turned in could’ve been a lot better. I started working on it a month ago then stopped and started on all of the other papers. I have an admiration for this particular professor. One day I would like to be as knowledgeable as him. I’m hoping for a good grade in this class. I have the take home final exam left which is another paper to try to redeem myself. I don’t want this professor to think that I’m not capable of comprehending and analyzing this material. 

I think what really put things into perspective for me is his end of the semester closing remarks. Granted I was fighting sleep but I was listening. He pretty much said find something that you get excited about and love doing. 

Unfortunately I haven’t found what I love to do yet. I know what I want to do but it’s not exactly what I’m passionate about. I need to do some more research and find a job in one of my fields just to see how I like it. 

Honestly I would rather be happy doing something that I love than making millions and hating what I do. I actually have been trying to do both but that’s not working out too well for me. I don’t know what my purpose is in life so I’ve been trying to make decisions that will sway me towards something that will be fruitful. 

With all of that being said, I can admit that I messed up this semester. I took too many credits, I got behind and had to catch up which didn’t leave a lot of time to dedicated to assignments and studying. Again I have to remind myself that I’m not failing. I’m just not passing according to my impossible standards. I have two semesters left and for the last year I’ve been saying that I’m going to stop pushing myself to get my cumulative gpa up high enough to graduate with honors. It’s too late and in order for that to work I would have to protest the weight that B’s hold. That seriously needs to be adjusted though.  

I still have a lot of things that I need to learn to accept before I’ll ever be happy with my life.

This is yet another semester being added to my worst semesters at VCU. Freshman year, Spring 2013 and now Spring 2014.This one still wasn’t as bad as last Spring. My grades are probably going to be worse though. 

I need to stop obsessing over grades but deep down I know that it is about more than just grades. It’s about my future, who I was in the past, and just wanting to become successful in whatever I do.