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Rant incoming.
ranting post //
i hate having a pmos flare up it makes me feel so rubbish and i hate that no one understands it. like it does not just affect me when i have a period, its a condition that affects me ALL of the time it doesn’t just disappear when i stop bleeding. my back is in so much pain and i am so fatigued and people expect so much from me. but they don’t understand how much effort it takes to get up at times like this. and my anxiety is at a high so that’s probably not helping. but i just want to cry people expect so much from me and i don’t have the energy to do any of it.
Gibt es eine höfliche möglichkeit beamten zu sagen dass sie mal ihren eigenen verfickten job machen und/oder einmal (1) google verwenden sollen bevor sie mir zum vierten verfickten mal weg dem selben scheiß "problem" auf die eier gehen.
I gotta vent somewhere, cause even though this is small it's really bugging me.
So I'm really trying to do better at getting to work on time and I just in general want to do better at things people are normally good at.
Well, got up this morning had literal hours and slept all the way up to when I should leave. So I leave my house 5 minutes late... Whoops. But hey 5 minutes late is like... Okayish no ones gonna tear me asunder for 5 minutes.
WELL SOMEHOW THE OTHER DRIVERS ON THE ROAD MANAGE TO ADD AN ADDITIONAL FIVE MINUTES TO MY DRIVE. (Idk what it actually was but my 15 minutes drive became 20)
So I get into work and I get to my computer. And behold Microslop has fucked up my PC so typing is nothing short of an ordeal.
So all in all I was 12 minutes late, and I both blame the world and myself... Cause like what if I had just gotten up earlier and left earlier. But also wtf.
How is my week going? I just managed to loose the second (rather emotionally important) ring in the span of 2 weeks. I have owned and worn both of those rings daily for at least 2 years.
Manchmal frage ich mich ob die bafög menschen tatsächlich so hurensohnmäßig drauf sind wie sie wirken oder ob die nen bonus pro aufgegebenem Antrag kriegen.
Anders kann ich mir das leider einfach nicht erklären.
"Bitte reichen sie folgene nachweise ein"
Mein löwe mein bär die hast du. Seid oktober. Mehrfach. In bunt.
"Nachweise über krankenversicherung mit Nennung der rechtlichen Grundlage"
Bbygörl. Rechtliche grundlage ich muss nach deutschem recht versichert sein??
Are you slowly losing interest in nct or you just gained a new interest in enhypen... just asking I don't mean to sound rude
Totally valid question tbh (and you aren’t being rude at all !! 💚), so here’s my honest reply:
With 127 quiet rn cuz of solos and working on the new album, there’s just not a lot of constant exciting things for me to eat up. The lil content and pics make me giggle or go feral, but it’s too far and between rn. Dream is embarking on tour, and the clips are pretty much what I’ve seen in Seoul. Wayv is… idk. Quiet isn’t the word. But suspiciously offline?..?. And Wish isn’t my thing rn in this comeback. I’m still 100000% an NCTzen and ult NCT- I literally took a Neobong to P1Harmony tonight lmao- but I’m letting the boys cook in their little dungeon in SM while I take a breather.
On the topic of needing a breather, couple of things. Ever since I started grad school, I feel so empty and depressed about literally everything, and for whatever reason, even NCT stuff feels a little empty to me and idk why. I think it’s just my depression. Grad school is kicking my ass so I’ve been too busy or sad to work on my Johnny fic……. And all of my side stories just aren’t hitting rn and idk why. I think i need to be factory reset like Buzz Lightyear atp.
Also, I will say…. My notifs died. This is my fault cuz I went AWOL for a little bit when starting school- But most of my content comes from asks because I like interacting with you guys and hearing your little headcanons or answering your questions! With my asks dead and no new fics to generate likes/reblogs, I feel so…… idk. Unmotivated to write? Idk. Ahri, Sooah, Ji, Gen… they all just. Idk. They’re just there for me rn. But I think the second asks start flooding in, I’ll be at my computer, typing away a storm like I am now.
About Enha: I was actually into Enha before NCT- WHAAATTTTTTT!!??!!?! Enha was my first ever kpop concert, isn’t that crazy lol- How times change. Anyhow, I was so deep in NCITY for the last year+ that every other group didn’t exist to me, but idk what in the genuine fuck happened, but suddenly I can’t shut the fuck up about Enhypen again. Genuinely, idk how this happened. Where did it start??? WHY???!!! Anyhow, I made it worse on myself by binge watching I-land and En-oclock, so now my brain is coming up with a million different delulu ideas about Enha and &team — Especially cuz I’m getting heavily bias wrecked rn. For the past 2 years+ I’ve been a consistent Jake, Heeseung, Ni-Ki, Nicholas, Yuma, and Maki stan. Now all of a sudden, Jungwon, Jay, K, and Taki (and Fuma, bro, he’s all over my TikTok, SAVE ME) are trying to get alll up in my business. FIRST OF ALL, rude. Second of all, RUDE. I’m so committed to the bit with Jake and Nico, I need everyone else to leave me the fuck alone……. (Stares longingly at K). Anyhow. I digress.
Moral of the story, still an NCTzen, just need the boys and my followers to show signs of life to pull me back into the brainrot. Still incredibly down bad for Johnny. That will never ever change. I have an obsession with Enha and &team rn, but it will pass and we’ll be back to our regularly scheduled poly!NCT programming in no time (Though, admittedly and selfishly, ppl sending asks will speed that process along)
Hopefully that helps! I know a lot of ppl are lowkey in the same boat as me… NCT is just in a weird spot rn, sadly for us Czennie. If you guys have any other questions or concerns, never feel scared to ask! 💚
I ate so much food today honesty feeling a bit sick 😫