#author thoughts

[writerformanymuses]

i don't cope with my trauma. i put it in my writing and make some other poor sap cope with my fucking trauma for me.

i'm doubling that shit and giving it to the next person.

[fir-fireweed]

I’ve hemmed and hawed over writing this post for a while now—several months, in fact. But as this is something that will affect my writing, I want to be upfront.

I’m going to speak about my health in some detail, so if you’d rather not see, I’ll put it below the cut.

What I will say above the cut is that, due to medical reasons, there will be a longer than usual period between the next couple of updates. At the very least, chapters 7 and 8 will be delayed.

This is NOT a hiatus announcement. Cantata WILL be updated regularly, but those updates will be less frequent as I prioritize my health and family. Cantata, and writing in general, is my happy place, which I now need more than ever.

Thank you for understanding. Take care of yourselves, friends. ❤️

The situation in more detail, for those comfortable reading it…

I’m facing a pretty extensive and life altering surgery next month. Google APR surgery if you’re curious and not queasy. I have a very large, pre-cancerous mass that needs to be removed. Unfortunately, due to the placement of this mass, they also have to remove the organ it’s attached to.

Everything about my life will change post-surgery. It’s scary and mind boggling and frankly not something I ever imagined for my life. I have no idea what my writing schedule will look like in the near future. Heck, it may even improve. 🤷🏻‍♀️ I’ll be unable to work for several months so maybe I’ll have more time to write. One can hope.

For my readers approaching 35, 40, 45 years of age… get your colonoscopies and get them early. And if you’re not that age yet, tell your parents to do it. Tell them Fir says to go get their colons checked! 🫵

If you’re curious and so inclined, I’ve created a second tumblr blog to share this experience. You absolutely do not have to follow me there if you’re uncomfortable! But I’ve realized that even if I’m shouting into the void, it’s cathartic for me to talk about and document this. I am a writer, after all. 😉 You can find me at @fir-bag.

To end on a positive, my family, friends, and even my employer have all been incredibly supportive and encouraging. I’ve got a great team in my corner. 💪🏻 Not sure what I’ll look like on the other side of this, but I’m hopeful. That’s how I write my stories, and that’s how I choose to write my life. ❤️

[spoiledblogif]

*sigh*

So. I started a project a long time ago that I think would make a good IF. Any one interested in a demo?

(I will finish Second Sight before moving onto another project, I promise)

[meshla-cyarika]

Can I be honest for a second and say that one of my biggest fanfiction pet peeves is when someone will write their character or the reader insert as someone who should in theory be really badass (for example a Jedi or a Mandalorian, or an Avenger, or a soldier/fighter in general) and then make them really weak and basically not be able to handle themselves at all? Like come on realistically these mfs should be able to kill someone. Maybe this is just me being a girl who isn't girly, but I just want a character like this who can actually defend themselves and doesn't cry and need to be picked up by their s/o all the time.

[ava-morgannn]

Nobody talks about how damaging being a reader AND a writer is. Like I can't read a book normally without either: a) mentally criticizing every poorly constructed sentence and analyzing it or b) comparing an EDITED AND PROFESSIONALLY PROOFREAD piece of published work to my MEANT-TO-BE-BAD-FIRST DRAFT and proceeding to gaslight myself into thinking I'm shit and being thrust into a week-long writing hiatus.

I CAN NEVER WIN

[leoneliterary]

I'm reminding myself that y'all do not want to hear my rant about the Epic of Gilgamesh.

[fir-bag]

Welcome to my side blog, y’all! You can find me on my main at @fir-fireweed, a space dedicated to my Interactive Fiction works.

This space is dedicated to my journey with my upcoming colorectal surgery, and after, adapting to my new life post-surgery with a colostomy bag. I think it will be therapeutic for me to document this journey. I am a writer, after all. I write about hope and heart and real connections. And if ever there was a time for me to seek solace and healing through writing, it’s now.

I am also eager to hear from other ostomates about their experiences. I welcome any advice, tips, and humor you can bring. I am eager to hear your stories! I want this to be a safe space for all. Understand that I will not tolerate ridicule or shaming on this blog. Be respectful, or go away.

If you followed me here from my main writing blog, thank you from the bottom of my heart! You have no idea how much your support means to me. 🫶🏻 If you stumbled upon me randomly, welcome! Pull up a chair, grab a blanket, and prepare to laugh, cry, and share all the feels. ❤️

[belethlegwen]

Hey so I am still screaming, crying, throwing up over this but please look:

The incredible @ash-and-steel reached out to me a while ago to ask about printing and binding a copy of The Stranding for themselves and I was so blown away by how cool an idea that was. Then they suggested binding a second and I offered to pay the shipping and now.

Now I own a copy of the first 79 chapters of something I wrote, and that is just so wild to me 🥺 This is so nice. So beautiful. So crazy and touching.

3lbs, 3 pages of a table of contents, and 773 pages. I genuinely can't believe it.

This is the coolest thing in the world to me and I just wanted to share how near this is. Thank you again, Tau!