#autism rambles

[certifiedhusbunny]

I see NO ONE talk about how BIG Other Frankie is during the water section- LIKE GOOD SIR? HELLO? I get he's supposed to be a magician rabbit don't get me wrong but also? Can you hold me? In a single hand maybe? Let me kiss your big nose that's probably the size of my head- ANYWAYS WE SHOULD TALK ABOUT THIS MORE

[strawberry-pawfait]

Every day I think about that time I was kinda crushing on someone and didn't know how to talk to them, so I asked if they. If they wanted to call with me while I did this quiz where I name as many Pokémon as possible for like 2 hours

And it... sorta worked? Kinda?

I didn't do as well as I could've because I was distracted and flustered so I did it again after the call was over and sent the results to them lmao

Be honest guys is that rizz? Would that endear me to you? Is it anything?

[no1ryomafan]

My getter brain rot makes no fucking sense sometimes when it this is the many such cases of autism but currently being like I put off arc for a entire month not because I hate it cause “animation bad” I actually was enjoying it more but in a point rn where “wow I don’t wanna see shit of emperor future! Or the arc team breaking up or hayato dying” and I feel bad for it since it’s delaying the fact I should watch other things (but also homework happened) but then I am immensely new brain rotted to the point I want to start drafting my review even if it’s gonna take MONTHs and instead of rewatching it for a refresher I’m gonna be rewatching arma instead for nearly the 10th time…. Why do I do this LOL

[3-geeseinatrenchcoat]

So I got was researching Ukrainian horse breeds and kind of fell into a rabbit hole. I currently have 20 tabs open, I pity my computer, BUT

I KEEP WINNING

And these are JUST Wikipedia sources, imagine how much I can find if I keep digging.

The book is 575 pages long, I’m absolutely ecstatic.

This ^ was from researching about the Ukrainian Saddle Horse spesifically

But GUESS WHAT

I ALSO WAS RESEARCHING THE HUCUL HORSE (it’s not exactly a Ukrainian breed, its from the Carpathian mountains, but part of the mountains are in Ukraine and I’ve seen a couple sources that mention them as a Ukrainian or partially Ukrainian breed)

BUT I FOUND THE STUDBOOK OF ORIGIN FOR THEM

IM SO EXCITED

OH ALSO I FOUND OUT THAT THE OKLAHOMA STATE UNIVERSITY WEBSITE HAS INFO ON A TON OF HORSE BREEDS

216 BREEDS IF I DIDNT COUNT WRONG

[pippylehmansstocks]

@heyho-simonrussellbeale ( sorry for the tag but this is a post of all my simon merch as of 7/8/25 )

PROGRAMMES:

[ btw, I bough these all second hand bc I wasn't alive when some of these were performed and also I was very young when others were performed too xD ]

- The Duchess of Malfi

- Hamlet [ it's also signed by him !! ]

- Othello

- Timon of Athens

- Richard III

- Mr Foote's Other Leg

- The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde

- Macbeth

- Titus Andronicus [ bought 2 when I got the tickets so I haven't got them yet :p ]

DVDS:

- Sacred Music - Simon's documentary on classical music [ all of it is on YT but I have a physical copy too :-) ]

- The Tempest - Official RSC DVD

[ planning on getting the A Dance To The Music of Time DVD also ]

MISC:

- three keychains I customised [ I have Thersites, Sir Harcourt Courtly & Simon himself but the clasp thingy broke off so I need to get a new one ]

- idk if this counts but I have a copy of the version of London Assurance he performed [ he's on the cover of it so i'm guessing it does count?? ]

- does this count? i also got an othello ticket that came with my programme :3

[ ALSO, I WILL GET A PHYSICAL COPY OF A PIECE OF WORK BUT I HAVE THE AUDIOBOOK OF IT !!! ]

[dilutedapplejuice]

Tw: descriptions of (fictional) abuse, neglect, and complex trauma

I’m rewatching soul eater (finally) and I’m at crona, the traumatized non-binary icon!!! And WOW are they autistic. So I’m making a list about it!

All my examples will be transcriptions (from episode 8) bc Hulu won’t let me screenshot it lol

*spoilers for Crona’s entire character arc*

1) Responding to abuse using very obvious logic

*Ragnarok starts hitting Crona and pulling on their skin*

Crona: That hurts me. It hurts! It hurts! It hurts! Stop moving around like that you’re squeezing me! Don’t poke me! Ow! Stop already. Don’t push my nose! You’re bruising me. Stop it now! I’ve had enough already!

Ragnarok: Now, now, calm down Crona. You’re so scary when you’re stressed out like this.

Ragnarok: If you don’t get it in gear we’re going back to the sleep deprivation again.

Crona: No! Don’t start waking me up every hour again! I don’t like it. The dark circles under my eyes will come back and I don’t know how to deal with the dark circles!

Ragnarok: If you let him hit you with that technique again, I’m gonna stick thumb tacks in your shoes. Got it?

Crona: No! Thumbtacks in my shoes would stick into my feet whenever I tried to walk. It would hurt. I don’t think I could deal with that, really.

*Crona gets hit so hard that cartoony stars and planets start circling their head*

Crona: There are stars and planets floating around me. I don’t think I can handle astronomy right now.

This is a bit hard to explain. Crona is describing things that are somewhat obvious to intuit (of course walking in shoes with thumb tacks on the bottom would hurt). Maybe this is a coping mechanism, to help them feel more grounded and in control. Maybe doing this repetitively is soothing, or compulsive (notice how it’s all the same format? “I don’t know how to deal with this!”).

Maybe they are trying to get Ragnarok to see their perspective so that they stop hurting them. But in that case, it seems somewhat clear that these pleads are not working. It’s almost certain that Crona has been doing this type of appeal consistently, even before they are seen in episode 7. Yet we see at least 3 incidents within 30 minutes of the show where Ragnarok not only chooses to bully Crona, but ignores anything they say (or paints them as overreacting). A different person might use their social cognition skills to intuit that Ragnarok will not listen to any kind of emotional appeal and make some other kind of attempt. Crona doesn’t seem to understand this however. They just keep hitting the same wall.

So not only does Crona not have a natural way of understanding social subtext, but they never had the chance to develop it because they were isolated and abused since childhood! It’s a double whammy.

2) Having specific rules with interacting with other things

Medusa: Crona, why are you taking it so easy? Do something.

Crona: It’s not like the ones before. Those were boys. She’s a girl. I’m no good with girls. What am I supposed to do with her?

Medusa: *laughs* How silly… Kill her of course.

Ragnarok: Wouls you hurry up and attack already you idiot?!

*Crona begins attacking*

Crona: But I’ve never seen a man with a screw sticking out of his head before! I don’t know how I’m supposed to deal with a guy like that.

Ragnarok: You eat him! Swallow his soul!

They are struggling with knowing how to interact with new things- a girl, a man with a screw in his head. Considering how extreme their isolation was, it’s likely that they are nervous and uncertain in the way an abled person might feel around a visibly disabled person, or a white person might feel around someone who is BIPOC. They don’t know what’s appropriate. But with how they’ve been encouraged to kill everyone they interact with, I would say this ain’t a typical response. Many people in their situation would follow the pattern and think “I’ve been told to kill x, x, and x. There’s another person who’s not my master or weapon. I should kill them too.” That’s not too much of a stretch, I’d say.

But the fact that they have a specific rule set to follow and struggle to apply it to new things strikes me as uniquely autistic thought process.

3) Struggling to understand other perspectives

*Maka hits Crona because they run up and attack*

Crona: You’re going to start poking at me also?

Maka: You should know that the hunting of human souls is strictly forbidden!

Crona: She [Medusa] said that it was okay to eat the human souls. I don’t see what’s wrong with it if she said that it was okay.

They just… kind of assume other people already fit into the context of their own world. Crona thinks that they are following the rules perfectly and is confused when other people challenge those rules. If Maka defends herself and hits Crona, she is the strange one because wasn’t Crona doing exactly what Medusa wanted? Why is Maka poking at them too? And why is Maka saying that Medusa is wrong? Medusa said it was okay, so it must be okay!

This is all clearly because Crona was brainwashed. Medusa seems like the only source of truth in Crona’s world because that was how they were raised. That’s literally the only thing they know. They just haven’t grown those skills of empathy to understand how other people might think. This just seems like such a specifically autistic way to be traumatized because of their adherence to the given rules/authority.

4) The way they talk

They just have that autistic accent. Idk if they’ve hit puberty yet, but they sound like a little kid. Slightly whiny, breathy. And that’s trademark autistic.

5) Eye contact

They are almost never looking at people’s faces. This could be trauma, this could be autism. Likely both.

6) Gender

This is kind of a “duh” point, but autistic people are more likely to be trans or gnc, either because they don’t understand intangible concepts or social concepts, struggle to present in a way that conforms with their AGAB, or don’t feel as obligated to follow arbitrary rules just to fit in. Regardless of if Crona is canonically a “boy” or not, they clearly don’t conform- our first intro to then was when they were mistaken for a girl and verbally assaulted. It’s likely a mix of their pink androgynous hair, childish voice, and clothes that makes them seem like this. They also don’t seem too bothered by different pronouns, if they even notice a difference at all.

7) Daydreaming

In the end, we learn that Crona constantly escapes into their own mind where they are on a tiny desert/beach planet, where they are happy and have an imaginary friend (if I remember correctly- I haven’t made it to this part in the show yet). This is also a very autistic trauma response. I wouldn’t be surprised if they had some kind of dissociative disorder like DID or OSDD and their friend just never fronted. And the specific fantasy of having someone who understands and loves you, in a small, controlled environment where you can do repetitive things for however long you want to…. It’s autism baby.

And… that’s a wrap! Thanks for reading!

And yes. This is a silly Tumblr post by an autistic person who doesn’t have any major trauma. I have no hope of understanding the complexities of childhood abuse and brainwashing. There’s no way for me to actually discern whether a fictional character is suffering from being programmed as a living weapon, or if they’re autistic (I mean, many things listed could be a result of Crona completely losing their free thinking ability and being dependent of their master to do all the thinking. Of course, and that’s exactly how Medusa intended it. Trauma does imitate autism in some manners. I just like to make lists). I just like to think that Crona’s psychology is a result of both.

Anyway. Drink some water!

[catcadaverzz]

I hate living in America cuz of this ONE. THING.

FUCKING FIREWORKS.

[suikaduo]

sorry babe not right now im busy watching jo josniffy epicsmp youtube video for the 80th time this year do you wanna watch it with me(please say yes its my favourite video of all time)