#autismthings

[why-be-alive]

Swear my autism is levelling up.

Like this week it’s been so weird I do feel like a lot less empathetic than I usually do but also a few people have said I’ve been too blunt or rude (and I didn’t even know and always try not to be)

But also like my (impulses?) not sure that’s the right term but my brain is dumb right now, seem to be getting worse like my tapping or shaking my fist or smacking (not hard) random objects and it’s starting to really bug me

But like I have an appointment with the autism and adhd team on the 3rd (FINALLY) but if I straight up go hey the autisms levelled up they’re gonna be like oh this prick fucked up

Many way thanks for coming to my TED talk (RANT)

[jazthepiratequeen]

It took me 20 years to master smiling and now you’re telling me because of the mask I have to learn how to smile with my eyes as well???

[jazthepiratequeen]

Where’s my autistic I can’t drink water squad at?

I cannot drink water unless it’s through a straw because otherwise it feels too light and makes me cry

[jazthepiratequeen]

Learning sarcasm skills from allistics has created a new and all powerful autistic sarcasm for me

I know I’m being sarcastic but no one I talk to does

Like no one

Ever.

[jazthepiratequeen]

When THAT horrible sound happens and you get the fight or flight goosebumps

[autistic-faerie-child]

Not knowing exactly what you did that was so wrong, but all the sudden someone is so mad at you they won’t even talk to you?

[whatamidoing-universe]

Autism:

Autism is like a second skin,

like a snake that wraps around you and won't let go,

it gets scared by loud noises,

by crowds and perfume,

it gets scared and squeezes round

your ribs

making it

hard

to

breathe

It slithers in your skull,

clogging the thinking space,

it slithers in the space between words,

autism speaks parcel-tongue

and the snake has to interpret all others

causing a

…..delay

Autism heightens senses

it makes certain foods inedible,

certain clothing unwearable.

Autism is a snake around your shoulders

it gains weight around people,

getting heavier and heavier

until you can no longer stand

It is also a friend,

to wrap around your hand,

to decorate your hair,

it slithers into your heart

and

keeps you apart

but you don't care,

because the snake is always there

Autism is a snake

a snake you'll never shake,

there asleep and awake,

I love my autism snake.