Positively Unhappy

⚠️I’m They/them Just going off the rails if I’m honest lads. Diagnosed with C-PTSD, Autism, Depression fand Anxiety Disorder... this is just me venting my feelings so trigger warning for the profile.

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Are you limiting your screen time?

Of course.

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Nothing more gutting than wanting to slam your head into a wall but realising all the walls in your flat would fucking crumble at first contact and now you gotta deal with two problems.

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NHS mental health services begging me to finally kill myself.

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There aren’t many people in the world you can laugh and joke about finding su*c1d3 methods in very unlikely yet ironic places on the internet and then laugh about accidentally fuckin it up and I’m so lucky I have them.

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Nothing like a tumblr scroll in the waiting room for my mental health appointment.

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‘You can push through the pain, the fear, and come out the other side’

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Kinda funny I can *almost* forgive a guy for r’ing me on my birthday and spending weeks terrified of pregnancy and all that shit but the c*nt thinks it’s absolutely fine that people are being fucking slaughtered at aid stations and ‘they deserve it’

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Turns out I’m the biggest piece of shit ever….been havin a real shit time and to top it off my neighbour (who has been a horrific issue for 2 years since I moved in… death threats, crackheads trying to break into my house, threats with weapons all the fun stuff)

Well they clearly been on a drug binge the last few days, even more shouting, music, visitors than usual etc and this morning after no sleep because my own mental health has been in the dirt, in crisis, alone, overwhelmed and my own failed attempt I actually said out loud I wish they would just fucking die.

Was just out having a cig… paramedics have turned up and escorted them out of the property, and my first thought was at least I’ll have a night without being scared in my own home… so yep. Going to hell.

[3m0g1rlyyy]

All fun and games till i remember when i was 11 i was crying my eyes out and begging god to take my life when i fall asleep so i could finally rest in peace.

[twentysevendreamer-deactivated2]

Just let me die just let me die just let me die Just let me die just let me die just let me die Just let me die just let me die just let me die Just let me die just let me die just let me die Just let me die just let me die just let me die Just let me die just let me die just let me die Just let me die just let me die just let me die Just let me die just let me die just let me die Just let me die just let me die just let me die Just let me die just let me die just let me die Just let me die just let me die just let me die Just let me die just let me die just let me di

[drvgged-xo]

[aliciamaynardsworld2]

[bagofcellz]

[sweetechinacea]

your disorder is still valid if you:

- aren’t uw

- don’t fast

- do high res

- have never fainted

- labs are okay

- like food

- binge / “lose control”

- don’t exercise

- don’t purge

- eat sweets / junk

if your thoughts and behaviours around food cause you significant distress, you have an ed.

[strvingsiren]

I’m 26hrs into my three day f4st. I’m planning on breaking the fast on New Years Day. I figured what better way to end the new year than with discipline