just how deep could it be, a wound caused by a simple sentence ? she'd had no desire to find the answer to this inquiry, but the reality of it all had just wrapped its arms around her 𝐭𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐥𝐲 enough for her to harbor the symbolic fear of ribs breaking and leaving her breathless. then again, would drawing her last breath in front of a dearly missed girl — no, a grown person by now — be the worst possible way to leave this life behind ?
there had been a time when the senator, draped in softest silks, had watched after this former padawan learner, secretly hoping she would spin around and run right back into her embrace. it was still a mystery to padmé why exactly she had felt such a strong connection forming between herself and trilla, but losing it had hurt immensely, proving every emotion painfully real and true. she'd kept waiting and hoping, knowing those two acts could be easily included in the things she'd always been quite talented in. and then, one day, all that they'd ever known and experienced even remotely safe, had gotten torn apart right before their eyes. she had been the one to run and disappear, answering to 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐲'𝐬 call more or less reluctantly. trilla on the other hand, if looked through padmé's perspective, had turned into the one who'd been waiting and receiving nothing but the echos from what could have been.
a steadying breath was drawn as her lips finally parted, ❝ i know. i wasn't there when you needed me and i regret it deeply. you deserve no cheap excuses and i won't try offering you any. ❞ where her words were as confident as they could, considering the circumstances, her tone of voice was everything but. it wavered, sadness pouring out between every spoken 𝐬𝐲𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞. ❝ trilla — trilla, i pray that one day you'll forgive me. had my health allowed it, i'd been right there waiting for you. ❞ when the remains of goodness had collapsed, she'd welcomed two new lives into the chaos.
you didn’t show up. i kept waiting. :: @avengeus