#avocado.txt

[cryptidamami]

I WAS GOING THRU THE ANTI ANTI TAG (because I enjoy causing myself emotional pain) AND I ACCIDENTALLY LIKED A POST AND MY WHOLEASS HEART STOPPED

[decayindustries]

i am not going to cry i am not going to cry i am not going to cry i am not going to cry i am n

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me: ahhhh. finally… i am alone

my cat: [comes out from behind the toilet] [Stares At Me] [screams when i try to kick her out]

me: why. Why

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i don’t know the context for this but i accept this lil buddy

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diversity win! this disabled near-child has learned how to hide that it just sobbed for 30 minutes

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my body feels like i have a fever girl help

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the magneto/macbeth pipeline.... it goes both ways

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I posted 280 times in 2021

22 posts created (8%)

258 posts reblogged (92%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 11.7 posts.

I added 528 tags in 2021

#reblogged - 258 posts

#avocado.txt - 55 posts

#matt tag - 44 posts

#saved - 33 posts

#kin tag - 31 posts

#marvel tag - 29 posts

#billiam tag - 23 posts

#hcu (hamlet cinematic universe) tag - 19 posts

#glee tag - 19 posts

#horatio.txt - 17 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#matt having a sibling for the first time: [sweating] holy fuck why do i wanna deck him. why do i want to push him into the river like a cat

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

thank you tumblr very cool

14 notes • Posted 2021-01-02 00:00:45 GMT

#4

an open letter

to the people who are disgusting to us borderlines, or to the people who act like its just a haha quirky trait you can just assign yourself, i have some shit for you to consider:

i also hate this. i hate it with a burning passion. i hate that i get so terrified when i think something's happened to my fp that i literally freeze and throw up from fear, and when things are fine, i start crying genuine ugly tears from raw fucking relief, because i've convinced myself they're either dead/in the hospital/etc or they hate me, they're laughing at me behind my back.

i fucking hate feeling everything all at once all the fucking time. i hate knowing that yeah, like you call us, i'm toxic, i'm a bad fucking person. i hate that even with someone i love with all my heart i can hate them at a moment's notice because of a wrong i just perceived-- it might not even be fucking real.

i hate being afraid of myself and the fact that i can't tell if i'm just being reasonable, whether with my anger or my setting boundaries or my asking for help, or if i'm being cruel -- or selfish -- or toxic -- or just... overall fucking wrong. i hate knowing that when i feel, when i fall in love or when i turn on someone, just -- when i feel -- i feel /so fucking much./

i hate knowing that i'm unlovable because i am so intense and when i'm loyal, i'll feel that with everything i am -- but if i'm wronged, i react to a fault on that end too. i hate hearing everywhere that people like me can't be loved because we have needs, big needs, needs that are too much-- we're unlovable because we're fire, we're /evil./ i hate fearing abandonment so much that i will do /anything/ to prevent it, even if the risk i thought was there isn't.

i hate that when i feel a high, it's like floating above the world -- because my lows? i have to come crashing back down in a ball of fire and land facefirst in an emotional valley, a fucking abyss. below the ocean floor. and that can happen in the matter of five fucking minutes!

i don't have a fancy ending or explaination for you. i just know i fucking hate it here! let me out!

feel free to reblog if u have bpd by the way, but i'd prefer if it wasn't self diagnosed people. self suspecting is fine (there's nuance here, feel free to message me/send me an ask/reply here if you want to discuss my thoughts on it.)

20 notes • Posted 2021-07-29 03:48:37 GMT

#3

about me!

name: foggy/horatio [ more here. ]

pronouns: it / its  - xe / xyr / xem [ more here. ]

status: taken. president of the @propertyofdeduction fanclub :) and my best friend is @hemooryctolagus!

gender and orientation: nonbinary - polyamorous - queer

kinlist is here. 

my commissions info is here. 

special interests & hyperfixations: psychology. the beatles. musicals. marvel, especially x-men, defenders, & daredevil. dc, especially the titans / teen titans, john constantine / hellblazer, the batfamily, young justice, doom patrol, + red hood and the outlaws. glee. stephan king's it. hamlet. romeo & juliet. disclaimer: i interact with these critically.

do not interact if you… are a transmed, are pro-cop, are anti-blm, are anti-lgbtq+, support d.///d///.l.///g. / etc, support autism speaks, or if you support p.dos / maps. 

my other blogs are @guardianavocado (age regression), @blazingphoenix (aesthetic), @magneticxavier (mostly untagged venting), @rosyicarus (kin), @icaruslovecore (pda).

send me an ask about any of this, or about anything !!

23 notes • Posted 2021-01-10 20:13:00 GMT

#2

hello all. i'd like to address what i've seen nobody else mention: the ableism, specifically the continuing of stigma against cluster b people, by the netflix daredevil writers.

by showing poindexter getting diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, and showing him continually going back to the therapist who diagnosed him, they immediately portray the ableist trope of the evil borderline, implying that he does his evil things because he's mentally ill. it's continually implied that it's because he's an "oooo scary borderline" that he kills and stalks people, because it's sometimes because of his "outbursts" over the woman he "loves."

they also clearly did no research, because they show on screen poindexter getting diagnosed around age 8 - 10 (i can't remember exactly) which would... never happen. it's incredibly rare and hard to get diagnosed before 18 at all, and you'd never be diagnosed with it at that young of an age - they normally wait for your brain to develop more. also his only symptoms were being... violent and angry, with some dissociation?? that's... not bpd, that's likely something else. also he's under 12 years old, it's not a bpd diagnosis at that point.

also, there was no reason to show him being diagnosed with anything on screen, except to say "see? he's mentally ill and That's Why!" which is ableist and disgusting.

i have more thoughts on this but my thoughts are hard to gather. i don't mind discussion on this post, just please avoid being ableist. reblogs are fine, and encouraged.

35 notes • Posted 2021-04-01 15:29:37 GMT

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124 notes • Posted 2021-03-03 02:56:33 GMT

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