Insecure - Simon "Ghost" Riley x reader
Summary: You have been hiding your body and just yourself overall from Simon the last month leaving him confused.
Warning: Sexual themes (but not smut), language, bodyshaming, angst?
You were sitting in your apartment watching your favourite show when there was a knock at your door.
You weren't really expecting anyone since it was a Friday night. Most people were out drinking or clubbing.
You walked towards your door and opened it. You were about to close the door again when you saw it was your boyfriend, Simon, but he blocked it with his foot.
Sighing you just opened the door again and let him in. You knew this was going to happen eventually.
"What's wrong, love?" Simon asked once you closed the door. He was now standing in front of you. You felt small under his piercing gaze.
"Nothing, I don't know what you're talking about, Si" You replied with a frown. You began to walk away to sit on your couch but was stopped when Simon grabbed your waist and held you in place.
"Stop lying y/n. Why have you been avoiding me?" Simon asked with a hint of desperation in his voice. He hasn't been able to hold you or see you for that matter for the last two weeks. He was hurt to say the least. He kept thinking that he did something wrong or that you were planning to break up with him.
After a few moments of silence Simon asks again. "Do you want to break up with me?" He asked softly, he's voice cracking at the end of the sentence.
"What?! No, why would I want to do that?" You were confused on how he came to that conclusion. But you then realized why he would think that. You have been avoiding him but not for that reason.
"You've been avoided me for the last two weeks. Did I do something? Tell me what I did wrong and I'll make it up to you. Just please don't leave me" Simon was on the verge of tears now but he wouldn't tell you that. The thought of loosing you was tearing his heart into pieces.
"No Si, you didn't do anything wrong okay. I promise." You held Simon's face in your hands
"Then why have you been avoiding me y/n?" Simon asked you softly while pulling you closer to him.
There was a short moment of silence before you spoke up. You thought it was time to tell the truth. "Some of the women I work with have been body shaming me. It started a few days after you dropped off my lunch at work. They said that the don't know how you aren't disgusted everytime you see me. How you deserve someone prettier that me. Someone with a better body. They said that someone so goodlooking like you don't deserve an ugly girl like me. I'm sorry I let it get to me Si, I just couldn't help it" You looked down at the floor while tears started to stream down your face.
You knew you shouldn't have believed them but you couldn't help it. Your whole life you were bullied because of how you look and you're body. It was never enough for anyone. You were either too skinny or too fat. There was never an in between.
You felt Simon's rough hand under your chin as he lifted your head to make you look at him. He wiped away a few tears that escaped with his thumb.
"Love, everytime I see you, my heart skips a beat. You are the most beautiful person I have ever laid my eyes on. You are so, so, so beautiful. Never forget that." Simon reassured while he sat you down on the couch. He kneeled between your legs and kissed you softly.
"I love your eyes. I love your lips. I love your cheeks. I love your hair. I love your chin. I love your hands. I love you stomach. I love your thighs.-" Simon punctuated everything he loves about you with a kiss on that area.
"I love you. I love all of you, y/n. If something like that happens again tell me. I'll set them straight. Trust me love, they're just jealous of how gorgeous you are. They're jealous because you are beautiful on the inside and the outside." Simon said looking at you with love and admiration. He couldn't believe how you thought other wise. To him, you are the most beautiful thing in the universe. Argue with the wall.
Everything about you made him fall in love with you. How your eyes lit up when someone mentioned your interests. Or how soft your lips are. He loved how you laughed at the most dumbest things. Or your little dance when you finally eat something after a long day. He loved every single thing about you.
"Besides what do they mean by I'm goodlooking? They've never even seen my face. Who says I don't look like a rat?" Simon said jokingly making you laugh and slap his shoulder.
"I love you, y/n. More than anything" Simon said and captured your lips in his.
The kiss was soft and sweet. He has been waiting to kiss you for the last 2 weeks. He savored the taste of your soft lips.
You pulled away after a few seconds to catch your breath. Simon got up from the floor and layed down on the couch. He came here with sweatpants and a T-shirt on so he didn't have to worry about changing. He kicked his shoes off and held his arms open for you.
You layed down onto of him with your head on his chest. His arms were around your waist and he kissed your head every now and then. He whispered soft and sweet nothings into your ear while you drifted off to a peaceful slumber.
"My beautiful girl" Simon whispered softly before falling asleep with you safely in his strong arms.
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