#avy rants

[avyanna-sloane]

There's always music playing inside my head. Always a tune to get me through the day. But when it's not loud enough to drown out my chaotic thoughts... that's where headphones come in.

[avalia-8bit]

UNPOPULAR OPINION

panty shots are completely acceptable if physics would normally give one, but for the pure sake of fanservice it's completely unacceptable and pr stupid

like a heroine can get a panty shot from kicking someone too fast if the physics call for it but if it's just like from them doing something on purpose it's dumb

imo the idea of panty shots being naughty just continues the trend of them being looked down on & if you don't think a girl accidentally shows them from time to time in fight scenes i don't know what to say

[avalia-8bit]

!!!!!!! haku's demo for liv sounds amazing omg ahhhhhhh //////v////

[avalia-8bit]

utau recommendations /// favorites list for now

list of my favorite male utaus (in order):

1) kiei suikomi

2) shima hakone (before, shima/kiei were tied but then kirrin did a bunch of different addons and i m really excite)

3) caeles / eDIT I FORGOT WEVERN

4) dunno, maybe delta?? or weeaboo otakune

list of my favorite female utaus (in order):

1) av-01 liv/av-02 layla (yes i like my own utaus most go ahead murder me)

2) mona minarai (mostlybecausetheenglishbankissexy)

3) tie between amagaku, kazuko, and mimi yorune

3.5) IF ROgOT SOLARIA BBY she's not my complete fave but i really really really really really likes olaria and i regret using her for elia in eva eve since elia dies and i want to use her more especially when her multipitch and ahhhhhhh

4) maybe halt tanner/kumi hitsuboku and cassei eden (she'd actually be 2 or 3 with future banks) or cri there are too many female utaus and i love a lot of them so b

i would say more male but i don't know many male utaus and i normally love them so

notice how all of the ones i listed are overseas, whoops,, i have a bias to like utaus made in countries outside of japan (especially when they have a voicebank for the maker's native language mmmmm <3 english with english speakers, and swedish bank for a swedish maker oh yes!! french and spanish and korean and cantonese and mandarin and ahhhhhhh lovely languages yesssss)

[avalia-8bit]

beware this is a rant and it's not targeted at anyone and it's not THAT BIG A DEAL but it's like, oh, ok i feel a bit bad but not too much??

i feel like a lot of the utau fandom doesn't like me

and i'm not saying that because of like how they don't like me as a person but how i go about utau making

i spend almost a year on each of my voicebanks to make them as high quality as i can ((admittedly they still need work)) and then i release them through release contests similar to galaco's

the only requirements are: cover a song of mine (you can even make your own ust as long as it's my song and there's an instrumental--hell you could even make your own instrumental) with an overseas utau, and get 100 views (it used to be 200 but i realized that's WAAYY too much and i'm lowering it, because jfc)

i understand how some people think it's really annoying of me to release my utaus this way, but i spend so long on them and take a long time to make each original i make as well (and now, i'm even writing my own demos for my utaus and there are like 3 demos per new voicebank + future originals i make with them) so i want to be special somehow??

yes i know i can achieve this through other ways, but to me it's not the idea of someone using my utau that makes me happy--it's the idea that someone WANTS to use my utau, that actually enters a contest that they're not even sure that they'll get enough views ever even if it's ongoing to try to obtain it, and that makes me happy to know that someone likes them that much

so tl;dr i feel like a lot of the people i talk to don't like me because of my utau's release contests and think that it's really egotistical, small-minded and self-centered of me to do but i want to be special and stand out some way and know who downloads the voicebanks i work so hard to complete

((//endrant))

[avalia-8bit]

WHAT TO DO WHEN I POST A LINK TO SOMETHING I MADE

A lot of people I talk to don't really say anything when I post something and I mean, I know how it feels to get a brain derp, but when you say just "nice" and then move on, that's the worst for me. So. I just wrote this 'cuz lol. You don't have to take it seriously haha it's just like if you wanna know me better |D

On covers:

You don't have to say a thing. Like no srsly I never cover songs and when I do, it's actually normally with my real voice, which sucks, so if you don't want to say anything you don't really have to and I'll brush it off. But if I ask for critique or something on it, ye I might want you to say something but if you don't really want to, just say so and I'll be fine with that = v =)/

On originals:

I'm an attention whore when it comes to originals, I'll be honest. I will do anything to get the spotlight if I have a wip or I just finished something. And I'll feel really bad if you don't say anything at all, so woops. Hehe. Whether it's a wip or actually something finished, DON'T JUST SAY NICE. If you don't like it, say so and say why!! I love critique on originals. On wips, I usually try out advice, and if I finished something, I may not fix it, but I'll keep your advice in mind for next time!! But always sandwich your critique with a few good points that I did, like "I love the vocals, but the drums are a bit odd. Oh, and the.. harp thing is pretty." Stuff like that I'm fine with haha

On art:

You can just say "nice" if you don't want to be mean haha- I hate my art so you can seriously point out everything wrong with it. Be brutal. Idrc. I haaaaaate my art it's just ughhh ye //hides in shame

i didn't mean to target anyone with this i just wanted to do like a guide thing to how to deal with me because i can be an emotional mess if you don't know me very well

[avalia-8bit]

family vent post

I'm tired of you all making me feel useless.

To my brother, who I used to look up to for being strong and actually somewhat caring for me, I now can't stand you. Not only because you've "borrowed" money from me and never given it back, but because you never try anything anymore. You used to get so involved, and you don't try to get a job now, when you need one. You yell at me for doing small things. "Whining." Not being able to lift something. Being afraid of spiders. It makes me feel useless.

To my mother, who I used to look up to for caring for me, for being a single parent, holding our family together somehow against all odds, being a role model, I now can't stand you. Not only because you've become an alcoholic smoker, but because you don't care for me and what I do, or try to really even relate to me. I know even though we have different interests it's hard to talk to me. But the reason I always "annoy" you talking to you at breakfast when you're reading the paper is because I want to have a conversation; I want you to understand me. And when you turn to your daughter after your son scolds her, and agree with your son, you may not realize it hurts more than words can describe.

I act like I hate you a lot. I know. But deep down I have to admit that I want us to act like we love each other, and that we can look up to each other and respect our own family. But as it is now, I just can't bring myself to.

[avalia-8bit]

i hate when people tell me to look at something and i'm busy, and i reply "i'm not clicking links" but THEN THEY PRESSURE ME INTO CLICKING IT ANYWAY AND TAKE ME ON A GUILT TRIP LIKE WHAT??

so i decide to not click any links that day and that means >>any<< is there a huge issue with that???