#awesome talks

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And so it begins.

PSAT today. Let’s get this over with.

The psat cannot stop me from

Making MEMES

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ADHDJSGSHHRG YOOOO HAPPY BIRTHDAY DUDE!!!!!!!!!

THABKS!!!

My sister claimed she was gonna get me drunk but I dunno if that’ll hold.

Guess I’ll see!

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To my mother.

I am sorry. I am sorry that I can’t help you

I’m sorry I don’t do enough

I’m sorry for all the problems and the tears that I’ve caused you

All the gray hairs and pain

I am sorry for the messes I’ve made and the trouble I’ve cause

I’m sorry that I could not be who you wanted

I am sorry that I do not fit into the daughter you wished I’d be

I am sorry for everything I’ve done and everything I haven’t

For all the Cs and Ds that stressed you out

For all the fits and tantrums

For all the “excuse her” and “excuse us”

And the “I’m sorry, my daughter is a little... odd”

For the fights and agurements

I am sorry.

I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry

I am sorry that I could not be the daughter you wanted nor needed

I am sorry that I’ve made you wish you hadn’t had me

I am sorry for not fitting into what you believe a good daughter should be

I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry

I am sorry for all the apologies I am required to make

Because you are the adult and I am the child

For every poor choice of words and stepping out of my place

I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry

For the fear I’ve caused you when I told you I wasn’t straight

And for the secret I’ve kept from you

I am sorry that some days I do not consider myself your daughter

For some days I am just your child

I am sorry that I’m afraid of you

And how you will react when I have guts to tell you

That I am not your daughter

If it is because I finally admit to myself that I am not a girl

Or if it is because I cannot stand how you treat me anymore.

I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry.

I have never been the perfect daughter nor could I have been

I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry

I am sorry for the tears I’ve caused and the tears I will cause

I am sorry for the times I hated you for no reason and the times I hated you for a good one that youd never understand.

I am sorry for taking up space where you did not want, and never moving where you wished.

I am sorry for all the wrong words and the disrespect to you and to others

But most of all

I am sorry I am not who you want of me.

However.

I am not sorry for being me.

And nothing you can do, nor say, can change that.

I am not sorry and I will not be sorry for being me.

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Happy birthday! One more year into the hell called life! -Origami

Yup!

And thank you!

Quarantine birthday time

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1 part of my brain : do some digital art!

2nd part of my brain: FINISH INKTOBER

3rd part of my brain : hey. Hey. Yknow that blog you gotta make? PLAY SUBNAUTICA FOR THE PICTURES YOU NEED!

4th part of my brain: How about we sit around and do NONE of those and feel guilty. That’s a great idea.

Me: hnnnnnnnnnnNNNNNNN

Rational part of my brain: Hey. Study for the Theater test you have tm.

Me: Absolutely not.

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So! Today, because my last PAP Algebra teacher had moved away, my new one is basically doing all the introduction stuff.

On a notecard she had asked us to write our legal name, our preferred name and the period we were in. (And other questions but those are the most Important)

And I, being a baby Non-binary decided to be very VERY brave.

And I did this.

(Blacked out my legal name, I trust y’all but not that much)

So yea. My uh. My preferred name is Leo!

I am so nervous.

So I’ll see how it turns out!

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Autism Spec Mood

I would like to scream

Because instead of GETTING ON MY GAME

I AM MAKING THIS POST!