Updates:
I think, I owe this blog and some of my close friends here for some updates about my life while I'm on hiatus on my so-called safe place which is not anymore. I found my safe place on my friends, family, and ofcourse myself bitch. Gonna drop some selfies as well. Baka miss niyo na makita mukha ko char for glow up talaga 'yan. HAHAHAHA
Oh, kinig ka muna nito habang nagbabasa para ramdam mo ko.
August
I was very very miserable for this month. I was doing everything I could to get out of my emotions pero my mind was really blank and my heart's numb. Ang dami kong inabala kasi sobrang bigat sa pakiramdam kaya dinadaan ko na lang sa work kaysa mang-abala ng ibang tao. Yes, I became workaholic but eh, because of that they gave me more clients. So bale, I have five clients before I became regular sa work. I'm so very proud of myself. Grabe, after what happened there are still opportunities na dumadating for me. I'm very very thankful for this month pa rin. I love opportunities na biglaan kahit sobrang stressful.
September
Oh, yeah right. For this month, I am genuinely happy. Like fuck, I'm growing to be a better person. Yung mga taong matagal ko na kakilala ay napansin din ung changes na nangyayari sa'kin. September was really a rollercoaster ride of emotions and events for me. Dito ko na-realize kung ano 'yung deserve ko, kung paano ako magiging masaya talaga, at kung ano at sino ang mga dapat kong pahalagahan. Sobrang proud ako sa sarili ko kasi nakaya ko. Nakaya ko lahat and all of these na nangyari are blessings. I don't even regret a thing. Idk pero everyday or at the end of the day, I am finding ways or something to be grateful for kasi hindi pwedeng lungkot at galit na lang nararamdaman ko. Deserve ko maging masaya, deserve ko rin mahalin ung sarili ko. Btw, regular na rin pala ako sa work nito, finally!
October
October's just starting pero gusto ko na rin i-update ung mga nangyari for 11 days because after this post, I will be hiatus again and will just reblog my friends' posts. Anyway, I am finally happy and growing. Like fuck, mapapaisip na lang talaga ako kung ako pa ba 'to? Pero yes, I am changing for the better, knowing na healing is not a linear process and my feelings are always valid. I finally know na, I don't need validation from the people from the past. Masaya na ako na proud mga kaibigan ko lalo na ung bestfriend ko sa'kin. I am very happy having quality time with my PBB family over video calls and movie nights. I just want to hug them and tell them that I love them in person.
After you left, I started paying attention to ones who have been there.
Self, you made it. Mahal kita kahit tangina ka pa rin.
For everyone who knew me or my friends here, thank you. :)
